My ND brain fucked my one chance at life. I hate myself

[SubhumanFoidHater]

If you read my last post you know how dire my situation is as a fat, 5'2, sub 5 manlet KHHV. I decided to get off the forum and give life one final chance before I end my own life. Surprisingly, I met a girl who was probably Lmtb and although she was 2 inches taller, she actually liked me and confessed it. I was overjoyed to actually feel loved and potentially lose my KHHV status and get a girlfriend because for the first time, someone actually liked me. My neurodivergence had other plans. We weren't dating yet but had plans to go to the cinema together. On Monday this week, My friends saw her with another boy who is strictly platonic to her and has been friends with her for a while. I clearly did not care for him and decided to let him be, but ultimately the pressure from my friends began to mount as they pressured me. Telling me I had to fight this other boy or they would remove me from the group for being such a pussy. My stupid, ND piece of shit brain couldn't understand that they didn't mean this so I beat him up even though I didn't want to. This event caused the one girl who has ever shown me affection my entire life to stop liking me. The worst part is, it wasn't through my looks. She liked me for who I was. It was the chance I begged for all those nights alone and I, myself lost her by being awful and beating up this boy. I had an actual chance. And the worst part? I'm still KHHV because our first date at the cinema was in 2 days. My life is hell and I hate everything. But most of all I hate myself. I hate myself because I had the chance to escape this prison of inceldom and loneliness, but I blew it all so my friends could give me a little bit of approval. I tried to overdose on paracetamol when I realised what I had done. I survived and am now very sick with paracetamol poisoning and am vomiting multiple times a day. I really wish heaven is real and I really wish I can go please. I hate this.

 

[_Zygomatic_]

A man who has nothing left to lose has everything to gain

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

A man who has nothing left to lose has everything to gain

Did you even read the post? I cannot carry on

 

[12NoneIncel]

If you read my last post you know how dire my situation is as a fat, 5'2, sub 5 manlet KHHV. I decided to get off the forum and give life one final chance before I end my own life. Surprisingly, I met a girl who was probably Lmtb and although she was 2 inches taller, she actually liked me and confessed it. I was overjoyed to actually feel loved and potentially lose my KHHV status and get a girlfriend because for the first time, someone actually liked me. My neurodivergence had other plans. We weren't dating yet but had plans to go to the cinema together. On Monday this week, My friends saw her with another boy who is strictly platonic to her and has been friends with her for a while. I clearly did not care for him and decided to let him be, but ultimately the pressure from my friends began to mount as they pressured me. Telling me I had to fight this other boy or they would remove me from the group for being such a pussy. My stupid, ND piece of shit brain couldn't understand that they didn't mean this so I beat him up even though I didn't want to. This event caused the one girl who has ever shown me affection my entire life to stop liking me. The worst part is, it wasn't through my looks. She liked me for who I was. It was the chance I begged for all those nights alone and I, myself lost her by being awful and beating up this boy. I had an actual chance. And the worst part? I'm still KHHV because our first date at the cinema was in 2 days. My life is hell and I hate everything. But most of all I hate myself. I hate myself because I had the chance to escape this prison of inceldom and loneliness, but I blew it all so my friends could give me a little bit of approval. I tried to overdose on paracetamol when I realised what I had done. I survived and am now very sick with paracetamol poisoning and am vomiting multiple times a day. I really wish heaven is real and I really wish I can go please. I hate this.

Im so sorry bro, I hope you get better and I hope you find someone like that again

You have learned though, don’t listen to your fuckass friends about that stuff again

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

Im so sorry bro, I hope you get better and I hope you find someone like that again

You have learned though, don’t listen to your fuckass friends about that stuff again

Yeah I gave in to peer pressure and she was perfect you know. She was beautiful and we shared a lot of the same interests. It was the one time my personality actually stuck up for me and probably my only chance at teenage love. It is the biggest mistake I made to listen to them.

 

[Don_and-idk]

Yeah I gave in to peer pressure and she was perfect you know. She was beautiful and we shared a lot of the same interests. It was the one time my personality actually stuck up for me and probably my only chance at teenage love. It is the biggest mistake I made to listen to them.

How old r u? Maybe ull grow some inches

 

[_Zygomatic_]

Did you even read the post? I cannot carry on

i read it. do you think you’re special or something. do you think nobody has suffered like you before. honestly i think it’s funny that you think this is such a big deal, im guessing you’re no more than 15 and you think the world revolves around who can and cant get pussy, and i’m not gonna lie to you ur stats are pretty brutal and set u back but what are u gonna do, sit around and cry? trust me nobody will even care, nobody will hold ur hand so grow a pair and go and get what you want, ive known ugly niggas the same height as you with like 3 bodies by 18. not only that but u don’t even know what it mean to rope, trust me when you’re there about to do it and your life is literally in your hands you won’t be able to

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

How old r u? Maybe ull grow some inches

15

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

i read it. do you think you’re special or something. do you think nobody has suffered like you before. honestly i think it’s funny that you think this is such a big deal, im guessing you’re no more than 15 and you think the world revolves around who can and cant get pussy, and i’m not gonna lie to you ur stats are pretty brutal and set u back but what are u gonna do, sit around and cry? trust me nobody will even care, nobody will hold ur hand so grow a pair and go and get what you want, ive known ugly niggas the same height as you with like 3 bodies by 18. not only that but u don’t even know what it mean to rope, trust me when you’re there about to do it and your life is literally in your hands you won’t be able to

I took 8 grams of paracetamol with full belief that I wouldn't wake up again because It is a huge overdose. I think I'll manage to rope.

 

[12NoneIncel]

I took 8 grams of paracetamol with full belief that I wouldn't wake up again because It is a huge overdose. I think I'll manage to rope.

Your 15 bro actually don’t rope, you have a whole life ahead of you your not even done growing and changing in the face

 

[_Zygomatic_]

I took 8 grams of paracetamol with full belief that I wouldn't wake up again because It is a huge overdose. I think I'll manage to rope.

and when did you do that

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

and when did you do that

Monday night did you not read my post I said at the end

 

[kashimo.]

If you read my last post you know how dire my situation is as a fat, 5'2, sub 5 manlet KHHV. I decided to get off the forum and give life one final chance before I end my own life. Surprisingly, I met a girl who was probably Lmtb and although she was 2 inches taller, she actually liked me and confessed it. I was overjoyed to actually feel loved and potentially lose my KHHV status and get a girlfriend because for the first time, someone actually liked me. My neurodivergence had other plans. We weren't dating yet but had plans to go to the cinema together. On Monday this week, My friends saw her with another boy who is strictly platonic to her and has been friends with her for a while. I clearly did not care for him and decided to let him be, but ultimately the pressure from my friends began to mount as they pressured me. Telling me I had to fight this other boy or they would remove me from the group for being such a pussy. My stupid, ND piece of shit brain couldn't understand that they didn't mean this so I beat him up even though I didn't want to. This event caused the one girl who has ever shown me affection my entire life to stop liking me. The worst part is, it wasn't through my looks. She liked me for who I was. It was the chance I begged for all those nights alone and I, myself lost her by being awful and beating up this boy. I had an actual chance. And the worst part? I'm still KHHV because our first date at the cinema was in 2 days. My life is hell and I hate everything. But most of all I hate myself. I hate myself because I had the chance to escape this prison of inceldom and loneliness, but I blew it all so my friends could give me a little bit of approval. I tried to overdose on paracetamol when I realised what I had done. I survived and am now very sick with paracetamol poisoning and am vomiting multiple times a day. I really wish heaven is real and I really wish I can go please. I hate this.

if your gonna kill yourself bring those shitty friends with you

 

[SubhumanFoidHater]

if your gonna kill yourself bring those shitty friends with you

JFL. True point though