my parents dont have the right + antinatalism

[AutisticIQlet]

My parents don't have the right to take away what was improving my life. They don't. They're killing me. I was happier. Looking in the mirror and feeling better was the most gratifying feeling I've ever had. The harmful effects of the medication I was taking to improve my appearance (which I researched extensively) are insignificant compared to the harm they're doing to me. Since they stopped, my mental health has been deteriorating. I didn't ask to be born. If I were faced with the possibilities of suffering that exist in a brief existence, I certainly wouldn't choose to be, but rather not to be. Children are a way of fulfilling adult fantasies. Having a child, by definition, is repugnant and egocentric. If you want to be a good father, paradoxically the best choice is not to be a father. If you were told that your child could be raped, abused, marginalized, among other subversive and harmful things, would you choose to take that risk or not? It's not obvious. But when you bring someone from the world into your life, you have no control over those variables. I wasn't even the realization of an idealization; I'm an accident, a mistake. I'm a game of Russian roulette with chance, which makes everything more disgusting. The problem is that once I breathe, I can't simply kill myself. Being alive, you carry the "burden of existence." I've made others around me fond, and by committing suicide, I would become the greatest of hypocrites, since I would be being selfish in the same, or perhaps even greater, way than my parents. Because my parents forced me into this deplorable condition, they should at least help me reverse this sentence. Even if my methods aren't intentional, improving my appearance is one of the only ways out I see glimmering. They've already observed that I won't relinquish this judgment, so they should at least help me do things in the safest way possible.