My parents say I have facial dysmorphia

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I was bullied in middle school for a few years, they called me ugly but it was probably due to me being non NT.

Because of this, I spent the past 4 years of high school thinking its completely over because of my looks and I should just rot.

I've been sitting in my room playing games 12+ hours a day, no friends, no social interactions, and even when I would try my social skills would be too subpar to even make friends or hold a single conversation normally.

Even while playing games, I have a trucel tier annoying voice so I couldn't be respected even online.

Now that I'm submitting my college applications, I'm in deep regret that I haven't formed the key experiences that every high schooler should have; making friends, socializing, trying new things.

In college, I know I won't be able to make friends because I have the social skills of a middle schooler.

The blackpill ruined my life and I wish I didnt let myself go down this path because I'm a fairly normal looking guy.

 

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what am i supposed to do bro

 

[A_H0T_Wombat]

I mean the only thing you can do Is move forward.

Try getting a job unironically and socializing with coworkers. You might have a lot of catching up to do