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TLDR: MY PARENTS MOCK MY APPEARANCE AND IMPLY I’M TRANS/GAY, BUT WHEN I TRY TO IMPROVE MY LOOKS THEY CALL ME MENTALLY ILL OR EXTREME
(yes i know this is another long and very serious rant thread, but i'll say it again; read for entertainment or simply click off)
the major problem i have with my parents is that they don’t understand or relate to even a fraction of my life experiences. the things i am trying to do, they do not understand, but i think that goes for pretty much everyone on this forum. the main problem here is looksmaxxing.
my parents have always had a disregard for my looks. they don’t care if i mouth breathe, they don’t care if i’m always slouched, they don’t care about feeding me the right foods, and they don’t really care about anything unless i cry for help over the course of multiple months. and even then, sometimes this strategy didn’t work, and i just ended up separating myself from them even more, killing the connection slowly but drastically.
my main fear here is them thinking i’m a zesty homosexual. there is no point continuing to read this for anything other than entertainment value if you haven’t gotten those allegations in your own life.
i don’t know how long this has been going on, but it all started when i realized i blended in and had no originality. i think it’s pretty easy to see what comes next… i got into fashion, started exploring, and eventually ended up wearing more controversial clothing due to its strong feminine appearance. i’m not talking about dresses or thigh highs, but things such as flared pants, low-rise jeans, and extremely tight hoodies (what your typical normie would call “fag behaviour”).
a few years went by, and i realized clothes alone weren’t going to fix my horrid appearance underneath them, so i started looking into frauding (aka makeup) and tried to hide it from my parents for the longest time. my eyes being my main flaw, i eventually had to go out and buy eye-cosmetic products, which led to them realizing what i was doing behind the scenes. the way i got out of this was by classifying it as a “style” rather than something i was using to fix my flaws.
of course, this style attracted lesbian women and got them to talk to me. time skip, and i now have female friends who beg to dye my nails and do other shit like this, pushing me deeper and deeper into the whole “makeup” thing. it stopped being targeted toward fixing my looks and instead became about expanding my style. by now, it is pretty obvious that normie parents would consider their son trans or stereotypically gay, and this is where i stand right now.
the only thing saving me right now is their awareness of my obsession with roids, masculinity, and the fact that i tell them i go out with girls (they don’t know most are lesbian and that they’re only my friends, but there’s no reason to tell them, as it helps clear out the allegations).
but even then, i truly don’t understand them. they joke about my femininity every single day, but when i start talking about more “masculine” things related to my appearance, they call me an “extreme incel hyper-masculinist” and say that everyone needs to accept themselves. my dad looks disgusted most of the time, and my mom is simply weirded out.
this leads me to believe they put me in this world just to suffer (although they would probably laugh if i said that irl). what is the point of laughing at your own son’s looks, only to then turn against him when he tries to fix them? it’s like they want to keep me struggling with how i see myself and where i want to go, just for the fun of it.
how do i prove to them that the possible thoughts and assumptions they have about me are wrong, and how do i finally convince them to let me looksmax? as previously said in my older posts, they look at me as mentally ill and brainwashed, and the whole “just do it yourself” argument has already been debunked, as they control all my funds and any money i receive until i finally move out of the house. this cannot go on any longer. it is torture.
s like teachers, sports coaches, that one guy who smokes cigs in the parking lot, shit even the fucking janitor for help