kindinternetman
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My first semester and a half has been so crushing, I am so bored, I have been reprimanded (through bad scores) to not add my own input to work. I am simply tasked with studying the words on specific pages and interpreting them in a way that will make my professors happy. I no longer feel creative or feel any interest in the work I do, college is truly meant for avg robots. And it’s not the fault of the classes themselves, I’m in more “creative” and “interpretive” classes like early childhood development and English and psychology. But I am only allowed to bring the information my teachers give me to the table. For example for EDEC. Early childhood and dev, I was given 5 articles about trans kids and why they should be affirmed and how to affirm them properly. I could only use those 5 articles and had to present to the class why I thought it was best to chop kids dicks off and let men in women’s locker rooms. I’m fucking pissed. I don’t believe any of it but if I argue against it I’ll receive no points and I need these credits. Also the expectations are so low for the work I turn in. As long as it’s formatted the way my teacher wants I get 90%s and better. It truly makes me wonder what the quality of work being turned in by my classmates is. Now I’m taking a math class and I actually have to try, it feels so weird. I have not had to try for a long time, not since junior year of high school. All I want to do is protect people as a police officer and retired in 25 years with pension, but I have a bachelors degree in between that dream. And the social aspect of college does very little to entertain me. I’m not in a frat nor do I live in the dorms, I also don’t drink or smoke. College life is meaningless to me and I don’t care enough to make new connections, I’m happy with my best friend since middle school. He’s so cool really, strong fighter and great sense of humor. He is in firefighting emt training . My gf is studying to be a nurse God bless her. The courses are really hard and she has a lot of studying to do but I think she can do it. What’s the point of making new connections to people who drink and smoke every night like there is no tomorrow, or making connections with females who have no idea what they do to guys around them (they probably do tbh). I’m so under stimulated at school, no one in class to truly look at and laugh with, no subject where i am given room for my own input. My mom really wants me to find success in college so I try my best here. And I also understand many people my age around the world would die for an opportunity like the one I have right now, so I won’t lie, I’m not truly grateful but I continue to try my best.
