My photographic memory has fucked me completely over

[DivineBeing]

I remember every single rejection, every single face of a girl that looked at me and their expression, every single comment about my height or hair.

Every single argument that happened because of how I looked. Every single time a girl was not genuine about complimenting me. Every single time a girl didn't dance with me. Every single time a girl told me I'm a subhuman.

every single time I fucked up with a girl. Every time a girl wasn't attracted. Every time i disappointed someone. Every time I was disrespected

FUck having a photographic memory it only gives you the shit memories back

 

[Deleted member 7725]

Same. I remember every single time I've been called ugly, looked at by girls with the "look of disgust", rejected, etc. all the way back to elementary school.

 

[DivineBeing]

I'm fucking scared to leave my room now because it might form negative memories. Stuck in my fucking room watching the same movies playing the same games so I don't get fucked over by anyone

 

[curryslayerordeath]

Everything remembers this man, you dont have an eidetic/photographic memory jfl

 

[DivineBeing]

Same. I remember every single time I've been called ugly, looked at by girls with the "look of disgust", rejected, etc. all the way back to elementary school.

Unironically remembering all these comments and events is worse than being ugly.

Others somehow cope with being rejected or treated like shit but for me it only biulds up and builds up since I can't fucking forget it or process it.