my shitass incel life since birth ( advice needed )

[shxyzz]

Since school i was the floater friend although this concept wasnt in my mind as i just thought every so called friend group had a popular guy. A guy who looks good, gets all the fucking girls and always on everyone's mind. i had a friend like that he was my best friend he was a complete chad fair skin everything u need to get a girl and the fact girls did obsess over him. i just thought if i studied well id get girls too but now this cope mentality has ruined me. I was hit with the first wave of bp in 9th grade when i finally asked my crush for her socials and when we were texting she fucking shocked me by saying she wants my fucking friends insta. i was just flabbergasted. im in 12th grade now and i havent even talked to a girl irl. i cope everyday fucking blaming my shitass genetics. im tired of this incel life stupid annoying loner life. ive tried everything to ascend but the only thing which improved was my height. i think im almost 6. and im really grateful but still in this bp shit i thought if i was tall girls would surround me but no they always go for the fucking HTN males. not even a femcel would go for me. i have tried talking first to multiple women but they wont even reply to me. i dont know what to do w this because i know for a fact if i dont get to date in my teen life i woudnt be able to find a girl in the future. i need genuine advice im really tired of this incel life where everyday i fucking cope wishing god if i was just blessed with good genetics this woudnt happen. this has ruined my socializing skills and whenever a girl even comes near i get so nervous. im really ugly and im not even white skinned. my zygomatic bone is fucking weird like one side is normal but the other side is like someone punched my face so bad and its swelled even though its just increased bone its rlly weird makes my face look tilted and i cant get it surgically fixed until i start earning on my own. It rlly hurts when someone takes a picture of me because at the back camera my face looks so fucking bad its embarassing even to the point my friends and siblings make fun of it. i just dont know why i coudnt be blessed with good genes im tired of this cope and bp mentality its ruining me alot. and the bp edits js fucking ruins my confidence and whenever i go to a mall or anywhere outside my incel room i see good looking boys my age hanging out w stacy girls and all and this feeling is just so bad i js walk away because they r enjoying their teen life without worrying about anything and here i cant even fucking get a text back from a foid its so brutal and im tired of it i dont know how to fix this nor i know how to cope with this mentality of always comparing myself to good looking males just wishing i looked like them i am not fat im 62 KG aged 17 and i need genuine advice. ty

 

[Jager]

Since school i was the floater friend although this concept wasnt in my mind as i just thought every so called friend group had a popular guy. A guy who looks good, gets all the fucking girls and always on everyone's mind. i had a friend like that he was my best friend he was a complete chad fair skin everything u need to get a girl and the fact girls did obsess over him. i just thought if i studied well id get girls too but now this cope mentality has ruined me. I was hit with the first wave of bp in 9th grade when i finally asked my crush for her socials and when we were texting she fucking shocked me by saying she wants my fucking friends insta. i was just flabbergasted. im in 12th grade now and i havent even talked to a girl irl. i cope everyday fucking blaming my shitass genetics. im tired of this incel life stupid annoying loner life. ive tried everything to ascend but the only thing which improved was my height. i think im almost 6. and im really grateful but still in this bp shit i thought if i was tall girls would surround me but no they always go for the fucking HTN males. not even a femcel would go for me. i have tried talking first to multiple women but they wont even reply to me. i dont know what to do w this because i know for a fact if i dont get to date in my teen life i woudnt be able to find a girl in the future. i need genuine advice im really tired of this incel life where everyday i fucking cope wishing god if i was just blessed with good genetics this woudnt happen. this has ruined my socializing skills and whenever a girl even comes near i get so nervous. im really ugly and im not even white skinned. my zygomatic bone is fucking weird like one side is normal but the other side is like someone punched my face so bad and its swelled even though its just increased bone its rlly weird makes my face look tilted and i cant get it surgically fixed until i start earning on my own. It rlly hurts when someone takes a picture of me because at the back camera my face looks so fucking bad its embarassing even to the point my friends and siblings make fun of it. i just dont know why i coudnt be blessed with good genes im tired of this cope and bp mentality its ruining me alot. and the bp edits js fucking ruins my confidence and whenever i go to a mall or anywhere outside my incel room i see good looking boys my age hanging out w stacy girls and all and this feeling is just so bad i js walk away because they r enjoying their teen life without worrying about anything and here i cant even fucking get a text back from a foid its so brutal and im tired of it i dont know how to fix this nor i know how to cope with this mentality of always comparing myself to good looking males just wishing i looked like them i am not fat im 62 KG aged 17 and i need genuine advice. ty

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