My social failures in the past make it impossible to enjoy social-life in the present.

[Deleted member 17578]

Fuck this shit.

Even when I am vibing with people at a rave on drugs, I low-key feel the fucking pain of my incel, social-outcast past seeping through. Making me feel like people don't like me and I don't belong.

Now imagine me without drugs, not at a rave. All day I've had so much fucking hatred in me, bitterness and sadness my unfortunate past. None if it is my fucking fault, I didn't pick this worthless childhood, these worthless parents, my truecel childhood looks.

Fuck. Why do I keep torturing myself mentally for something I didn't do. A crime I didn't commit.

Why can't I enjoy my present life for what it is?

It honestly ain't that fucking bad anymore. I've cut off all my family members, I don't get bullied anymore, women don't always treat me like I am some deformed, diseased ogre anymore.

FUCK

LET ME ENJOY MY LIFE NOW. FUCK MY BRAIN.

fuck I will use drugs again tonight

 

[Deleted member 31562]

it sounds like you need to thug max it’s never too late

 

[New Poster]

You either have to raise self esteem or lower standards

 

[soulless_npc]

I've had a hard time quitting weed for this very reason

I'm nowhere near even fully looksmaxxed / resolved childhood trauma but I can tell even when I've changed the outside and worked on the inside , I'm just gonna feel like a cardboard cutout of a person who is trying to ingratiate and the bad memories never seem as far away as I wish they would

 

[Deleted member 17578]

it sounds like you need to thug max it’s never too late

I need to self-esteem max. Somehow.

Realize I am no longer the person I was in my past.

 

[shethinksimcute]

you need to selfrespectmaxx

 

[Deleted member 22888]

you need to selfrespectmaxx

U made an account to tell Gaston that? lmaoooo

 

[shethinksimcute]

U made an account to tell Gaston that? lmaoooo

yeah and i had to wait a week for it to get approved

 

[Deleted member 22888]

yeah and i had to wait a week for it to get approved

I already tried man don’t waste ur time this man has GIVEN UP. Worst part is he’s tall and decent looking. Over for mentalcels

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I've had a hard time quitting weed for this very reason

I'm nowhere near even fully looksmaxxed / resolved childhood trauma but I can tell even when I've changed the outside and worked on the inside , I'm just gonna feel like a cardboard cutout of a person who is trying to ingratiate and the bad memories never seem as far away as I wish they would

Very relatable.

I need to change my fucking brain chemistry. Which is why I've been counting on drugs to do it so much. But so far it hasn't led to anything significant yet.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

you need to selfrespectmaxx

yeah and i had to wait a week for it to get approved

very legit, and worth it. Your comment is appreciated

I don't respect myself

 

[Deleted member 17578]

I already tried man don’t waste ur time this man has GIVEN UP. Worst part is he’s tall and decent looking. Over for mentalcels

I haven't given up. I am still going to raves, socializing. I still have a job, I still socialize with house-mates, colleagues.

But nothing ever works out. Life isn't improving. I wish life wasn't like this.

 

[Deleted member 20370]

Very relatable.

I need to change my fucking brain chemistry. Which is why I've been counting on drugs to do it so much. But so far it hasn't led to anything significant yet.

dmtmaxx

 

[n0rthface]

it sounds like you need to thug max it’s never too late

When im feeling stressed I go out at night and beat random people, Op should look into that.

 

[Deleted member 22888]

I haven't given up. I am still going to raves, socializing. I still have a job, I still socialize with house-mates, colleagues.

But nothing ever works out. Life isn't improving. I wish life wasn't like this.

Good don’t give up. Ur gonna be ok man I wish the best for u. U have literal newbies making accounts to tell u not to give up.
That should tell u something. I will acknowledge that it is brutal out here. I’m struggling too lmaoo so don’t feel too bad. Just keep trying man this sounds hella bluepilled but it’s better to not give up then rot and be miserable forever imo especially when ur not ugly. Best of luck

 

[Deleted member 31562]

When im feeling stressed I go out at night and beat random people, Op should look into that.

Based white brah

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Good don’t give up. Ur gonna be ok man I wish the best for u. U have literal newbies making accounts to tell u not to give up.
That should tell u something. I will acknowledge that it is brutal out here. I’m struggling too lmaoo so don’t feel too bad. Just keep trying man this sounds hella bluepilled but it’s better to not give up then rot and be miserable forever imo especially when ur not ugly. Best of luck

You know how rough it is. I feel stuck in my past, i hate my brain, my personality.

I need a break-through.

True ascension.

 

[Abhorrence]

i relate to this too and i accept i will never be nt

 

[Deleted member 27746]

you should work on your personalality and attitude

 

[Deleted member 17578]

i relate to this too and i accept i will never be nt

Demons from our past are haunting us.
Our thoughts, our minds are corrupted.

fight the demons

 

[Sprinkles]

The rare times I’m in a social setting I get that fucking feeling creeping up on me too

Especially when I’m the only one not talking

 

[Clown Show]

Word for word I am in a same situation.

Is there any way for us to face our demons and transcend this never ending suffering?

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Word for word I am in a same situation.

Is there any way for us to face our demons and transcend this never ending suffering?

I haven't found a way yet except momentairily sometimes through drugs.

It's the hardest problem people face in life tbh, overcoming trauma and mental issues, personality disorders.