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My childhood:
I was a happy and talkative kid. I didn’t care about looks at all. I used to record random videos on my phone, just describing my surroundings. i had no self awareness
End of primary school:
I started noticing things on photos.
First i think it was my nose. I started taking more and more pictures, obsessively analyzing everything which eventually pushed me into depression.
Later on:
After constantly looking at photos (i never used to take this many b4) I also started noticing other stuff such dark circles under my eyes.
I thought it was sleep related so I tried fixing my sleep but nothing changed.
Eventually i realized it was related to facial structure, not habits.
First year of high school:
During most of the first year and part of the second I became a total geek and completely stopped caring about my appearance completely - idk how that happened. I got into the gym at that time and I was playing video games all day long.
But eventually it came back.
Mid second year of high school:
My worst mental period. This is when I first joined forums.
I had been thinking about rhinoplasty ever since I started focusing on my nose.
End of third year:
I broke down crying. My mom talked to me and said she would help. <3
I had seen psychologists before, but they basically said that if the issue was really only appearance related, that should be addressed first.
She agreed to pay for rhinoplasty <3
Surgery:
I had the operation a year later in January.
The first 3 weeks were unreal i felt pure relief. I was thinking that all my problems were solved.
But it didn't last long.
I felt better but I also gained more knowledge.
At that time I also finished orthodontic treatment.
After I asked my orthodontics for ct scans and cbct I concluded that my skeletal issue was camouflaged, not fixed.
Jaw surgery was never mentioned. So now im camouflaged and not eligible for national healtcare fund if i wanted jaw surgery. Thank you for putting me in a situation like this.
I started gaining more and more knowledge.
I was rotting on looksmax, reddit and facebook groups and watching hella surgery related videos.
Barely left the house.
Mild but constant depression.
Every day I planned what surgeries I'm gonna get.
When it changed.
I started thinking about rhinoplasty revision not just to fix it but to make it a bit more feminine as well.
I tried bringing up the topic during a my follow up visit but realized I’d never get the result I wanted with that surgeon so I gave up on that.
When I made money.
Four months later I earned some good money working and helping in a friend of my dad’s business.
Now I had enough for rhinoplasty revision - Turkey trip, genioplasty, and full facial fat grafting.
Where I am now:
Estradiol injections
Dutasteride
I have nose revision in 20 days, completely feminized and small nose.
Genioplasty consultation 2 weeks before the trip, surgery likely before summer
Fat grafting later
I think it’s not hard to guess which direction this is going.
Greys, please be aware
I was a happy and talkative kid. I didn’t care about looks at all. I used to record random videos on my phone, just describing my surroundings. i had no self awareness
End of primary school:
I started noticing things on photos.
First i think it was my nose. I started taking more and more pictures, obsessively analyzing everything which eventually pushed me into depression.
Later on:
After constantly looking at photos (i never used to take this many b4) I also started noticing other stuff such dark circles under my eyes.
I thought it was sleep related so I tried fixing my sleep but nothing changed.
Eventually i realized it was related to facial structure, not habits.
First year of high school:
During most of the first year and part of the second I became a total geek and completely stopped caring about my appearance completely - idk how that happened. I got into the gym at that time and I was playing video games all day long.
But eventually it came back.
Mid second year of high school:
My worst mental period. This is when I first joined forums.
I had been thinking about rhinoplasty ever since I started focusing on my nose.
End of third year:
I broke down crying. My mom talked to me and said she would help. <3
I had seen psychologists before, but they basically said that if the issue was really only appearance related, that should be addressed first.
She agreed to pay for rhinoplasty <3
Surgery:
I had the operation a year later in January.
The first 3 weeks were unreal i felt pure relief. I was thinking that all my problems were solved.
But it didn't last long.
I felt better but I also gained more knowledge.
At that time I also finished orthodontic treatment.
After I asked my orthodontics for ct scans and cbct I concluded that my skeletal issue was camouflaged, not fixed.
Jaw surgery was never mentioned. So now im camouflaged and not eligible for national healtcare fund if i wanted jaw surgery. Thank you for putting me in a situation like this.
I started gaining more and more knowledge.
I was rotting on looksmax, reddit and facebook groups and watching hella surgery related videos.
Barely left the house.
Mild but constant depression.
Every day I planned what surgeries I'm gonna get.
When it changed.
I started thinking about rhinoplasty revision not just to fix it but to make it a bit more feminine as well.
I tried bringing up the topic during a my follow up visit but realized I’d never get the result I wanted with that surgeon so I gave up on that.
When I made money.
Four months later I earned some good money working and helping in a friend of my dad’s business.
Now I had enough for rhinoplasty revision - Turkey trip, genioplasty, and full facial fat grafting.
Where I am now:
Estradiol injections
Dutasteride
I have nose revision in 20 days, completely feminized and small nose.
Genioplasty consultation 2 weeks before the trip, surgery likely before summer
Fat grafting later
I think it’s not hard to guess which direction this is going.
Greys, please be aware
