My story.

[idkmanimao]

i've been growing up dealing with this bp shit my whole life without even noticing, in middle school I had a pretty good personality, pretty popular, some girls liked me, none of them dated me tho, they just rejected me without a second thought, or because they thought it would be rude to flat out reject me, so they kind of waited to give me hope, in like grade 2-4 I thought I had good soccer friends, they would make fun of me and shit, not let me play, I got kicked in the jaw by one of them and lost a tooth, then most of them proceeded to laugh right in front of my face while my mouth was bleeding alot, I ended up getting mad, tried to fight him, and everyone acted like I was in the wrong, the guy who kicked me in the jaw, we ended up becoming pretty good friends a few years latter (I guess he realized or felt bad about what happened) this other time (think in grade 5) I was in summer camp, there was these siblings (brother and sister) at first I thought I was decent friends with them, they started bullying me alot, it got so bad to the point where I almost broke the boys nose with my launch box out of anger, there are many most incidents like this and worse, I guess all this building up over the years had really changed me, then I discorved bp (I think starting semester of grade 9) it has still not done shit, just bringing me down lower and lower everyday, now all I do is try and figure out how to ascend or look a bit better (yet I still haven't done shit, i'm a fucking loser) I believe i'm depressed right now, or i'm starting to become, all I do now is either think about my past/what is yet to come or how to look better, most of my friends are fucking faggots, almost none of them can see or think of what i've been through because i'm always a "happy person" I really don't know what I should do or be doing right now, i'm really lost. i'll most likely kill myself sooner or later, but i'll see how long I can go for.

 

[KeepCopingLads]

i've been growing up dealing with this bp shit my whole life without even noticing, in middle school I had a pretty good personality, pretty popular, some girls liked me, none of them dated me tho, they just rejected me without a second thought, or because they thought it would be rude to flat out reject me, so they kind of waited to give me hope, in like grade 2-4 I thought I had good soccer friends, they would make fun of me and shit, not let me play, I got kicked in the jaw by one of them and lost a tooth, then most of them proceeded to laugh right in front of my face while my mouth was bleeding alot, I ended up getting mad, tried to fight him, and everyone acted like I was in the wrong, the guy who kicked me in the jaw, we ended up becoming pretty good friends a few years latter (I guess he realized or felt bad about what happened) this other time (think in grade 5) I was in summer camp, there was these siblings (brother and sister) at first I thought I was decent friends with them, they started bullying me alot, it got so bad to the point where I almost broke the boys nose with my launch box out of anger, there are many most incidents like this and worse, I guess all this building up over the years had really changed me, then I discorved bp (I think starting semester of grade 9) it has still not done shit, just bringing me down lower and lower everyday, now all I do is try and figure out how to ascend or look a bit better (yet I still haven't done shit, i'm a fucking loser) I believe i'm depressed right now, or i'm starting to become, all I do now is either think about my past/what is yet to come or how to look better, most of my friends are fucking faggots, almost none of them can see or think of what i've been through because i'm always a "happy person" I really don't know what I should do or be doing right now, i'm really lost. i'll most likely kill myself sooner or later, but i'll see how long I can go for.

adult life gets better cus job = money which = surgery = ascension
never rope, it aint worth it
2 outcomes if you rope: eternal suffering in hell or nothing, no existence
i dont like those options
never rope, pm me if you need anything bru

 

[idkmanimao]

adult life gets better cus job = money which = surgery = ascension
never rope, it aint worth it
2 outcomes if you rope: eternal suffering in hell or nothing, no existence
i dont like those options
never rope, pm me if you need anything bru

why would I go through all that trouble or working, getting the surgeries, looking a bit better, then dying anyways, there absolutely no fucking point of living anymore. not to mention, hell, god, heaven, all of that is otter fucking bullshit, when you di, nothing happens, just like when you were born, you don't remember because there was nothing

 

[KeepCopingLads]

why would I go through all that trouble or working, getting the surgeries, looking a bit better, then dying anyways, there absolutely no fucking point of living anymore

look at this logically
die now or die in 70 years time
mmmmmmmmm idk man those 70 years seem kinda cool

 

[King_Schnitzel]

I can relate man. If you tell me where you live we can rope together.

 

[King_Schnitzel]

look at this logically
die now or die in 70 years time
mmmmmmmmm idk man those 70 years seem kinda cool

70 years of pain, tears and dissapointment. Also who says he has 70 years left? 70 + current age is highly unlikely.

 

[idkmanimao]

look at this logically
die now or die in 70 years time
mmmmmmmmm idk man those 70 years seem kinda cool

70 years of having to think about everything you did wrong, having to interact with retarded people, and working a 9-5 until retirement, nothing fun from this

 

[idkmanimao]

I can relate man. If you tell me where you live we can rope together.

before that, there are a few things I need to try

 

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Dnr this thread

 

[KeepCopingLads]

70 years of having to think about everything you did wrong, having to interact with retarded people, and working a 9-5 until retirement, nothing fun from this

you've lived less than 19% of your life......

you havent been to adult age (i assume) and youre thinking of roping
think this logically, its not as if all 80 years of your life will be pain
i grew up ugly (still am) but even a small chance of ascension from puberty or surgery gets me going

 

[Gauss]

 

[KeepCopingLads]

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did you really go out of your way to edit that

 

[idkmanimao]

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never asked you to read, what do you gain from doing this? i'm curious, you just wasted a few seconds of your life doing this, if you don't want to read, click off the thread, lol

 

[idkmanimao]

you've lived less than 19% of your life......

you havent been to adult age (i assume) and youre thinking of roping
think this logically, its not as if all 80 years of your life will be pain
i grew up ugly (still am) but even a small chance of ascension from puberty or surgery gets me going

yeah, I get it, still everyday feels so repetitive, depressing, i've been doing this for years already, having a small chance of hope, but theres no hope at all, it's just you tricking yourself into thinking that so you can live on, it's a coping mechanism

 

[King_Schnitzel]

before that, there are a few things I need to try

You inspired me to create my own thread just based of today.

 

[bigwilly10]

i've been growing up dealing with this bp shit my whole life without even noticing, in middle school I had a pretty good personality, pretty popular, some girls liked me, none of them dated me tho, they just rejected me without a second thought, or because they thought it would be rude to flat out reject me, so they kind of waited to give me hope, in like grade 2-4 I thought I had good soccer friends, they would make fun of me and shit, not let me play, I got kicked in the jaw by one of them and lost a tooth, then most of them proceeded to laugh right in front of my face while my mouth was bleeding alot, I ended up getting mad, tried to fight him, and everyone acted like I was in the wrong, the guy who kicked me in the jaw, we ended up becoming pretty good friends a few years latter (I guess he realized or felt bad about what happened) this other time (think in grade 5) I was in summer camp, there was these siblings (brother and sister) at first I thought I was decent friends with them, they started bullying me alot, it got so bad to the point where I almost broke the boys nose with my launch box out of anger, there are many most incidents like this and worse, I guess all this building up over the years had really changed me, then I discorved bp (I think starting semester of grade 9) it has still not done shit, just bringing me down lower and lower everyday, now all I do is try and figure out how to ascend or look a bit better (yet I still haven't done shit, i'm a fucking loser) I believe i'm depressed right now, or i'm starting to become, all I do now is either think about my past/what is yet to come or how to look better, most of my friends are fucking faggots, almost none of them can see or think of what i've been through because i'm always a "happy person" I really don't know what I should do or be doing right now, i'm really lost. i'll most likely kill myself sooner or later, but i'll see how long I can go for.

same boat as you except i was pulling in 8th grade, im high ltn-low mtn now in highschool (10th grade) i knew all about looks mattering a fuck ton since 6th grade when i noticed changes after i became chopped due to covid (staying inside and eating like shit for a year) girls gave me dirty looks no matter what and I knew it was because I was chopped, and I knew this at 11. It got really bad when i turned 12 in 7th grade this new kid (who im good friends with today) would always make fun of my "big" ears(not even really big at all, my head grew into them aswell) but i was breaking out and got horriffic head acne, puberty literally just started to happen and i was made fun of relentlessly by that kid that year and I fucking hated that kid, I was still pretty popular and respected among my friends and shit(friends with them since kindergarten) as it was a pretty small school and grade (like 20 kids in grade all in the same classes) I didnt even care about girls at this point as the same 10 girls i had known them since like kindergarten. In 8th grade my family moved and I went to public school, and holy shit that was the best fucking year bro and I dont know why. I was a new kid and decently above average in height at that point(like an inch or 2 above average 75th percentile). and i wore these big ass air maxes and a hoodie and honestly I think not wearing a uniform made me look so much fucking better.thats when I first got female attention when I noticed a girl staring at me that day first day of school(even though she was kinda chopped) and it felt fucking odd feeling that for the first time. I even bagged an mtb for awhile lmao and this one htb "liked" me for like 2 months(she just wanted me for attention) Public school was the best experience ever lmao and i was even pretty popular, when i transferred to private highschool it was lowkey horrible as shit, everyone is a bunch of fake ass rich faggots. I turned 16 a week ago and I am 5'11 and thats like not even that good, everyone treats the kids who are 6'1+ so much better, especially women bro holy shit. even the fucking teachers give them better grades, talk to them more, and like them more. My friends are mostly fake assholes and everything has gone to shit. Girls just use me for attention and theyd likely stop talking to me after a week or 2 and I just gave up on it. I ordered hgh today and am hoping to get taller and atleast reach high mtn by this summer. thats my goal.

 

[King_Schnitzel]

before that, there are a few things I need to try

If you truly think like that you don't want it bad enough.

I'd be fine with dying right now.

 

[KeepCopingLads]

you tricking yourself into thinking that so you can live on

pretty sure my will to live is due to basic dna and biology but what do i know, im some random guy on org

 

[idkmanimao]

you've lived less than 19% of your life......

you havent been to adult age (i assume) and youre thinking of roping
think this logically, its not as if all 80 years of your life will be pain
i grew up ugly (still am) but even a small chance of ascension from puberty or surgery gets me going

but now atleast I can do things I was too scared to, I won't be shy anymore, i'll hop on roid, party my life away

 

[idkmanimao]

same boat as you except i was pulling in 8th grade, im high ltn-low mtn now in highschool (10th grade) i knew all about looks mattering a fuck ton since 6th grade when i noticed changes after i became chopped due to covid (staying inside and eating like shit for a year) girls gave me dirty looks no matter what and I knew it was because I was chopped, and I knew this at 11. It got really bad when i turned 12 in 7th grade this new kid (who im good friends with today) would always make fun of my "big" ears(not even really big at all, my head grew into them aswell) but i was breaking out and got horriffic head acne, puberty literally just started to happen and i was made fun of relentlessly by that kid that year and I fucking hated that kid, I was still pretty popular and respected among my friends and shit(friends with them since kindergarten) as it was a pretty small school and grade (like 20 kids in grade all in the same classes) I didnt even care about girls at this point as the same 10 girls i had known them since like kindergarten. In 8th grade my family moved and I went to public school, and holy shit that was the best fucking year bro and I dont know why. I was a new kid and decently above average in height at that point(like an inch or 2 above average 75th percentile). and i wore these big ass air maxes and a hoodie and honestly I think not wearing a uniform made me look so much fucking better.thats when I first got female attention when I noticed a girl staring at me that day first day of school(even though she was kinda chopped) and it felt fucking odd feeling that for the first time. I even bagged an mtb for awhile lmao and this one htb "liked" me for like 2 months(she just wanted me for attention) Public school was the best experience ever lmao and i was even pretty popular, when i transferred to private highschool it was lowkey horrible as shit, everyone is a bunch of fake ass rich faggots. I turned 16 a week ago and I am 5'11 and thats like not even that good, everyone treats the kids who are 6'1+ so much better, especially women bro holy shit. even the fucking teachers give them better grades, talk to them more, and like them more. My friends are mostly fake assholes and everything has gone to shit. Girls just use me for attention and theyd likely stop talking to me after a week or 2 and I just gave up on it. I ordered hgh today and am hoping to get taller and atleast reach high mtn by this summer. thats my goal.

good luck man, I really hope it works out for you

 

[idkmanimao]

If you truly think like that you don't want it bad enough.

I'd be fine with dying right now.

yes I know, but I really just want to do a few things, to know what it feels like ect.

 

[Gauss]

did you really go out of your way to edit that

30 seconds of my life gone forever

 

[ndheightpracepill]

adult life isnt better unless u have a job that lets you go missing u cant get surgery