My strong dislike of being a cuck is turning me into a hateful person

[thegoat]

I'm basically incel with little social success. I am filled with rage at other people for having easier lives (better looks, better NT). Like multiple hours per day being angry and bitter.

I know that if I was in their position, I too would be reaping the rewards, so they are undeserving of hatred in that respect (no one is evil, everyone is just a product of their genes + environment). However, it feels too cucked to be a nice person when you yourself are not respected, get no pussy, are invisible in group conversations etc. By being angry, I take back some of the power and feel more philosophically content.

However I want to spiritualmaxx, be stoic, be forgiving and grateful towards others etc. But this is severely at odds with my strong dislike of feeling like a cuck

 

[_MVP_]

Let the hate flow through you

 

[thegoat]

Let the hate flow through you

I have been for a few months now ever since I quit weed.

Hatred is better than depression/low self esteem/self-hatred which I used to be dealing with. I've reduced my social anxiety through hatredmaxxing.