my suicide plan failed and my life is ruined

[Kiwi'sSub5]

My life is ruined. As some may have already read in my old threads, I want to kill myself. I had prepared every single thing, everything was perfect. I had sodium nitrite, benzodiazepines, an antiemetic, and a painkiller. I had prepared every single thing in such detail and precision. Unfortunately, I forgot a small detail that led to my parents finding out. My plan was ruined, and it was all my fault. My parents immediately took me to the hospital, and the doctors decided to admit me to a psychiatric ward. I've been here for two weeks now. They also diagnosed me with major depression and a severe mood disorder. Basically, my brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine; I'm basically incapable of being happy. I really don't know how to behave or what to do. They're putting me on therapy, which I hope will seriously help me. The fact is, my suicide plan is ruined right now. My parents found and threw away all the things I ordered, I'm desperate. I was supposed to kill myself on July 15th, the date will be postponed to a few months I think.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

bump

 

[Deleted member 103645]

dont kill yourself its not worth it logically

who knows what kind of fate death could bring? its the biggest gamble of them all

fuck therapy. embrace the true whitepill. eat healthy food, meditate a little bit, do some MMA. accept the fact that the blackpill is true and just move on

 

[VohnnyBoy]

it’s still not your time to visit Gandy

 

[Deleted member 17578]

welcome back

 

[WaterGod]

MDMA ma nigga

 

[Deleted member 62012]

My life is ruined. As some may have already read in my old threads, I want to kill myself. I had prepared every single thing, everything was perfect. I had sodium nitrite, benzodiazepines, an antiemetic, and a painkiller. I had prepared every single thing in such detail and precision. Unfortunately, I forgot a small detail that led to my parents finding out. My plan was ruined, and it was all my fault. My parents immediately took me to the hospital, and the doctors decided to admit me to a psychiatric ward. I've been here for two weeks now. They also diagnosed me with major depression and a severe mood disorder. Basically, my brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine; I'm basically incapable of being happy. I really don't know how to behave or what to do. They're putting me on therapy, which I hope will seriously help me. The fact is, my suicide plan is ruined right now. My parents found and threw away all the things I ordered, I'm desperate. I was supposed to kill myself on July 15th, the date will be postponed to a few months I think.

Take all the help you're offered.

If you can't solve a problem alone, get help from others.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

dont kill yourself its not worth it logically

who knows what kind of fate death could bring? its the biggest gamble of them all

fuck therapy. embrace the true whitepill. eat healthy food, meditate a little bit, do some MMA. accept the fact that the blackpill is true and just move on

im just so done with everything, not only bp, All I see is darkness, there's nothing that brings me joy. I have no reason to live

 

[Deleted member 103645]

im just so done with everything, not only bp, All I see is darkness, there's nothing that brings me joy. I have no reason to live

not even nature? idk bro theres a lot of things that are just fun without raping ur dopamine circuits like drugs

like getting a dog
going outside in sunlight
cooking steak

 

[Deleted member 131258]

go to a psychiatrist

 

[Sceptical]

im just so done with everything, not only bp, All I see is darkness, there's nothing that brings me joy. I have no reason to live

don't kill yourself
you're still young and one day you'll find the love of your life

 

[VohnnyBoy]

im just so done with everything, not only bp, All I see is darkness, there's nothing that brings me joy. I have no reason to live

whats you age mane?

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

not even nature? idk bro theres a lot of things that are just fun without raping ur dopamine circuits like drugs

like getting a dog
going outside in sunlight
cooking steak

My brain is literally incapable of making me feel joy. I'm so fucking tired, suicide sounds so comforting, no more suffering, no more problems, just eternal peace.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

don't kill yourself
you're still young and one day you'll find the love of your life
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yeah thats the kind of love i need in my life

 

[Deleted member 77459]

My life is ruined. As some may have already read in my old threads, I want to kill myself. I had prepared every single thing, everything was perfect. I had sodium nitrite, benzodiazepines, an antiemetic, and a painkiller. I had prepared every single thing in such detail and precision. Unfortunately, I forgot a small detail that led to my parents finding out. My plan was ruined, and it was all my fault. My parents immediately took me to the hospital, and the doctors decided to admit me to a psychiatric ward. I've been here for two weeks now. They also diagnosed me with major depression and a severe mood disorder. Basically, my brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine; I'm basically incapable of being happy. I really don't know how to behave or what to do. They're putting me on therapy, which I hope will seriously help me. The fact is, my suicide plan is ruined right now. My parents found and threw away all the things I ordered, I'm desperate. I was supposed to kill myself on July 15th, the date will be postponed to a few months I think.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

go to a psychiatrist

I'm literally in a psychiatric ward, there are plenty of psychologists here but they don't help much

 

[Deleted member 77459]

your story is probably a lie

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

MDMA ma nigga

i will just kms atp bruh

 

[Sceptical]

I'm literally in a psychiatric ward, there are plenty of psychologists here but they don't help much

ask them for sexual favors
at least you won't die as an incel

 

[wiggamaxxer]

Stay strong brah, was in the same situation a year ago. Listen to the phychiatrist. They know what's best. They will probably prescribe you SSRI's. They kind of suck but atleast you will still be alive. Until it gets better. Stay of drugs and stay on the SSRI's until you don't feel suicidal. Firsr week will be hell but then it will be like heaven compared to how bad you felt before.

 

[Deleted member 100646]

its beautiful to see how nice people are in this thread
i wish you the best and hope you find your way out of this, you are not alone

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

your story is probably a lie

im deadass dude, i want to go home

 

[BarelyLegalTweaker]

I'm sorry for your pain, I really wish I could give you a hug rn man, you don't deserve this. Instead of trying to end it give it one more try, just one more genuine try to fix your life. Go to the beach and take a swim, meditate, hangout with friends, join a fight gym. Maybe it'll fix your issues and maybe it won't, but give one more try, you never know

Love you bro, stay strong

 

[Deleted member 131258]

I'm literally in a psychiatric ward, there are plenty of psychologists here but they don't help much

ye i used to go to a therapist as a child he didnt do shit for me (i used to use bro to skip school) but try to find a better psychaitrist that isnt low iq if u can get out the psych ward, suicide aint the answer bro. keep ur head up

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

its beautiful to see how nice people are in this thread
i wish you the best and hope you find your way out of this, you are not alone

thank you brah

 

[nobodylovesme]

Did you see the escort?

 

[Deleted member 131258]

its beautiful to see how nice people are in this thread
i wish you the best and hope you find your way out of this, you are not alone

first org post with actual respectful replies

 

[WaterGod]

i will just kms atp bruh

Dont do it you dont know whats on the other side keep ur head high

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

Did you see the escort?

lmfao no, im still a fucking virgin

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

Stay strong brah, was in the same situation a year ago. Listen to the phychiatrist. They know what's best. They will probably prescribe you SSRI's. They kind of suck but atleast you will still be alive. Until it gets better. Stay of drugs and stay on the SSRI's until you don't feel suicidal. Firsr week will be hell but then it will be like heaven compared to how bad you felt before.

yeah they prescribed me SSRI’s, ill try my best, thanks brah

 

[SamMar]

Big part of the population is indian, if you kill yourself and somehow you get another life, you got 30% chance of being a indian blackie, and thats worse than hell, dont cope with suicide, its never the way.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

I'm sorry for your pain, I really wish I could give you a hug rn man, you don't deserve this. Instead of trying to end it give it one more try, just one more genuine try to fix your life. Go to the beach and take a swim, meditate, hangout with friends, join a fight gym. Maybe it'll fix your issues and maybe it won't, but give one more try, you never know

Love you bro, stay strong

love you too brah, i really appreciate your help guys

 

[acm]

so thats why you weren't active I was wondering where you went tbh

hey if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll always be here

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

Big part of the population is indian, if you kill yourself and somehow you get another life, you got 30% chance of being a indian blackie, and thats worse than hell, dont cope with suicide, its never the way.

lol thats a good point

 

[SamMar]

lol thats a good point

Besides, what's making you so sad man? If you wanna talk about it of course, i'm always here to listen and help.

 

[Deleted member 152014]

You die when I say it’s ready

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

so thats why you weren't active I was wondering where you went tbh

hey if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll always be here

yeah bro, i was just planning my suicide, fuck i spent a lot of money too. anyway if i’ll need to talk to someone i will text you, thank you

 

[wiggamaxxer]

yeah they prescribed me SSRI’s, ill try my best, thanks brah

No worries I now how it feels to go through there you only see the dark and no light. But take small steps. I was so happy when the bad thoughts just went away, I couldn't believe it

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

Besides, what's making you so sad man? If you wanna talk about it of course, i'm always here to listen and help.

My biggest problem is my brain. I just can't be happy because of my brain and I feel like I have nothing to live for. Then, of course, there are other factors, like my appearance, being a virgin, having no friends, feeling lonely, and hating myself deeply. But the main reason is always the same: not being able to be happy with anything.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

No worries I now how it feels to go through there you only see the dark and no light. But take small steps. I was so happy when the bad thoughts just went away, I couldn't believe it

hope it will happen to me too

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

whats you age mane?

im 19

 

[Deleted member 131258]

im 19

your so young brah ur life barely started

 

[Hernan]

I'm sorry you're having that pain man. I wish i could give you any kind of advice but i dont really have any.

 

[Deleted member 155325]

MDMA ma nigga

one suggest MMA the other MDMA

 

[boostlock]

here for u man

 

[McSkziofren]

My life is ruined. As some may have already read in my old threads, I want to kill myself. I had prepared every single thing, everything was perfect. I had sodium nitrite, benzodiazepines, an antiemetic, and a painkiller. I had prepared every single thing in such detail and precision. Unfortunately, I forgot a small detail that led to my parents finding out. My plan was ruined, and it was all my fault. My parents immediately took me to the hospital, and the doctors decided to admit me to a psychiatric ward. I've been here for two weeks now. They also diagnosed me with major depression and a severe mood disorder. Basically, my brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine; I'm basically incapable of being happy. I really don't know how to behave or what to do. They're putting me on therapy, which I hope will seriously help me. The fact is, my suicide plan is ruined right now. My parents found and threw away all the things I ordered, I'm desperate. I was supposed to kill myself on July 15th, the date will be postponed to a few months I think.

u/RuiningYourLaifu

 

[mogandpillage]

brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine

Why

 

[coolfella]

My life is ruined. As some may have already read in my old threads, I want to kill myself. I had prepared every single thing, everything was perfect. I had sodium nitrite, benzodiazepines, an antiemetic, and a painkiller. I had prepared every single thing in such detail and precision. Unfortunately, I forgot a small detail that led to my parents finding out. My plan was ruined, and it was all my fault. My parents immediately took me to the hospital, and the doctors decided to admit me to a psychiatric ward. I've been here for two weeks now. They also diagnosed me with major depression and a severe mood disorder. Basically, my brain doesn't produce serotonin and dopamine; I'm basically incapable of being happy. I really don't know how to behave or what to do. They're putting me on therapy, which I hope will seriously help me. The fact is, my suicide plan is ruined right now. My parents found and threw away all the things I ordered, I'm desperate. I was supposed to kill myself on July 15th, the date will be postponed to a few months I think.

Don’t rope even if ur life is shit movies and pizza exists

 

[ProBono]

welcome back

now that's a name I haven't heard in a long time

 

[Gr8]

have a good faceionality and heightfidance and women will love you bro