My testosterone increasing ruined my life

[Looks over NT]

I wish i could go back to being a testosterone-less kid who didnt care about women and didnt let them distract him from having fun. Around age 15, i felt so high test and id goon for 2 hours after coming home from school. I made porn folders on my pc and sorted them by breast size, innie/outie, etc. i remember walking past girls on the street and getting erect and immediately masturbating to them when i got home. I started stalking girls from other schools online. The turmoil of not being around girls (went to an all boys school) and being an inkwell pained me. It crept into my hobbies and thought patterns and depressed me. I just wish i could be an eunuch @Proex

 

[Looks over NT]

@Asiangymmax @superpsycho

 

[Proex]

doesn't sound too bad, jerking off is the only thing we incels have, we should embrace it

 

[Schizomogger]

yanked it in the school bathroom bc my daydreaming got me so riled up