My whole life feels like a Monday where all Im doing is waiting until Friday comes

[Prøphet]

To put it in normie / goyslave terms

I’m tired boss, when is my weekend coming

When is the big payoff for all of this

Anyone else

 

[zudlife]

I got too much free time I'll regret not using

 

[Prøphet]

I got too much free time I'll regret not using

I’ve wasted the overwhelming free time Ive been blessed with by despairing and suffering in my head. I deeply regret allowing my life to remain so utterly bad that I was forced into doing this.

 

[OrionTheGreat]

We're all like this

 

[Prøphet]

We're all like this

I think lots of people will die before ever experiencing a Saturday

Sad

 

[Prøphet]

God I had so much time, if only I used even 1% of it doing things that would improve my life, but I was just too depressed so I allowed myself to rot, allowed myself to drown in copes. Because I assumed things would never ever get better for me. I had too little hope for myself. What a disaster. There is no greater tragedy than losing hope in a time when you need it.

 

[zudlife]

I’ve wasted the overwhelming free time Ive been blessed with by despairing and suffering in my head. I deeply regret allowing my life to remain so utterly bad that I was forced into doing this.

Wdym this?

 

[zudlife]

God I had so much time, if only I used even 1% of it doing things that would improve my life, but I was just too depressed so I allowed myself to rot, allowed myself to drown in copes. Because I assumed things would never ever get better for me. I had too little hope for myself. What a disaster. There is no greater tragedy than losing hope in a time when you need it.

Did anything change

 

[niggaboy0321]

me too. I always think like this bc of school

 

[Prøphet]

Wdym this?

I never even challenged myself in school because Ive always hated my life. I literally hated to wake up. I only recently found out the reason I hate my life deep down is because of my face and neurochemistry, which is what caused me to be traumatized and humiliated over and over again whenever trying to be social. So I had so much time to myself, but I didn’t spend any of it doing anything, I just spent it on mindless pleasure and comfort, to distract me from my problems. But now my problems are only bigger, and all I’m left with is less time to deal with them.

 

[Prøphet]

Did anything change

Not yet, I’m waiting to start my life when I get surgery as pathetic as it sounds. I will never want to live my life until I can look in the mirror without ruining my day.

 

[zudlife]

Not yet, I’m waiting to start my life when I get surgery as pathetic as it sounds. I will never want to live my life until I can look in the mirror without ruining my day.

I understand i wont judge it but how long are you willing to wait until u can socialise with ppl or do something active (always better with someone around) are you willing to keep that burden of wasting ur life until that surgery or do u have no other option that would be less painful fy if u really regret wasting the time u had

 

[zudlife]

I never even challenged myself in school because Ive always hated my life. I literally hated to wake up. I only recently found out the reason I hate my life deep down is because of my face and neurochemistry, which is what caused me to be traumatized and humiliated over and over again whenever trying to be social. So I had so much time to myself, but I didn’t spend any of it doing anything, I just spent it on mindless pleasure and comfort, to distract me from my problems. But now my problems are only bigger, and all I’m left with is less time to deal with them.

Brutal shit
Thts the path i think im heading towards

 

[valentine]

always waiting for something
I'm scared to looksmax because what if i don't get what i want out of it

 

[Prøphet]

I understand i wont judge it but how long are you willing to wait until u can socialise with ppl or do something active (always better with someone around) are you willing to keep that burden of wasting ur life until that surgery or do u have no other option that would be less painful fy if u really regret wasting the time u had

Idk man that’s the big question. I’m quite literally deformed I’m crosseyed so I’m scared I’ll just make myself more damaged if I actually go out and make an effort to improve my life before fixing my deformity. But also the waiting times have been insane and I am just watching my future go down the drain every day.

 

[Prøphet]

always waiting for something
I'm scared to looksmax because what if i don't get what i want out of it

That describes me perfectly

I’m always afraid to actually try and improve my life, because I’m scared I could give my best effort, give my all, and that still wouldn’t be enough

But now I see what you should really be scared of is the regret, if you knew how much you could’ve improved if only you tried

 

[zudlife]

Idk man that’s the big question. I’m quite literally deformed I’m crosseyed so I’m scared I’ll just make myself more damaged if I actually go out and make an effort to improve my life before fixing my deformity. But also the waiting times have been insane and I am just watching my future go down the drain every day.

Oh yh i remember u told me that before
Its such a simple question with what may seem like a easy answer but from my perspective you should try to be mentally strong and take ur life and do something with it i am assuming i have less life experience than you but i can guarantee u will be less regretful of ur actions

 

[GynoGladiator]

wasnt there a saying, to never live for the weekend

 

[zudlife]

That describes me perfectly

I’m always afraid to actually try and improve my life, because I’m scared I could give my best effort, give my all, and that still wouldn’t be enough

But now I see what you should really be scared of is the regret, if you knew how much you could’ve improved if only you tried

This answer also applies to ur life
If u let yourself or other peoples negative feelings abt u dictate ur life you will end up miserable

 

[valentine]

That describes me perfectly

I’m always afraid to actually try and improve my life, because I’m scared I could give my best effort, give my all, and that still wouldn’t be enough

But now I see what you should really be scared of is the regret, if you knew how much you could’ve improved if only you tried

you could give it your all and get botched
there's horror stories even from people who got simple procedures, with more invasive things like jaw surgery the dissatisfaction rate is higher than you'd expect. some surgeons are just low iq and have bad aesthetic vision, that's what I'm scared of
and even if everything goes right there's unavoidable complications or side effects from all surgeries
my lip lift was a success yet there's still tradeoffs that were made

 

[zudlife]

Oh yh i remember u told me that before
Its such a simple question with what may seem like a easy answer but from my perspective you should try to be mentally strong and take ur life and do something with it i am assuming i have less life experience than you but i can guarantee u will be less regretful of ur actions

Ik you may have thought of every answer
Im trying to make u think again but with a more positive mindset that "things may not be as bad as i thought"

 

[Prøphet]

This answer also applies to ur life
If u let yourself or other peoples negative feelings abt u dictate ur life you will end up miserable

It’s hard man because even if I try to ignore people I’m still cursed with the knowledge that lookism will taint every experience I ever have

 

[Prøphet]

you could give it your all and get botched
there's horror stories even from people who got simple procedures, with more invasive things like jaw surgery the dissatisfaction rate is higher than you'd expect. some surgeons are just low iq and have bad aesthetic vision, that's what I'm scared of
and even if everything goes right there's unavoidable complications or side effects from all surgeries
my lip lift was a success yet there's still tradeoffs that were made

I feel like I would regret less if I knew I really did try to fix things

As my life stands now, I have very little to lose compared to 99% of the people around me. I am a fucking mental subhuman and people will often look at me with shock if I look them in the eyes. Risks will be necessary to build a life worth living, just because of how far below Im starting at. I don’t know if I’ll be able to live with myself in the future if I allow my youth to continue looking like this.

The regrets that hit me the hardest are the things I didn’t do, not the things I did do. All the experiences and opportunities I missed out on. Those sting harder than the fuckups and mistakes I made.

Btw I am also looking into lip lift in the future to fix my long philtrum are you down to share results or nah

 

[valentine]

Btw I am also looking into lip lift in the future to fix my long philtrum are you down to share results or nah

i would only recommend it if your philtrum is like 20mm, which mine was. combine it with corner lip lift if you have downturned commisures, the lift is mainly in the center portion of the upper lip meaning it can make the downturned mouth corners more prominent by giving your mouth a more triangular shape. make sure the base of your nose isn't asymmetrical, that would lead to asymmetrical results. the scarring is tolerable but not invisible, it's still there 9 months post op and won't get any better, so be aware of this tradeoff, it's still the only reliable way to shorten the philtrum directly. pm me if you want to see my results