my whole life is a joke to 99% of people

[johnxz]

genuinely dont know where else to vent so here i go. ive been bullied basically my whole teenage life and it never really affected me when i was like 13-15 i kinda just ignored it because i was a loser and kinda knew it and thats when it was really bad but then when i got into my 3rd and 4th years of secondary school (15-16) people started actually liking me because i didnt do anything to them apart from being small and skinny but then i grew from like 5'9 to 6'1 when i was 15 so that also helped i would say (i should also mention i go to an all boys school). i also kinda jestered the last 2 years because people would actually give me attention and like me because of i could make them laugh but now this school year ive realised nobody actually takes me seriously apart from mabye a few close friends and even then mabye 1 or 2 of them i believe actually do take me seriously my whole life is a joke to people, i started the gym like 6 months ago to get bigger, fixed my skin, posture and actually pursued self improvement and its worked but its changed jackshit no matter what i ever do i will never be anything more than a joke to most dudes in my school and the foids in the school near us im convinced they all just see me as a low tier jester, i have adhd so im ND but even then its not super severe and like im socially adept around foids (i learned that i needed to learn to talk to foids the hard way holy shit but thank fuck it was with random foids that have 0 connection to me) but im 17 in october, kkhv, closest thing to any female contact was when i got really pissed and this random 5'0 ltb foid who was sober started moving on me, my crush im 99% sure she knows and thinks im a joke as her friend group of dudes in my school mostly think of me as one. genuinely some of my friends call me an incel because i hop on .org (told 2 friends about thinking about LEMONBOTTLE which isnt even anything crazy a few days ago and they genuinely looked at me like i was mentally insane never telling people ts again) and because they all have had gfs and slayed but they will actually never understand all i want is just to be taken seriously by somebody in my life its genuinely all i want but ig thats wishful thinking
TLDR: im a joke and my crush and 95% of my school thinks it too

 

[Thief]

Man I just love to skip reading and JFL @Mogs Me

 

[-joe]

Nga you’re 6’1 talking about sum” my whole life’s a joke”

 

[johnxz]

height genuinely doesn't matter when you're a jester to every single person you know

 

[samo.]

genuinely dont know where else to vent so here i go. ive been bullied basically my whole teenage life and it never really affected me when i was like 13-15 i kinda just ignored it because i was a loser and kinda knew it and thats when it was really bad but then when i got into my 3rd and 4th years of secondary school (15-16) people started actually liking me because i didnt do anything to them apart from being small and skinny but then i grew from like 5'9 to 6'1 when i was 15 so that also helped i would say (i should also mention i go to an all boys school). i also kinda jestered the last 2 years because people would actually give me attention and like me because of i could make them laugh but now this school year ive realised nobody actually takes me seriously apart from mabye a few close friends and even then mabye 1 or 2 of them i believe actually do take me seriously my whole life is a joke to people, i started the gym like 6 months ago to get bigger, fixed my skin, posture and actually pursued self improvement and its worked but its changed jackshit no matter what i ever do i will never be anything more than a joke to most dudes in my school and the foids in the school near us im convinced they all just see me as a low tier jester, i have adhd so im ND but even then its not super severe and like im socially adept around foids (i learned that i needed to learn to talk to foids the hard way holy shit but thank fuck it was with random foids that have 0 connection to me) but im 17 in october, kkhv, closest thing to any female contact was when i got really pissed and this random 5'0 ltb foid who was sober started moving on me, my crush im 99% sure she knows and thinks im a joke as her friend group of dudes in my school mostly think of me as one. genuinely some of my friends call me an incel because i hop on .org (told 2 friends about thinking about LEMONBOTTLE which isnt even anything crazy a few days ago and they genuinely looked at me like i was mentally insane never telling people ts again) and because they all have had gfs and slayed but they will actually never understand all i want is just to be taken seriously by somebody in my life its genuinely all i want but ig thats wishful thinking
TLDR: im a joke and my crush and 95% of my school thinks it too

almost dnr what you said then i felt bad. learning how to talk to people is hard just search stuff about social life on her im sure there many guides onnit

 

[samo.]

height genuinely doesn't matter when you're a jester to every single person you know

height always matters

 

[isis_Bleach]

its not a joke to me