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NateJacobs
23 yr old KHHV, larped every post btw
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Buzz Cut
In Summer of 2023 I finally found a hairstyle that was good for me, it was the biggest reason for my ascension out of all the softmaxxes I did, it was THE most important one. Over the last year tho, I essentially got one bad haircut that ruined the base foundation of my hairstyle that I had worked to achieve for a year and a half. Since then, my hair has steadily gotten worse and therefore, i looked worse and furthermore, I felt like absoulute shite.
I promised myself that I would get a buzz during my spring break, and here it is. I did it. I look like shite. My hair carried so dang hard. It does not help that my skin also descened a lot since spring 2024 which is brutal because it was NEVER that good i just never had acne.
Vanity, the sin of all who have ascened.
Vanity is "an excessive pride in or admiration of one's own appearance or achievements." If you read any of my threads from summer 2023 you could probably tell that i struggle with vanity. I valued and still do value my appearance so much to the point where i get lost for minutes at a time staring at my reflection. I look facially like shit rn so i just look at my physique which improved during this time but I have made a conscious effort to stop this. I would take so many pictures of my face, videos even. I made edits of myself. Yes, I am not trolling. Validation overload + Vanity takeover will do that to you. At the same time i hated how I looked but i also LOVED HOW I LOOKED. I look at old pics of me with envy.
But since I place so much of my self worth on being gl, now that i am objectively ugly rn (cannot and will not cope about it), I have no self worth. How tf do i opperate now? I don't know. I do not feel worthless but i literally cannot be confident atm, will automatically likely become more introverted, and will activly try to hide from as many of the ppl ik as possible. Every guy who ascened here is full of vanity. Look at clavicular, zeta, ehren. I do not really know what to do tbh I feel lost.
Nate
Buzz Cut
In Summer of 2023 I finally found a hairstyle that was good for me, it was the biggest reason for my ascension out of all the softmaxxes I did, it was THE most important one. Over the last year tho, I essentially got one bad haircut that ruined the base foundation of my hairstyle that I had worked to achieve for a year and a half. Since then, my hair has steadily gotten worse and therefore, i looked worse and furthermore, I felt like absoulute shite.
I promised myself that I would get a buzz during my spring break, and here it is. I did it. I look like shite. My hair carried so dang hard. It does not help that my skin also descened a lot since spring 2024 which is brutal because it was NEVER that good i just never had acne.
Vanity, the sin of all who have ascened.
Vanity is "an excessive pride in or admiration of one's own appearance or achievements." If you read any of my threads from summer 2023 you could probably tell that i struggle with vanity. I valued and still do value my appearance so much to the point where i get lost for minutes at a time staring at my reflection. I look facially like shit rn so i just look at my physique which improved during this time but I have made a conscious effort to stop this. I would take so many pictures of my face, videos even. I made edits of myself. Yes, I am not trolling. Validation overload + Vanity takeover will do that to you. At the same time i hated how I looked but i also LOVED HOW I LOOKED. I look at old pics of me with envy.
But since I place so much of my self worth on being gl, now that i am objectively ugly rn (cannot and will not cope about it), I have no self worth. How tf do i opperate now? I don't know. I do not feel worthless but i literally cannot be confident atm, will automatically likely become more introverted, and will activly try to hide from as many of the ppl ik as possible. Every guy who ascened here is full of vanity. Look at clavicular, zeta, ehren. I do not really know what to do tbh I feel lost.
Nate
