need ACTUAL advice for my online communication PTSD (not larp plz help bhais)

[coastal]

i know this sounds cringe but lately i actually have a completely unreasonable fear of opening up social media and reading what people texted me

all because im scared that something bad happened while i wasnt online and i'd rather hide my hand in the sand than check it and potentially get hurt (THIS IS RETARDED I KNOW, but i cant seem to do anything about it)

even when i have no reason to worry, just the possibility of something bad or insulting i can find there makes it so some days i never even touch my phone and dont go on any texting apps (besides the one my mind deemed safe like org).

and not checking them only feeds into the same cycle of me not talking to people -> them getting mad -> me not wanting to talk to people etc.

ive never seen anyone with the same issue so idk what to do, but it's starting to get to a point where my relationships and work get FUCKED because of it. ive lost friends, moneymax opportunities and feel much more alone lately

i have no idea how to fix it, if anyone here had similar shit happen to them, please help

 

[nigHT.143]

u thought org was safer than tiktok?

 

[asdvek]

 

[coastal]

u thought org was safer than tiktok?

nigger read the thread, i dont feel this shit when i go here coz nobody knows me and i dont owe anything to people here

@asdvek raw meat made me feel better btw but this shit is still not gone

 

[nigHT.143]

nigger read the thread, i dont feel this shit when i go here coz nobody knows me and i dont owe anything to people here

@asdvek raw meat made me feel better btw but this shit is still not gone

oh where was this mentioned?

 

[coastal]

oh where was this mentioned?

reading what people texted me --- nobody texts me on org

me not talking to people -> them getting mad -> me not wanting to talk to people etc. ----- WHO TF will be mad at me for not posting nobody cares about me here

ive lost friends, moneymax opportunities and feel much more alone lately ----- things that never happened on org

 

[nigHT.143]

oh ig so? the only way i see to fix this is to be chronically online lol. alws see the msgs so u cant avoid them