helpmemog1
My life is genuily miserable
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Not giving my age but you can probably guess. Been ugly my whole life. Never felt good about how I look. Never really felt like I belonged anywhere. Every time I try to put myself out there it backfires. Social skills are basically non existent. Overthink everything I say. Stutter doesn't help either. Sometimes I can't even force words out. People finish my sentences. Makes me not even want to open my mouth.
Bullied constantly. just constant small digs. How I walk, how I talk, what I say, what I try to do. Even when I'm genuinely trying to be nice or funny it gets twisted. I've learned to just stay quiet. Whatever I say gets weaponized anyway.
Skin has been wrecked for years. Acne isn't the worst but it's noticeable enough that I think about it every time I leave the house. Tried everything under the sun. Nothing ever stuck. Been more consistent the last few weeks though.
Lost 2kg this month. That's one of the few things I actually feel decent about. Not some huge achievement, Eating a bit less, moving a bit more. First time in a while I feel like I'm going in the right direction.
Drinking is the one I keep circling back to. I don't even enjoy the taste. It's more about the effect. For a few hours I actually feel normal. I can talk without overthinking every word. Stutter gets noticably less. I don't feel like everyone's watching me. It's like taking a break from my own head.
But the next day always feels like shit. Anxiety goes through the roof. I feel physically and mentally drained. I replay everything I said. Sometimes I don't even remember and that makes it worse. I know I'm using it to cope but I don't have a better alternative right now. It's the only thing that makes social situations bearable.
I'm pretty tall and what from i have notice in my day to day life height doesn't change shit still feel invisible.
If anyone has supplement recommendations or anything that actually helped them with skin, face, or fitness, I'm not gonna ignore it. I'll probably try most of what gets suggested if it seems legit.
I know this is gonna attract trolls. Whatever. If you have actual advice, meal plan, workout, supplement suggestions, drop them.
I'll put some photos at the bottom, Of what i am working with.
Any help with improving my eye area like actuall useful stuff will be put to use.
First pic was 1 year ago.
Bullied constantly. just constant small digs. How I walk, how I talk, what I say, what I try to do. Even when I'm genuinely trying to be nice or funny it gets twisted. I've learned to just stay quiet. Whatever I say gets weaponized anyway.
Skin has been wrecked for years. Acne isn't the worst but it's noticeable enough that I think about it every time I leave the house. Tried everything under the sun. Nothing ever stuck. Been more consistent the last few weeks though.
Lost 2kg this month. That's one of the few things I actually feel decent about. Not some huge achievement, Eating a bit less, moving a bit more. First time in a while I feel like I'm going in the right direction.
Drinking is the one I keep circling back to. I don't even enjoy the taste. It's more about the effect. For a few hours I actually feel normal. I can talk without overthinking every word. Stutter gets noticably less. I don't feel like everyone's watching me. It's like taking a break from my own head.
But the next day always feels like shit. Anxiety goes through the roof. I feel physically and mentally drained. I replay everything I said. Sometimes I don't even remember and that makes it worse. I know I'm using it to cope but I don't have a better alternative right now. It's the only thing that makes social situations bearable.
I'm pretty tall and what from i have notice in my day to day life height doesn't change shit still feel invisible.
If anyone has supplement recommendations or anything that actually helped them with skin, face, or fitness, I'm not gonna ignore it. I'll probably try most of what gets suggested if it seems legit.
I know this is gonna attract trolls. Whatever. If you have actual advice, meal plan, workout, supplement suggestions, drop them.
I'll put some photos at the bottom, Of what i am working with.
Any help with improving my eye area like actuall useful stuff will be put to use.
First pic was 1 year ago.
