suicidemonkey
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One year ago, all I would do is sit in my room on my ass rotting. I'd spend like 7 hours per day scrolling on my phone, I didn't workout - and when I did my workouts were half-assed, and I was eating fast food around 4 times per week consistently. I also watched porn all the time, I rotted in my room for months on end and I was blackout drunk nearly once every 1-2 weeks over the course of a year or so.
I started working out consistently about one year ago. I won't lie that I've barely made any visible gains because I never ate in a surplus, but I've still become significantly stronger for somebody my bodyweight. I lowered my bf% and I can actually get some attention from women now (that never really happened at all before). I also quit alcohol nearly cold turkey, seems like it was fucking my mental health for a while. I was also working for my Dad's business for 6 months and to be completely honest, my performance was ass (largely due to a severe case of ADHD and probably some slight depression). Anyway, I ate reasonably well over that period of time and my porn consumption was significantly lower than what it was beforehand (I actually managed to quit cold turkey for 4 months). I was going to the gym 3-4 times per week consistently, I also managed to make a good friend going there that I still talk to today (I had no friends before). I think I developed some disordered eating habits over time (binging, purging, restricting, autism, etc) but I really want to work on that.
I'm doing this shitty university course at the moment, but I really want to improve my life further. My work performance has improved a lot (I work part time for my Dad now), but I need to decide on a career. I feel like I am at rock bottom but it's hard to have any perspective, have I actually made any positive changes at all yet?
U niggas think I've actually improved my life at all yet?
I started working out consistently about one year ago. I won't lie that I've barely made any visible gains because I never ate in a surplus, but I've still become significantly stronger for somebody my bodyweight. I lowered my bf% and I can actually get some attention from women now (that never really happened at all before). I also quit alcohol nearly cold turkey, seems like it was fucking my mental health for a while. I was also working for my Dad's business for 6 months and to be completely honest, my performance was ass (largely due to a severe case of ADHD and probably some slight depression). Anyway, I ate reasonably well over that period of time and my porn consumption was significantly lower than what it was beforehand (I actually managed to quit cold turkey for 4 months). I was going to the gym 3-4 times per week consistently, I also managed to make a good friend going there that I still talk to today (I had no friends before). I think I developed some disordered eating habits over time (binging, purging, restricting, autism, etc) but I really want to work on that.
I'm doing this shitty university course at the moment, but I really want to improve my life further. My work performance has improved a lot (I work part time for my Dad now), but I need to decide on a career. I feel like I am at rock bottom but it's hard to have any perspective, have I actually made any positive changes at all yet?
U niggas think I've actually improved my life at all yet?
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