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I don’t even care if anyone reads this or not and how they interpret it but I genuinely have no one to talk to about this.
For context I grew up really underweight and with an ed, I struggled to eat even one meal a day and hated being skinny so I binge ate and ate high protein and in a surplus etc gym, because I’m was so underweight any progress I just don’t see it, even photos I put side by side and after gaining 10+kgs.
I also struggle with severe acne , because I’m mortified of staying skinny or losing progress I eat anything, not necessarily sugary food and fatty food but still things that can cause or maintain acne, I have multiple important events coming up and my skin just keeps breaking out, I’ve used retinol, azelaic, benzoyl peroxide creams and none work any more, I’ve also used behind the counter meds . I can’t go on accurate for health reasons. I need my skin clear by Friday- I drink over 3 litres of water, am hygienic and it’s still just flaring up, so now I’ve slowed down my eating and I’m trying hard to eat cleaner but I struggle with this because I’m shit at eating clean but still in surplus, so then my body issues make me overthink, I don’t want to lose weight and progress but it’s all so fucking difficult to balance. Eating clean and trying to maintain my weight at the very least just clash in my mind . I’m overwhelmed and I’m trying to do everything I can but now I just don’t fucking know what I’m doing and panicking over both things that conflict each other , this probably sounds stupid but in my head I’m going crazy and don’t know what to do .
Thanks if you read this, double thanks if you reply any advice
For context I grew up really underweight and with an ed, I struggled to eat even one meal a day and hated being skinny so I binge ate and ate high protein and in a surplus etc gym, because I’m was so underweight any progress I just don’t see it, even photos I put side by side and after gaining 10+kgs.
I also struggle with severe acne , because I’m mortified of staying skinny or losing progress I eat anything, not necessarily sugary food and fatty food but still things that can cause or maintain acne, I have multiple important events coming up and my skin just keeps breaking out, I’ve used retinol, azelaic, benzoyl peroxide creams and none work any more, I’ve also used behind the counter meds . I can’t go on accurate for health reasons. I need my skin clear by Friday- I drink over 3 litres of water, am hygienic and it’s still just flaring up, so now I’ve slowed down my eating and I’m trying hard to eat cleaner but I struggle with this because I’m shit at eating clean but still in surplus, so then my body issues make me overthink, I don’t want to lose weight and progress but it’s all so fucking difficult to balance. Eating clean and trying to maintain my weight at the very least just clash in my mind . I’m overwhelmed and I’m trying to do everything I can but now I just don’t fucking know what I’m doing and panicking over both things that conflict each other , this probably sounds stupid but in my head I’m going crazy and don’t know what to do .
Thanks if you read this, double thanks if you reply any advice
