NEVER Isolate yourself

[mexichango]

just don’t bro i wish i could go back in time and never changed to an online school but everything is just so unbearable i’ve been masking since i was 11 because i knew there was something wrong with me just couldn’t really pinpoint what it was, i read books on body language and how to be liked by people just to learn how to feel human and when i don’t mask well nobody stands me even tho i do literally nothing bad, middle school was a good experience for me except for when i went to party’s i didn’t really know what to do in those scenarios i still don’t know, two girls kissed me and i was liked by a fair amount of girls they even fought each other for me, there was this nd girl that we were really good friends and she confessed to me but my dumbass felt pressure by my classmates because they didn’t like her and i felt like if i said yes they would stop talking to me i was also redpilled at the time so i said no, and around the same time i got hooked on weed and ever since i got hooked on weed everything just became more unbearable because i wanted to be high all the time fast forward i entered high school and lost all my appeal and will to live nobody treated me the same it all felt so shallow so i changed to online school which would be my biggest mistake since i just isolated myself i wish i would’ve just kept masking but man it gets so tiresome, when i changed school i also moved to my dads house (different states) and lost all my friends, now after 2 years of not socializing i sent a message to the nd girl i rejected because i felt so lonely and she ascended i feel like a piece of shit hypergamous shit for saying that but yeah and so i asked her if we could be friends and she said she’s fine with that and we’ve been talking for the past week or two but omg my dumbass opened up to her about all the shit that’s in my life and told her about genetic determinism and how i was blasting and bsmashing to save my recessed bones and she said i look fine the way i am and we kept talking like actually talking like very good friends i really thought i finally had found some hope of friendship or something but now she just literally said that im too much
i hate being autistic so much i cant stand living everyday is torture i just wanted someone that i could talk to, now i finally understand what they mean by “it’s over if you are autistic” i tried roping some months ago but the wheels on the chair weren’t very lubricated so when i kicked it it didn’t went too far and mid roping i regretted bc it hurts and i was able to reach the chair w my feet i guess i didn’t really wanna kms, then i went back to my moms house to finish highschool since the school was over there i needed to be over there to do social service idk if u guys know what that is, so i went and since i was addicted to weed well i got caught and i just started crying so bad telling my mom that it helped me sleep and that i couldn’t sleep without it ( it did help me ) and that it helped with social interactions (not rlly) (it just made my life barely bearable so i didn’t kms) so i got off easy but then like not even weed helped me i just felt so much anxiety and well i wasn’t really sleeping so i was basically crashing out every day every hour screaming and crying and saying that i can’t stand my recessed bones and shit life so she got me a prescription med that has helped me it’s lowered my inhib a bit and helped with my ocd but the self harm thoughts were still there just not really prevalent or like as much idk how to explain it and so since i knew the meds are bad for libido and stuff like that i started test and then looked deeper and now im on tren halo hgh and mast it has helped a tiny bit with my face i can finally sleep now bc of the meds and also lemborexant and melatonin and other stuff but this interaction with this girl really broke me like i lost the little hope i had of idk idk what to think or say now im lost

im thinking about pinning my dads insulin so i go hypo and die but im scared to reincarnate as an actual subhuman or go to hell or some scary shit

i just hate being autistic and recessed and 5’6 and to make things worse i get reminded daily by my chad nt brother with a girlfriend that im basically nothing im worth nothing im not deserving of friendship nobody stands me even tho im very nice to everyone

my family is so mean to me when all i do is help them

 

[TestoMaxxer]

Not readin all that at nigga

 

[Riley209711]

10 reps and i will read ts

 

[mexichango]

Not readin all that at nigga

i don’t really expect anyone to read this i know how people are in the forum lol

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

I read it all. As it says in the Durham proverbs, "the wages of deceit shall be repaid in blood"
One day, when the culture has shifted enough, these things will be talked about openly. Many generations have been deceived totally, made to think that a relationship with a woman involves just "getting some pussy" and that you can have tons of success without looks or status. Very sad

 

[thodian]

ive done it my whole life i never really made friends i got kicked outa school in 7th grade and moved across the country and then covid came and i had to do irl school in highschool and it was just downhill i didnt speak to anyone i felt like everyone was looking at me felt like i stuck out like a sore thumb and i would just get ridiculed for not making friends and going out and nobody understanding but ive reached the point where i dont care i get women i have a couple friends and i dont want a big friend group i like where im at ive gotten better looking but this only made me hate humans more for being so artificial

 

[Riley209711]

ive done it my whole life i never really made friends i got kicked outa school in 7th grade and moved across the country and then covid came and i had to do irl school in highschool and it was just downhill i didnt speak to anyone i felt like everyone was looking at me felt like i stuck out like a sore thumb and i would just get ridiculed for not making friends and going out and nobody understanding but ive reached the point where i dont care i get women i have a couple friends and i dont want a big friend group i like where im at ive gotten better looking but this only made me hate humans more for being so artificial

how did u get kicked out of school

 

[mexichango]

I read it all. All it says in the Durham proverbs, "the wages of deceit shall be repaid in blood"
One day, when the culture has shifted enough, these things will be talked about openly. Many generations have been deceived totally, made to think that a relationship with a woman involves just "getting some pussy" and that you can have tons of success without looks or status. Very sad

i’m an iqlet i didnt really understand but i wish i had said yes to the nd girl i wonder how my life would be rn

 

[starzy]

too fat to read

 

[thodian]

how did u get kicked out of school

fighting bc people would make fun of me and i just had enough

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

i’m an iqlet i didnt really understand but i wish i had said yes to the nd girl i wonder how my life would be rn

Deception and manipulation is the method of women. I don't think anything they say is to be taken really seriously. They will not be with a man without status or money or looks or some random lucky incident. I wouldn't spend any time overanalyzing what they say. To observe how they behave is the valuable thing

 

[Riley209711]

fighting bc people would make fun of me and i just had enough

dang that sucks

 

[Zurrz]

10 reps and i will read ts

Hai bhai

 

[Riley209711]

Hai bhai

sup

 

[coastal]

nobodys reading allat my nigger

 

[mexichango]

nobodys reading allat my nigger

not rlly expecting someone to read

 

[TheEndMogger]

 

[arkzy7]

just don’t bro i wish i could go back in time and never changed to an online school but everything is just so unbearable i’ve been masking since i was 11 because i knew there was something wrong with me just couldn’t really pinpoint what it was, i read books on body language and how to be liked by people just to learn how to feel human and when i don’t mask well nobody stands me even tho i do literally nothing bad, middle school was a good experience for me except for when i went to party’s i didn’t really know what to do in those scenarios i still don’t know, two girls kissed me and i was liked by a fair amount of girls they even fought each other for me, there was this nd girl that we were really good friends and she confessed to me but my dumbass felt pressure by my classmates because they didn’t like her and i felt like if i said yes they would stop talking to me i was also redpilled at the time so i said no, and around the same time i got hooked on weed and ever since i got hooked on weed everything just became more unbearable because i wanted to be high all the time fast forward i entered high school and lost all my appeal and will to live nobody treated me the same it all felt so shallow so i changed to online school which would be my biggest mistake since i just isolated myself i wish i would’ve just kept masking but man it gets so tiresome, when i changed school i also moved to my dads house (different states) and lost all my friends, now after 2 years of not socializing i sent a message to the nd girl i rejected because i felt so lonely and she ascended i feel like a piece of shit hypergamous shit for saying that but yeah and so i asked her if we could be friends and she said she’s fine with that and we’ve been talking for the past week or two but omg my dumbass opened up to her about all the shit that’s in my life and told her about genetic determinism and how i was blasting and bsmashing to save my recessed bones and she said i look fine the way i am and we kept talking like actually talking like very good friends i really thought i finally had found some hope of friendship or something but now she just literally said that im too much
i hate being autistic so much i cant stand living everyday is torture i just wanted someone that i could talk to, now i finally understand what they mean by “it’s over if you are autistic” i tried roping some months ago but the wheels on the chair weren’t very lubricated so when i kicked it it didn’t went too far and mid roping i regretted bc it hurts and i was able to reach the chair w my feet i guess i didn’t really wanna kms, then i went back to my moms house to finish highschool since the school was over there i needed to be over there to do social service idk if u guys know what that is, so i went and since i was addicted to weed well i got caught and i just started crying so bad telling my mom that it helped me sleep and that i couldn’t sleep without it ( it did help me ) and that it helped with social interactions (not rlly) (it just made my life barely bearable so i didn’t kms) so i got off easy but then like not even weed helped me i just felt so much anxiety and well i wasn’t really sleeping so i was basically crashing out every day every hour screaming and crying and saying that i can’t stand my recessed bones and shit life so she got me a prescription med that has helped me it’s lowered my inhib a bit and helped with my ocd but the self harm thoughts were still there just not really prevalent or like as much idk how to explain it and so since i knew the meds are bad for libido and stuff like that i started test and then looked deeper and now im on tren halo hgh and mast it has helped a tiny bit with my face i can finally sleep now bc of the meds and also lemborexant and melatonin and other stuff but this interaction with this girl really broke me like i lost the little hope i had of idk idk what to think or say now im lost

im thinking about pinning my dads insulin so i go hypo and die but im scared to reincarnate as an actual subhuman or go to hell or some scary shit

i just hate being autistic and recessed and 5’6 and to make things worse i get reminded daily by my chad nt brother with a girlfriend that im basically nothing im worth nothing im not deserving of friendship nobody stands me even tho im very nice to everyone

my family is so mean to me when all i do is help them

Dnr but agree w the title for sure take that advice

 

[xqety]

just don’t bro i wish i could go back in time and never changed to an online school but everything is just so unbearable i’ve been masking since i was 11 because i knew there was something wrong with me just couldn’t really pinpoint what it was, i read books on body language and how to be liked by people just to learn how to feel human and when i don’t mask well nobody stands me even tho i do literally nothing bad, middle school was a good experience for me except for when i went to party’s i didn’t really know what to do in those scenarios i still don’t know, two girls kissed me and i was liked by a fair amount of girls they even fought each other for me, there was this nd girl that we were really good friends and she confessed to me but my dumbass felt pressure by my classmates because they didn’t like her and i felt like if i said yes they would stop talking to me i was also redpilled at the time so i said no, and around the same time i got hooked on weed and ever since i got hooked on weed everything just became more unbearable because i wanted to be high all the time fast forward i entered high school and lost all my appeal and will to live nobody treated me the same it all felt so shallow so i changed to online school which would be my biggest mistake since i just isolated myself i wish i would’ve just kept masking but man it gets so tiresome, when i changed school i also moved to my dads house (different states) and lost all my friends, now after 2 years of not socializing i sent a message to the nd girl i rejected because i felt so lonely and she ascended i feel like a piece of shit hypergamous shit for saying that but yeah and so i asked her if we could be friends and she said she’s fine with that and we’ve been talking for the past week or two but omg my dumbass opened up to her about all the shit that’s in my life and told her about genetic determinism and how i was blasting and bsmashing to save my recessed bones and she said i look fine the way i am and we kept talking like actually talking like very good friends i really thought i finally had found some hope of friendship or something but now she just literally said that im too much
i hate being autistic so much i cant stand living everyday is torture i just wanted someone that i could talk to, now i finally understand what they mean by “it’s over if you are autistic” i tried roping some months ago but the wheels on the chair weren’t very lubricated so when i kicked it it didn’t went too far and mid roping i regretted bc it hurts and i was able to reach the chair w my feet i guess i didn’t really wanna kms, then i went back to my moms house to finish highschool since the school was over there i needed to be over there to do social service idk if u guys know what that is, so i went and since i was addicted to weed well i got caught and i just started crying so bad telling my mom that it helped me sleep and that i couldn’t sleep without it ( it did help me ) and that it helped with social interactions (not rlly) (it just made my life barely bearable so i didn’t kms) so i got off easy but then like not even weed helped me i just felt so much anxiety and well i wasn’t really sleeping so i was basically crashing out every day every hour screaming and crying and saying that i can’t stand my recessed bones and shit life so she got me a prescription med that has helped me it’s lowered my inhib a bit and helped with my ocd but the self harm thoughts were still there just not really prevalent or like as much idk how to explain it and so since i knew the meds are bad for libido and stuff like that i started test and then looked deeper and now im on tren halo hgh and mast it has helped a tiny bit with my face i can finally sleep now bc of the meds and also lemborexant and melatonin and other stuff but this interaction with this girl really broke me like i lost the little hope i had of idk idk what to think or say now im lost

im thinking about pinning my dads insulin so i go hypo and die but im scared to reincarnate as an actual subhuman or go to hell or some scary shit

i just hate being autistic and recessed and 5’6 and to make things worse i get reminded daily by my chad nt brother with a girlfriend that im basically nothing im worth nothing im not deserving of friendship nobody stands me even tho im very nice to everyone

my family is so mean to me when all i do is help them

Dnr whole ass essay I ain’t reading all dat

 

[mexichango]

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