ifyouwannabemylover
Chasing Vanity
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here's a little background on me and my situation for anyone who cares:
- grew up as the "cute kid" and had girls run after me all throughout elementary school and early highschool
- got absolutely obliterated by puberty and became an invisible loser outcast (part of this was also a result of my family moving places, divorce, etc)
- spent my teens playing vidya and reading about obscure shit online which probably made me even more non-nt than i already was
- some of that obscure shit happened to be the psl/blackpill community and the more i read, the more my situation started to make sense
eventually i realized exactly what i had to do to and so i spent the last couple of years rotting on here, half-arsing my studies and working shit jobs during summer to be able to afford surgeries. ended up getting multiple facial surgeries while living a quasi neet life throughout covid lockdowns. the surgeries paired with softmaxxing stuff probably put me at around 80-90% of my total looks potential. recently i moved into a dorm which is now giving me major opportunities to socialize and talk to foids and now i'm at a point where i think it actually makes sense to try. gonna install apps soon too. but now i'm also so severely touch starved that even just the idea of making out with a girl seems so outlandish and crazy to me that i'm making that my goal for now. and in a way i feel like making out is better than fucking anyway.
after all this, my psyche/mental health is severely (and to a degree probably irreversibly) fucked, but i guess it's worth a try to make the best of it.
am i gonna make it brahs?
- grew up as the "cute kid" and had girls run after me all throughout elementary school and early highschool
- got absolutely obliterated by puberty and became an invisible loser outcast (part of this was also a result of my family moving places, divorce, etc)
- spent my teens playing vidya and reading about obscure shit online which probably made me even more non-nt than i already was
- some of that obscure shit happened to be the psl/blackpill community and the more i read, the more my situation started to make sense
eventually i realized exactly what i had to do to and so i spent the last couple of years rotting on here, half-arsing my studies and working shit jobs during summer to be able to afford surgeries. ended up getting multiple facial surgeries while living a quasi neet life throughout covid lockdowns. the surgeries paired with softmaxxing stuff probably put me at around 80-90% of my total looks potential. recently i moved into a dorm which is now giving me major opportunities to socialize and talk to foids and now i'm at a point where i think it actually makes sense to try. gonna install apps soon too. but now i'm also so severely touch starved that even just the idea of making out with a girl seems so outlandish and crazy to me that i'm making that my goal for now. and in a way i feel like making out is better than fucking anyway.
after all this, my psyche/mental health is severely (and to a degree probably irreversibly) fucked, but i guess it's worth a try to make the best of it.
am i gonna make it brahs?
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