Nobody gives a fuck about me

[Lonenely sigma]

So, its been 10 days since I left my hometown and went on a trip.


How many people from my uni called to check how I've been?

0. Of course.

Nobody gives a single fuck about me, not even my "friends".

I mean they all know I went on a trip because I told them I won't be there for a while but still, its almost as if I had never existed.

And if I never showed up again none of them would EVER check up on me. I am, quite literally, a nobody.

 

[VohnnyBoy]

I mean they all know I went on a trip

nigga...

 

[laworg]

So, its been 10 days since I left my hometown and went on a trip.


How many people from my uni called to check how I've been?

0. Of course.

Nobody gives a single fuck about me, not even my "friends".

I mean they all know I went on a trip because I told them I won't be there for a while but still, its almost as if I had never existed.

And if I never showed up again none of them would EVER check up on me. I am, quite literally, a nobody.

Yeah bcus id they arent ur close friends why would they checkup on u

 

[Lonenely sigma]

nigga...

Bro be real, if I was attractive they'd all be spamming me with whats going on back home, they'd chat or smt.

NOTHING. Just, poof. Gone. I never existed in the first place to these people

 

[valentine]

i will always love you for you

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

So, its been 10 days since I left my hometown and went on a trip.


How many people from my uni called to check how I've been?

0. Of course.

Nobody gives a single fuck about me, not even my "friends".

I mean they all know I went on a trip because I told them I won't be there for a while but still, its almost as if I had never existed.

And if I never showed up again none of them would EVER check up on me. I am, quite literally, a nobody.

Bro some of us have been with this 20+++ years and you are sad because this has been going on for 10 days.

All i will say is make money, focus on yourself and be greedy with it as in take yourself out and meet the ppl >you want<. Depend on nobody. Nobody cares about men.

It’s just hoe nature is. But you will find alot of freedom with that, if u play your cards right.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Bro some of us have been with this 20+++ years and you are sad because this has been going on for 10 days.

That was my entire life since ever, but this time I actually spent 2 months meeting new people and going outside.

I've met many and even thought they liked me quite a bit, I mean they do seem quite happy to see me, but its almost as if I haven't met anyone.

I am back to that lonely place I so desperately tried to escape.

All i will say is make money, focus on yourself and be greedy with it as in take yourself out and meet the ppl you want

I agree rationally but I am just way too... idk... needy? I just want people to love me, and when I say me, I mean myself, my looks etc... not my actions, not my money, because that isn't even me.

Nobody cares about men

They care about gl men tho.

 

[CD34]

Im sorry i know this feeling very well, keep pushing

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

That was my entire life since ever, but this time I actually spent 2 months meeting new people and going outside.

I've met many and even thought they liked me quite a bit, I mean they do seem quite happy to see me, but its almost as if I haven't met anyone.

I am back to that lonely place I so desperately tried to escape.

I agree rationally but I am just way too... idk... needy? I just want people to love me, and when I say me, I mean myself, my looks etc... not my actions, not my money, because that isn't even me.

They care about gl men tho.

You are completely right honestly yeah if you were atleast high-mtn they would be all over you showing affection and even texting you because they have u in their memory.

You can’t buy affection. All you can do is feel the feelings and not escape from them because if you don’t and embrace even the loneliness and feel it completely you will feel good and ALIVE.

And know that there is a force out there ‘Consciousness, God’ whatever name u want to call it, that is aware of your experience, your thoughts. And it is unconditional love.

You are imperfect and it still allows you to be that. In the grand scheme of things you actually matter very much. In your perspective you might not yet see it this way.

 

[pope]

Yeah this shit sucks dick

 

[chadhamed]

i will always love you for you

Same
Op doesnt know how much i missed him

 

[Pento]

So, its been 10 days since I left my hometown and went on a trip.


How many people from my uni called to check how I've been?

0. Of course.

Nobody gives a single fuck about me, not even my "friends".

I mean they all know I went on a trip because I told them I won't be there for a while but still, its almost as if I had never existed.

And if I never showed up again none of them would EVER check up on me. I am, quite literally, a nobody.

That’s just how it is
It only gets worse

 

[amp]

So, its been 10 days since I left my hometown and went on a trip.


How many people from my uni called to check how I've been?

0. Of course.

Nobody gives a single fuck about me, not even my "friends".

I mean they all know I went on a trip because I told them I won't be there for a while but still, its almost as if I had never existed.

And if I never showed up again none of them would EVER check up on me. I am, quite literally, a nobody.

dnr

 

[ozuhdm]

let me guess you also went alone for the trip? would be me

 

[Sceptical]

did you at least have fun on your trip?

 

[Lonenely sigma]

let me guess you also went alone for the trip? would be me

did you at least have fun on your trip?

I am with my family in Greece. Its nice.

One of my friends asked me:

"Ohh soo you will be partying every night?"

-uhh... no. Actually its nothing like that. You see, its in the middle of nowhere and the only people my age are rich Germans who come in their huge vans with 3 family generations

You are completely right honestly yeah if you were atleast high-mtn they would be all over you showing affection and even texting you because they have u in their memory.

You can’t buy affection.

I agree 100% and thank you for being honest.

All you can do is feel the feelings and not escape from them because if you don’t and embrace even the loneliness and feel it completely you will feel good and ALIVE.

Sorry man, but if I am 100% honest, this seems like a cope to me. You can't feel good about a bad situation.

You can eventually get used to pain and start tolerating it, but no matter how many times I repeat the positives of loneliness to myself... inside still hurts.

It isn't a thing of how I view the horizont, its a thing of what my horizont looks like.

And know that there is a force out there ‘Consciousness, God’ whatever name u want to call it, that is aware of your experience, your thoughts. And it is unconditional love.

You are imperfect and it still allows you to be that. In the grand scheme of things you actually matter very much. In your perspective you might not yet see it this way.

Again, I respect religion fully, as someone living in a mostly Christian country, what you said sounds like something I heard many times...


The truth is, however, that we don't know. I can't believe we all matter equally to good when, objectively, people just are not equal, unfortunately.

And even if there was a soul, that soul would be predetermined, and even if it wasn't 100% fully predetermined - it'd be trapped in a body with life circumstances that WERE predetermined.

I just don't see how you can be religious and accept the brutal reality of determinism, in particular genetic determinism.

 

[looksmaxingbeyond]

I am with my family in Greece. Its nice.

One of my friends asked me:

"Ohh soo you will be partying every night?"

-uhh... no. Actually its nothing like that. You see, its in the middle of nowhere and the only people my age are rich Germans who come in their huge vans with 3 family generations


I agree 100% and thank you for being honest.

Sorry man, but if I am 100% honest, this seems like a cope to me. You can't feel good about a bad situation.

You can eventually get used to pain and start tolerating it, but no matter how many times I repeat the positives of loneliness to myself... inside still hurts.

It isn't a thing of how I view the horizont, its a thing of what my horizont looks like.

Again, I respect religion fully, as someone living in a mostly Christian country, what you said sounds like something I heard many times...


The truth is, however, that we don't know. I can't believe we all matter equally to good when, objectively, people just are not equal, unfortunately.

And even if there was a soul, that soul would be predetermined, and even if it wasn't 100% fully predetermined - it'd be trapped in a body with life circumstances that WERE predetermined.

I just don't see how you can be religious and accept the brutal reality of determinism, in particular genetic determinism.

I was coming from a Non-duality approach. I am not religious. God is not a concept. It is that beyond duality.

Try looking up Rupert Spira and literally watch just 3 of his videos. fr fr fr fr fr fr.