sasukeisgorgeous
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As soon as I understood how cranial base works and that your skull base cannot be altered and no amount of surgeries will shorten my midface, which undeniably is the worse failo you can have and makes you look goofy and non-feminine, my brain kind of shut off... it fell into dissociation.
The inner monologue is basically, you are ugly, which would be fine if you could change that, but you cannot. This has ruined my life. Zapped all enjoyment out of it. Anytime I even begin to enjoy myself a little my long midface, thin face, asymmetric eyes, horrible jaw come into my mind and I dissociate terribly. Lose all enjoyment of what I was doing and this feeling of pure depression/mental agony kicks in.
The worst part is how I am able to imagine myself as good looking for a couple seconds and the false/forced euphoria I feel... I had so much fucking potential in this life.
I could have lived such a beautiful life. EVERYTHING feels as if it brings more dopamine when youre good looking. I would have had hobbies, I would have be interested in the little things, like wearing feminine jewelry, listening to pop music, cleaning my room, living an aesthetic life... even the tiniest details/little things would feel like ecstacy with a pretty face. Id be obsessed with life, self wellness and betterment.
I would love myself and therefor be driven to make this life as peak as possible. Not waste any of it away. Im currently a NEET, rotter by its complete definition. And its all because of how ugly God made me. Sometimes I observe te lives of good looking people and wonder how theyre so driven, how even the tiniest things seem to captivate them and how focused they are in their lives. Your brain simply works so much better when youre good looking.
Thanks, God. Feels great being the ugliest of all my cousins, having the longest midface in my whole family/friend group.
The inner monologue is basically, you are ugly, which would be fine if you could change that, but you cannot. This has ruined my life. Zapped all enjoyment out of it. Anytime I even begin to enjoy myself a little my long midface, thin face, asymmetric eyes, horrible jaw come into my mind and I dissociate terribly. Lose all enjoyment of what I was doing and this feeling of pure depression/mental agony kicks in.
The worst part is how I am able to imagine myself as good looking for a couple seconds and the false/forced euphoria I feel... I had so much fucking potential in this life.
I could have lived such a beautiful life. EVERYTHING feels as if it brings more dopamine when youre good looking. I would have had hobbies, I would have be interested in the little things, like wearing feminine jewelry, listening to pop music, cleaning my room, living an aesthetic life... even the tiniest details/little things would feel like ecstacy with a pretty face. Id be obsessed with life, self wellness and betterment.
I would love myself and therefor be driven to make this life as peak as possible. Not waste any of it away. Im currently a NEET, rotter by its complete definition. And its all because of how ugly God made me. Sometimes I observe te lives of good looking people and wonder how theyre so driven, how even the tiniest things seem to captivate them and how focused they are in their lives. Your brain simply works so much better when youre good looking.
Thanks, God. Feels great being the ugliest of all my cousins, having the longest midface in my whole family/friend group.