Nothing changed in the last 3 years that I lost my inceldom.

[Deleted member 275]

23.5 years old me: KHHV that finally got his first girlfriend. Was ugly in the past, women treated me like shit.

26.5year old me today: Got a fwb, had a girlfriend, had several ONS, 30+ dates.

Facts right now, today:

-Still no self-esteem and still feel ugly. Despite it not making sense in the moment (fwb telling me I am extremely attractive, etc.)
-Still unhappy. Does make sense kinda, since my life is still shit in every aspect.
-Still lost. Can't be bothered to wageslave, no idea what the hell else I am supposed to do. Life feels like a scam.


I think if you are a truecel like me at 23.5 yo, your brain is irreversibiley damaged.

 

[Deleted member 16282]

mogs me

 

[TITUS]

Inject T and pack 20 kilos of muscle. Also when you are on T you won't want your gf pegging you anymore.

 

[Deleted member 275]

Inject T and pack 20 kilos of muscle.

Wont do shit tbh. terrible advice

 

[.👽.]

i know that feel bruh u ascended very late your brain still thinks u r subhuman it doesn't matter when a girl says u r hot and shiet. idk how to fix it tho

 

[Deleted member 275]

i know that feel bruh u ascended very late your brain still thinks u r subhuman it doesn't matter when a girl says u r hot and shiet. idk how to fix it tho

Yes this. I feel like I have low social value, undesirable, failure, etc.

I have done a lot to obtain success these last 3 years. Joining a frat, going out a lot, getting good experiences with girls, etc. But it's not changing the way I think about myself that has formed throughout my life.

I keep falling in this trap thinking I am still not good enough. I need to fuck more girls, get more girlfriends, get hotter girlfriends, get more money, etc. so that some day, somewhere, I can finally stop being a 'loser'. But I feel like it's a path that leads nowhere imo based on my recent experiences.

I have to look inside to find self-esteem and value at this point.

 

[.👽.]

Yes this. I feel like I have low social value, undesirable, failure, etc.

I have done a lot to obtain success these last 3 years. Joining a frat, going out a lot, getting good experiences with girls, etc. But it's not changing the way I think about myself that has formed throughout my life.

I keep falling in this trap thinking I am still not good enough. I need to fuck more girls, get more girlfriends, get hotter girlfriends, get more money, etc. so that some day, somewhere, I can finally stop being a 'loser'. But I feel like it's a path that leads nowhere imo based on my recent experiences.

I have to look inside to find self-esteem and value at this point.

yea i think u cant change a thought that formed u since 23 years in just 1-2 years. but im not a psychologist or some.

cuz this shit i act very insecure with girls even when they compliment etc. normies are right about self esteem/confidence ngl

 

[Deleted member 275]

yea i think u cant change a thought that formed u since 23 years in just 1-2 years. but im not a psychologist or some.

cuz this shit i act very insecure with girls even when they compliment etc. normies are right about self esteem/confidence ngl

Self-esteem/Confidence comes from good looks imo. If are an ugly child, you will always be awkward even if you looksmax later.

You can find this awkwardness even with male models like cavill and gandy that were mediocre looking in their youth. They still hold that kind of awkwardness/unconfidence.

 

[TITUS]

Wont do shit tbh. terrible advice

Just kys, there is no way to satisfy some people, you are one of them.

 

[Deleted member 6427]

Finally someone that understand that eveb if you can fuck all these girls, have a gf or whatever, you'll still feel like shit and be unhappy. You know why? Because you're fucking depressed, has nothing to do with getting pussy or not

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Inject T and pack 20 kilos of muscle. Also when you are on T you won't want your gf pegging you anymore.

Not true at all buddy lol

 

[CupOfCoffee]

OP do you have a job? I'm gonna go into panic mode cuz I don't know what I wanna do. So far I don't want to pursue any of the things I studied and I keep wanting to change directions. ADHD problems

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Brutal, I'm a 25 year old khhv. If your brain hasn't been fixed despite all the experience you have now then is no hope for someone like me. They say that your brain doesn't finish developing until you're 25.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Brutal, I'm a 25 year old khhv. If your brain hasn't been fixed despite all the experience you have now then is no hope for someone like me. They say that your brain doesn't finish developing until you're 25.

Bhai I'm sick of having no money. All this T in my system is making me wanna rob a store ngl

 

[Deleted member 275]

Finally someone that understand that eveb if you can fuck all these girls, have a gf or whatever, you'll still feel like shit and be unhappy. You know why? Because you're fucking depressed, has nothing to do with getting pussy or not

I think that not getting any pussy was a significant factor in me getting depressed.

But getting pussy has not been the cure to get out of this depression caused by not getting pussy.

that's the difficulty

 

[Deleted member 275]

OP do you have a job? I'm gonna go into panic mode cuz I don't know what I wanna do. So far I don't want to pursue any of the things I studied and I keep wanting to change directions. ADHD problems

i had a job earlier this year, but I quit. still struggling with finishing my studies but can't be motivated and no idea what I want to do tbh.

 

[Deleted member 6427]

OP do you have a job? I'm gonna go into panic mode cuz I don't know what I wanna do. So far I don't want to pursue any of the things I studied and I keep wanting to change directions. ADHD problems

Im exactly in the same situation, also have ADHD

 

[CupOfCoffee]

i had a job earlier this year, but I quit. still struggling with finishing my studies but can't be motivated and no idea what I want to do tbh.

Seems like a majority of people in their 20s are like this. But then there are some who legit have it figured out and it makes me feel useless tbh

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Bhai I'm sick of having no money. All this T in my system is making me wanna rob a store ngl

I can relate, I'm a poorcel as well. Haven't jerked off in a few days either which contributes to my T levels being higher, I think I should just fap.

 

[TITUS]

Not true at all buddy lol

Well, if you are an unredeemed fagget then you can't really do much about it, it's all about getting stuff up your arse, one day after another.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

OP do you have a job? I'm gonna go into panic mode cuz I don't know what I wanna do. So far I don't want to pursue any of the things I studied and I keep wanting to change directions. ADHD problems

I don't have a job and I also dropped out of college. I dropped out 10 times. I also don't know what I want to do, I always lose motivation after two weeks.

 

[Deleted member 275]

Brutal, I'm a 25 year old khhv. If your brain hasn't been fixed despite all the experience you have now then is no hope for someone like me. They say that your brain doesn't finish developing until you're 25.

i was 23.5 yo khhv. And yeah my brain didn't fix itself, but it might be my mindset tbh.

Idk what to say, I was going to say something smart that I've learned. But all I can say is life is hard tbh.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Well, if you are an unredeemed fagget then you can't really do much about it, it's all about getting stuff up your arse, one day after another.

Nah i do it like once a week tbh. Especially if I'm tired and don't wanna do shit she'll be down to put on the strapon and switch the roles a bit. It's honestly refreshing lol

 

[CupOfCoffee]

I don't have a job and I also dropped out of college. I dropped out 10 times. I also don't know what I want to do, I always lose motivation after two weeks.

Bruh at our age we need to be doing drastic things and taking big risks. I hate when I fall back into the dajjal comfort zone

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

i was 23.5 yo khhv. And yeah my brain didn't fix itself, but it might be my mindset tbh.

Idk what to say, I was going to say something smart that I've learned. But all I can say is life is hard tbh.

I think for you it is indeed a mindset. You are somewhat of a mentalcel. And yeah guys can't help me or have advice for me because I'm way too much of a fuck up.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Bruh at our age we need to be doing drastic things and taking big risks. I hate when I fall back into the dajjal comfort zone

Everyone expects me that I already work a job or I'm done with college already when in reality I am not even in college yet because I keep dropping out.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Everyone expects me that I already work a job or I'm done with college already when in reality I am not even in college yet because I keep dropping out.

Nigga my parents think I'm going to med school in 2 years. No way I want to go down that road, I've thought about it so much and it sounds like a horrible life tbh. Imagine spending your whole life working like a slave and studying constantly and having your hair and collagen get raped from all the stress. I'd rather a career with more freedom. Or entrepreneurship.

 

[Deleted member 275]

I think for you it is indeed a mindset. You are somewhat of a mentalcel. And yeah guys can't help me or have advice for me because I'm way too much of a fuck up.

All I can say is that you can separate your life into parts.

Just because your dating/sex life-part, which is significant, is utter shit. Doesn't mean you can't have a decent career/studies/hobbies/social-life.

Try to make sure that failures in 1 part of your life, don't ruin the parts of your life that are still going well.

 

[TITUS]

Nah i do it like once a week tbh. Especially if I'm tired and don't wanna do shit she'll be down to put on the strapon and switch the roles a bit. It's honestly refreshing lol

Very "refreshing" yes.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Nigga my parents think I'm going to med school in 2 years. No way I want to go down that road, I've thought about it so much and it sounds like a horrible life tbh. Imagine spending your whole life working like a slave and studying constantly and having your hair and collagen get raped from all the stress. I'd rather a career with more freedom. Or entrepreneurship.

Do you live at home with your parents then? You know you can't keep them fooled forever, sooner or later they will start asking the right questions and will realize you're not going to med school. If you can find an alternative then stick to that and then tell your parents about it when you're either halfway through or about to be done so they will not have a problem with you not going to med school anymore. But yeah if you are not some kind of entrepreneur then all you will be doing is wageslaving like the majority of people.

All I can say is that you can separate your life into parts.

Just because your dating/sex life-part, which is significant, is utter shit. Doesn't mean you can't have a decent career/studies/hobbies/social-life.

Try to make sure that failures in 1 part of your life, don't ruin the parts of your life that are still going well.

I agree with you, and it is a good advice that can apply to pretty much anyone. But however as for me, I don't have a career, a study, a hobby or a social life. I honestly don't know what to study at the moment. Like @Acupofcoffee, I just don't have a clue, my motivation always leaves me after some time.

 

[Deleted member 756]

But I think you need therapy. You clearly have the looks to do well in life

 

[Deleted member 275]

I agree with you, and it is a good advice that can apply to pretty much anyone. But however as for me, I don't have a career, a study, a hobby or a social life. I honestly don't know what to study at the moment. Like @Acupofcoffee, I just don't have a clue, my motivation always leaves me after some time.

maybe focus on getting a hobby and a bit of social life first. Career/studies are very hard, and you will have to rely more on discipline than motivation more often than not

 

[Deleted member 275]

But I think you need therapy. You clearly have the looks to do well in life

I agree. I think if I looked like I do now, all my life, I would be doing very well. Sadly I was subhuman during the crucial childhood parts of my life, and now I need to move past that trauma.

I need to find some way to move beyond my past and get some sort of decent life quality going, fix my brain and mind.

 

[Mouthbreath]

i know that feel bruh u ascended very late your brain still thinks u r subhuman it doesn't matter when a girl says u r hot and shiet. idk how to fix it tho

It's funny that in my dreams I am often times still a little kid, about a head shorter than everyone else. Because most of my life experiences happened when I was a kid. Since about 6 years I'm very rarely meeting new people, almost no memorable real life experiences since I finished high school

 

[Deleted member 275]

Nah i do it like once a week tbh. Especially if I'm tired and don't wanna do shit she'll be down to put on the strapon and switch the roles a bit. It's honestly refreshing lol

is she your gf or fwb?
and how did you even get to pegging in the first place lol. You or she suggested it?

tbh i dont know if I am even into pegging, no clue. But I am tired of always having to be the leader in every sexual context ngl.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

maybe focus on getting a hobby and a bit of social life first. Career/studies are very hard, and you will have to rely more on discipline than motivation more often than not

I never had a hobby and I don't like socializing. I don't think having a job or a study is hard, I always just lose motivation for whatever reason. Like you say I think it's more of a discipline issue because the longest I studied was when I studied law and I studied for 6 months.

 

[Deleted member 275]

It's funny that in my dreams I am often times still a little kid, about a head shorter than everyone else. Because most of my life experiences happened when I was a kid. Since about 6 years I'm very rarely meeting new people, almost no memorable real life experiences since I finished high school

Similar here. I experience a lot of life experiences in recent years, lots of dates, sex, social interactions, etc. But I feel like they have any value/weight to them. Little to no emotional response. It's like it didn't even happen, instead I have the interactions in my childhood that do have lingering emotional/feelings.

 

[Introvertednarc]

Do you live at home with your parents then? You know you can't keep them fooled forever, sooner or later they will start asking the right questions and will realize you're not going to med school. If you can find an alternative then stick to that and then tell your parents about it when you're either halfway through or about to be done so they will not have a problem with you not going to med school anymore. But yeah if you are not some kind of entrepreneur then all you will be doing is wageslaving like the majority of people.

I agree with you, and it is a good advice that can apply to pretty much anyone. But however as for me, I don't have a career, a study, a hobby or a social life. I honestly don't know what to study at the moment. Like @Acupofcoffee, I just don't have a clue, my motivation always leaves me after some time.

The fact that you’re still alive is an achievement in itself. What keeps you going ? Your hatred towards those who mocked and bullied you, your faith in your religion? Or is it something else ?

 

[Deleted member 275]

I never had a hobby and I don't like socializing. I don't think having a job or a study is hard, I always just lose motivation for whatever reason. Like you say I think it's more of a discipline issue because the longest I studied was when I studied law and I studied for 6 months.

never had a hobby?

what about playing videogames?
watching movies?
making/eating good food?

those are already 'hobbies'. it's a start.

I think it's very hard to find motivation to work/study when you have little to nothing enjoyable in your life. It should be your first focus.

 

[Deleted member 14323]

Life > Women

 

[CupOfCoffee]

is she your gf or fwb?
and how did you even get to pegging in the first place lol. You or she suggested it?

tbh i dont know if I am even into pegging, no clue. But I am tired of always having to be the leader in every sexual context ngl.

My gf. Same, I usually like to be in control but it's nice to have an alternative if she's not in the mood or her pussy's sore etc. And every time she does it she gets very very wet and we usually fuck after lol.

I gave hints that I want it and she started fingering me on occasion and then a couple months ago we were at a sex shop and bought a strapon and dildo. We both like doing it tbh

 

[Deleted member 756]

Life > Women

cope
Sex is life

 

[Deleted member 14323]

cope
Sex is life

Maybe

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

The fact that you’re still alive is an achievement in itself. What keeps you going ? Your hatred towards those who mocked and bullied you, your faith in your religion? Or is it something else ?

This is actually very true, I do think this from time to time. I used to go on SS and I was like "really? You're wanting to commit suicide for that?", like their lives are infinitely better than mine and still wished to be dead. I can't wrap my head around that.

And I was never really bullied or mocked in real life, so I don't have a hatred towards anyone. A big reason why I haven't offed myself is indeed because of religious reasons. But also because of my family. And this may sound weird but also music, because I keep looking forward to new releases by artists I enjoy listening to.

 

[Deleted member 756]

Maybe

elab

 

[Deleted member 14323]

elab

I dunno bro I’ve never had sex. Maybe, maybe not.
I just feel like if you’re wageslaving or you’re in school your life is most likely shit unless it’s fun to you.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

never had a hobby?

what about playing videogames?
watching movies?
making/eating good food?

those are already 'hobbies'. it's a start.

I think it's very hard to find motivation to work/study when you have little to nothing enjoyable in your life. It should be your first focus.

I don't really play vidya, last time I played a game was last year I think. I rarely play videogames. I didn't know watching movies is considered a hobby, I used to watch two or three movies a day so I guess I can say watching movies/TV shows is a hobby ,,. and you are right, you need something enjoyable in your life to find the motivation to study or work . in fact i would say you need something enjoyable in your life to wanna live .

 

[Deleted member 275]

My gf. Same, I usually like to be in control but it's nice to have an alternative if she's not in the mood or her pussy's sore etc. And every time she does it she gets very very wet and we usually fuck after lol.

I gave hints that I want it and she started fingering me on occasion and then a couple months ago we were at a sex shop and bought a strapon and dildo. We both like doing it tbh

sounds nice. I can hope I can get here aswell at some point tbh.

at this point I am still struggling with not being dominant enough. She rejects me sometimes cuz she's not in the mood, but I feel like I just need to force/rape her at those occasions ngl. cuz it fucking sucks.

legit dont even have morning sex rn cuz she says 'theres no time' which is fucking cope.

In the end I guess I need to looksmax more and have side-chicks so I don't have to rely on her.

 

[sub6manletnozygos]

Brutal, I'm a 25 year old khhv. If your brain hasn't been fixed despite all the experience you have now then is no hope for someone like me. They say that your brain doesn't finish developing until you're 25.

Legit. I am also a 25 khhcv. Its not too bad ngl tbh.
Although I do live in my mothers basement and have few marketable skills or friends, I spend my day reading, lifting, play guitar, pacing up and down the house drinking milk eating raw eggs and intermittently lifting over 8 hours. I am pretty comfy with this life and am eternally grateful to my lovely mother for letting me LDAR in her house.
I am also an unvaxxed retard in my final year at university but cant finish my degree given the vaxx mandate jfl.
Oh well.

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

Legit. I am also a 25 khhcv. Its not too bad ngl tbh.
Although I do live in my mothers basement and have few marketable skills or friends, I spend my day reading, lifting, play guitar, pacing up and down the house drinking milk eating raw eggs and intermittently lifting over 8 hours. I am pretty comfy with this life and am eternally grateful to my lovely mother for letting me LDAR in her house.

It's good that you have things to do that keep you busy, I'm think that's nice. Compared to me you live a nice life in the sense that it isn't as boring as mine is. Also mirin the fact you got talents like playing guitar, I got zero talents. It's over.