OCD fucked up my highschool years

[KuniLowda]

I despise when people make fun of OCD and treat it as some sort of joker condition-'I want my room tidy and everything in place i'm so OCD' when in reality it is a fucking nightmare mental health condition that has terrorised me. My mind being bombarded by negative intrusive thoughts especially in public and when having a conversation with classmates and even foids at times would force me to carry out compulsions like aggressively shaking my head to 'get the image out', rolling my eyeballs for a good few seconds-unfortunately very noticable as well. It got so bad in school that people/teachers would notice and walk up to me asking if I was okay and not crazy. Even a foid came up to me saying I probably have OCD and should get help. Deadass I felt so ND and isolated.

If u had a similar situation then tell me about it I don't wanna be the only one who has experienced this.

 

[Bryce]

If u had a similar situation then tell me about it I don't wanna be the only one who has experienced this.

I have paranoid schizophrenia and literally cannot go out in public. I used to think, for example, a cashier at a gas station was secretly reaching for their gun, when in reality they were handing me back my change. I used to think every news station was talking about me and how they "knew" about me. I would hear people tell me certain foods or drinks were poisoned, packages at my doorstop were bombs or sting operations, and that they'd leave me alone if I just walked into the street or something

There's always someone who has it off worse

 

[KuniLowda]

I have paranoid schizophrenia and literally cannot go out in public. I used to think, for example, a cashier at a gas station was secretly reaching for their gun, when in reality they were handing me back my change. I used to think every news station was talking about me and how they "knew" about me. I would hear people tell me certain foods or drinks were poisoned, packages at my doorstop were bombs or sting operations, and that they'd leave me alone if I just walked into the street or something

There's always someone who has it off worse

damn I feel u bro

 

[Down]

I despise when people make fun of OCD and treat it as some sort of joker condition-'I want my room tidy and everything in place i'm so OCD' when in reality it is a fucking nightmare mental health condition that has terrorised me. My mind being bombarded by negative intrusive thoughts especially in public and when having a conversation with classmates and even foids at times would force me to carry out compulsions like aggressively shaking my head to 'get the image out', rolling my eyeballs for a good few seconds-unfortunately very noticable as well. It got so bad in school that people/teachers would notice and walk up to me asking if I was okay and not crazy. Even a foid came up to me saying I probably have OCD and should get help. Deadass I felt so ND and isolated.

If u had a similar situation then tell me about it I don't wanna be the only one who has experienced this.

Felt. Affected every minute by rolling my eyes aggresively, opening mouth wide, pressing lips down to mimic a closed mouth smile - it either must be done until it feels right (the tension is temporarily gone) and sometimes symmetrically, for instance doing a pumping motion at the neck/trap area, like some bodybuilders pumping their chest up and down, this is done while doing it in the arm joints and teeth/jaw. Making goofy sounds also affect me, atleast I don't scream weird words. My life revolves around masking it