Dorogi
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Ive been trying to better myself for over a year so i could have a life worth living for but the more i try the harder everything becomes, first i got fired from my job, than after a year i started being less consistent with the gym and i have already switched 3 schools from 2024 to 2025 and my academics are pretty much unrecoverable (went from vwo to mbo1) and my attendence got me in trouble with the law a couple of times. Ive tried to rope twice because i knew it wouldnt get better but was to much of a pus to get smth lethal so i failed.
i know that even if i achieve something i cant hold it for a long time because im too ND to fit into society and my best option is really just commiting suicide because i feel miserable all the time anyway and it only keeps getting worse, i havent brushed my teeth in like a week i skipped gym again today and i bedrotted all day which i know is fucking loser behaviour but longest i last at living normally is a few weeks untill i fall back into the same pattern.
If anyone has had something like this please give advice on how i get out of it as long ad it isnt the usual "man up" i get from parents and government workers because i tried to man up and that didnt fucking work
i know that even if i achieve something i cant hold it for a long time because im too ND to fit into society and my best option is really just commiting suicide because i feel miserable all the time anyway and it only keeps getting worse, i havent brushed my teeth in like a week i skipped gym again today and i bedrotted all day which i know is fucking loser behaviour but longest i last at living normally is a few weeks untill i fall back into the same pattern.
If anyone has had something like this please give advice on how i get out of it as long ad it isnt the usual "man up" i get from parents and government workers because i tried to man up and that didnt fucking work

