Once I turn 30 and realize the depth of my fall and failiure

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I will surely rope if not even ER. I can feel a mental fog obscuring the depth of my subhumanity and failiure as a man. I can from time to time peer through and what I behold literaly chills me to the bone and fills me with the profoundest dread and fear. It makes my blood run cold. Moments of isolation will do that. A fasting retreat would make me go mad from despair most likely.
 
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you only have 5000 posts since 2023 it can't be that bad
 
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nearing wizard status. brutal
 
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you only have 5000 posts since 2023 it can't be that bad
It is bad trust me. And worse that you can imagine. I have wallowed in self pitty many times here and have grown tired of repeating the same shit over and over. But trust me, it is so over that it puts the vast majority of users here to shame.
 
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It is bad trust me. And worse that you can imagine. I have wallowed in self pitty many times here and have grown tired of repeating the same shit over and over. But trust me, it is so over that it puts the vast majority of users here to shame.
well, what's your stats?
 
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how old are you dawg
 
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well, what's your stats?
I am a 5'10 165-170 29 yo skinny fat ltn Serb that is ND and broke. I have lost 9 teeth so far from chronic overnight mouthbreathing (wich caused me to be recessed) and poor oral hygene due to depression, KHHV. My brothers are all also incel, even tho the youngest one is htn, but he is autistic. That causes me immense pain to watch them like that, they are even more ND than me and have nothing in life, no friends or gf.
 
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It is bad trust me. And worse that you can imagine. I have wallowed in self pitty many times here and have grown tired of repeating the same shit over and over. But trust me, it is so over that it puts the vast majority of users here to shame.
It's time to lock in and make something of yourself

Not time to rope. I have hope for you, you know what you are, you know what you've done.
 
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It's time to lock in and make something of yourself

Not time to rope. I have hope for you, you know what you are, you know what you've done.
You don't know me bhai. I have wasted my entire life and lost everything. If I got my shit together at 16 and looksmaxed and saved my teeth perhaps I could have been somewhat normal. At 29 and no skill (save for being a manual laborer and tradesmans helper) it is over. I mean I could get a decent job if I saved money for some certs, but even that is very hard. In my life I have never achieved anything I put my mind to. @_MVP_ is right and I finally understand him, everything is impossible.
 
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I am a 5'10 165-170 29 yo skinny fat ltn Serb that is ND and broke. I have lost 9 teeth so far from chronic overnight mouthbreathing (wich caused me to be recessed) and poor oral hygene due to depression, KHHV. My brothers are all also incel, even tho the youngest one is htn, but he is autistic. That causes me immense pain to watch them like that, they are even more ND than me and have nothing in life, no friends or gf.
well it doesnt sound that bad, you mostly talk about your brothers.
do you have a job or something or do you know how to improve your life?
 
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I am a 5'10 165-170 29 yo skinny fat ltn Serb that is ND and broke. I have lost 9 teeth so far from chronic overnight mouthbreathing (wich caused me to be recessed) and poor oral hygene due to depression, KHHV. My brothers are all also incel, even tho the youngest one is htn, but he is autistic. That causes me immense pain to watch them like that, they are even more ND than me and have nothing in life, no friends or gf.
Damn man, sucks to hear that, yeah yo life fucked up, Easy for me to say it's never over until you decide as I am 16, Ion even know what to say other than stack yo money, get yo financial stop running, fucking work at maccies, whatever you can do to fucking pull some money(don't turn no gay tho)

Find yoself a place to live as I believe you kinda seem like you live with yo parents, fucking idk, become a workaholic and pull shit together, Make money, and use it on whatever the fuck you want, hard to carve a good life at 29, Get surgeries, buy cars, fuck broads, whatever

At yo age motherfucker you could be doing steroids, do that shit bruv, run some trt, actually recommended I think

Idk if Yo ass lying bout all this, hard to imagine someone end up like this, Makes me fear what I'll be doing in life, as I am a weird loner that looks okay-ish Ig, but I don't know how to socialise with people and I don't seem to have any pull toward any carreer

Anyways, take care man, I really hope you'll get better
 
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Im sorry bro :(
 
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im 26 but if i didnt change my life drastically in the next year i honestly dont have idea what im going to do im tired of working dead ass low paid entry level jobs while people my age have kids and are married . Since we live in the same region only we know how fucked we are.
 
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well it doesnt sound that bad, you mostly talk about your brothers.
do you have a job or something or do you know how to improve your life?
I have been a manual laborer, factory worker, logger and half a plumber in my life. I do odd jobs around the village atm, like working in the fields hoeing corn or cutting grass, even tho I iq mog all these stupid villagers most brutally. Yet I am the stupid one in the end. If I got my rope access training and cert I could make decent money here. But I need like a 1000 euros to do that and saving that in these conditions is impossible almost. Only I work and mom, the retards don'r earn anything. So I can not save money. Yet my familly wasted 30000 euro inheritance two years ago, on what i dont fucking know. A car, a drivers liscense, new windows, stairs, some tools and furniture. If I knew about that line of work then I would have done it by now.
 
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you ain't responding to no tags :fuk:
 
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Damn man, sucks to hear that, yeah yo life fucked up, Easy for me to say it's never over until you decide as I am 16, Ion even know what to say other than stack yo money, get yo financial stop running, fucking work at maccies, whatever you can do to fucking pull some money(don't turn no gay tho)

Find yoself a place to live as I believe you kinda seem like you live with yo parents, fucking idk, become a workaholic and pull shit together, Make money, and use it on whatever the fuck you want, hard to carve a good life at 29, Get surgeries, buy cars, fuck broads, whatever

At yo age motherfucker you could be doing steroids, do that shit bruv, run some trt, actually recommended I think

Idk if Yo ass lying bout all this, hard to imagine someone end up like this, Makes me fear what I'll be doing in life, as I am a weird loner that looks okay-ish Ig, but I don't know how to socialise with people and I don't seem to have any pull toward any carreer

Anyways, take care man, I really hope you'll get better
Just do shit that people your age do. Be a sheep, straight up. That is a 1000 times better than being a ND freak that "does his own thing". At the age they are getting a drivers permit, get one, they are working work too, they have gfs try your best to get one. I never cared about what anyone thought and thought I was doing my own thing yet life passed me by.
 
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I have been a manual laborer, factory worker, logger and half a plumber in my life. I do odd jobs around the village atm, like working in the fields hoeing corn or cutting grass, even tho I iq mog all these stupid villagers most brutally. Yet I am the stupid one in the end. If I got my rope access training and cert I could make decent money here. But I need like a 1000 euros to do that and saving that in these conditions is impossible almost. Only I work and mom, the retards don'r earn anything. So I can not save money. Yet my familly wasted 30000 euro inheritance two years ago, on what i dont fucking know. A car, a drivers liscense, new windows, stairs, some tools and furniture. If I knew about that line of work then I would have done it by now.

use the car to do Uber to make money for the cert
Drive to big city and sleep in your car if you need to ig
 
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In all honesty the fact you’re even thinking about it makes you self aware enough.

When you reach 30 it won’t make a dent in how you think due to you already having that mindset, I guess it’ll be “more powerful” since it’ll actually set once it becomes official.

But other than that you’ll think about 35 like you’re thinking about 30 now and so on..

I wish you luck man
 
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use the car to do Uber to make money for the cert
Drive to big city and sleep in your car if you need to ig
My car was a Lada Niva that cost the price of a decent car and was a worthless russian piece of shit. I bought it to go to forest and search for truffles, that was a fail. Now it is scrapped. Money wasted 3000 euros.
 
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Just do shit that people your age do. Be a sheep, straight up. That is a 1000 times better than being a ND freak that "does his own thing". At the age they are getting a drivers permit, get one, they are working work too, they have gfs try your best to get one. I never cared about what anyone thought and thought I was doing my own thing yet life passed me by.

Tbh life still passes you by. Whether it’s non-NT or an LTN face or being poor or some combination of all, your social circle will be gone by the end of high school and it’s pretty much over from then onwards.

Life is for the normies. Truly living is for the HTN+. We just exist and survive.

My car was a Lada Niva that cost the price of a decent car and was a worthless russian piece of shit. I bought it to go to forest and search for truffles, that was a fail. Now it is scrapped. Money wasted 3000 euros.

Maybe you can do deliveroo or something on a bike then. But I guess no one can afford that where you are.
 
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My car was a Lada Niva that cost the price of a decent car and was a worthless russian piece of shit. I bought it to go to forest and search for truffles, that was a fail. Now it is scrapped. Money wasted 3000 euros.
Delivery boy for a restaurant
 
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Tbh life still passes you by. Whether it’s non-NT or an LTN face or being poor or some combination of all, your social circle will be gone by the end of high school and it’s pretty much over from then onwards.

Life is for the normies. Truly living is for the HTN+. We just exist and survive.



Maybe you can do deliveroo or something on a bike then. But I guess no one can afford that where you are.
That is a bad way to look at life imo, I know looks matter, I'd consider myself Okay looking, js check my first or second post, Haven't posted much so it's easy to find, I believe life is what you make and think of it
 
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work for a city nearby you, commute
I have changed like 30 jobs in my life by now. I can't stick to a place. Idk need to figure something out to get the training I need.
 
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you can try to relocate to Germany there are a lot of serbian communities there i think about moving there i lived there was year i know its probably a dumb idea but i think i might try it girls here hate me and bad memories haunt me wherever i go
 
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I have changed like 30 jobs in my life by now. I can't stick to a place. Idk need to figure something out to get the training I need.
Doesn't matter man, you need to do something for money, Change 10 more jobs, just get that money and ball

Also, I believe that everything we talk about here will pass in one ear and out on the other one, I really hope you will improve your situation man, I haven't seen much of this forum and neither wish to see, as I'll get brain damage, But I hope You'll have a better life and see happiness, even though you may have it and just are in a rut, where everything is easy to be seen as over
 
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You don't know me bhai. I have wasted my entire life and lost everything. If I got my shit together at 16 and looksmaxed and saved my teeth perhaps I could have been somewhat normal. At 29 and no skill (save for being a manual laborer and tradesmans helper) it is over. I mean I could get a decent job if I saved money for some certs, but even that is very hard. In my life I have never achieved anything I put my mind to. @_MVP_ is right and I finally understand him, everything is impossible.
Bitch nigga
 
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Unmount the enourmous bbc dildo off your yamaha r1 and start testing my cock. It will be a delicious ride. "Idk if Yo ass lying bout all this"
 
Damn man, sucks to hear that, yeah yo life fucked up, Easy for me to say it's never over until you decide as I am 16, Ion even know what to say other than stack yo money, get yo financial stop running, fucking work at maccies, whatever you can do to fucking pull some money(don't turn no gay tho)

Find yoself a place to live as I believe you kinda seem like you live with yo parents, fucking idk, become a workaholic and pull shit together, Make money, and use it on whatever the fuck you want, hard to carve a good life at 29, Get surgeries, buy cars, fuck broads, whatever

At yo age motherfucker you could be doing steroids, do that shit bruv, run some trt, actually recommended I think

Idk if Yo ass lying bout all this, hard to imagine someone end up like this, Makes me fear what I'll be doing in life, as I am a weird loner that looks okay-ish Ig, but I don't know how to socialise with people and I don't seem to have any pull toward any carreer

Anyways, take care man, I really hope you'll get better
He’s literally just a steroid cycle away from slaying a few broads and find out it isn’t all that, if all his misery is caused by being incel then he needs to start roiding ASAP

Im in the same situation as you but tbh, a weird loner who’s bad socially and without any career prospects, my future looks bleak and shit
 
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