One month into my first Tren cycle at 17. (wrote this a while ago, forgot to post)

[jflkiefmaxxing]

Mental Side Effects (the fun part).

Incidents. (All within the past 2 weeks.)
Got mad at my father for taking away my cigarettes, punched my fridge which is made of steel, broke my hand, refused medical attention out of spite, now i have a broken hand and at this point ive fucked up my relationship with my parents so much they refuse to take me to a hospital, I did make an admirable dent in the steel however.
Decided me having my passport was the most important thing in the world, yelled at my dad to give it to me, when he refused and locked his door I kicked it open, he called the cops, I called the cop a nigger, he arrested me for DV.
Parents took away my wifi, and my knives, I try to kill myself by jabbing needles into my arterys and hoping my blood would spray from the needles and bleed me to death, the gauge of the needles was too small, blood slowly dripped instead of gushed, now my arm hurts and theres a pathetic puddle of blood on the carpet.
Parents took away my second pack of cigarettes, i bang my head into the concrete wall, head is bleeding, parents ignore me, i calm down somehow, go to my room, jerk off, play stalker 2.
Sitting in my room, havent slept in 48 hours, missing my girlfriend very much, not allowed out of the house, cant text because they turned off my wifi and cancelled my data plan, elbow my drywall a couple times, accidently hiy a rusty screw behind the wall, have an infection, now i am on antibiotics.
Kicked my cat (I dont know why I did this I felt very bad and gave it treats after)
Stalker 2 crashed, broke my monitor.
Constant arguing with parents.
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bro u tried to kill urself seek some help

 

[kyre]

Melatonin is dogshit for insomnia can confirm. Z drugs are the only thing that will cure it.

which one would you recommend

 

[Whirr22222]

which one would you recommend

Any of them, Zolpidem, zopiclone, and zaleplon. They will all fuck u up bad long term tho sadly.