chaddyboi66
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Jfl that's why I joined this forum in the first place and tried looksmaxing because Oneitis pill has completely destroyed what was left of my utterly pathetic excuse for a life now.
All because of a girl, the one I love, because I cared about Her too much to try and ascend with another and constantly held on to the false hope that one day I'll be able to see Her again and make things right.
All the while my body, my spirit, my social skills/anxiety, my sanity, and yes even my looks all degraded while I was out here losing sleep over someone that probably forgot about me a long time ago...
Yet there I am still dreaming of Her every night only to wake up to an empty bed, room, and heart/life every fucking morning.
Jfl @how cucked and stupid of an idea thatwas is.
Jfl God I hate myself for just how incompetent, cowardly, and pathetic I am.
Sometime I wish I was brave enough to actually rope and catch the bus tbh, but I'm too much of a pussy and scared because I want to live and be able to love Her again.
All because of a girl, the one I love, because I cared about Her too much to try and ascend with another and constantly held on to the false hope that one day I'll be able to see Her again and make things right.
All the while my body, my spirit, my social skills/anxiety, my sanity, and yes even my looks all degraded while I was out here losing sleep over someone that probably forgot about me a long time ago...
Yet there I am still dreaming of Her every night only to wake up to an empty bed, room, and heart/life every fucking morning.
Jfl @how cucked and stupid of an idea that
Jfl God I hate myself for just how incompetent, cowardly, and pathetic I am.
Sometime I wish I was brave enough to actually rope and catch the bus tbh, but I'm too much of a pussy and scared because I want to live and be able to love Her again.