Oscillating Autism

[RoyaleWithCheese]

Does anyone else have days where they have good social skills, could basically pass for NT, no issues approaching people etc…

And then also have some days where you feel like not talking to anyone at all and you feel like you couldn’t if you tried?

 

[PROMETHEUS]

Everyday I feel like this

I’ve noticed it’s 100% based on lifestyle factors

For example, let’s imagine my ideal day:

• Woke up on 8-10hrs of sleep (No cognitive impairments from sleep deficits)
• Small 500 calorie breakfast consisting mainly of complex carbs (Energy + No morning surge of cortisol due to hunger or lack of carbs)
• 20 Min+ of cardio (Optimised brain due to delivery of blood flow, oxygen and nutrients to brain cells)
• Social interaction (Sense of belonging. (Gay, I know))
• Clean balanced nutrition for the rest of the day (No spikes in blood sugars or inflammations from junk food + getting required nutrients from foods)
• Some form of relaxation like stretching or warm shower before bed (Improves sleep)
• Supplements: Omega 3, NAC, Vit D, Multi-vits (Brain optimisation)
• Another 8-10hrs of sleep for the next day (No cognitive impairments from sleep deficits)

If I do this positive routine from Monday to Wednesday, I can guarantee with very high certainty that I will be fully NT on Thursday.
I will find genuine pleasure in pro-social behaviours. Little things like greeting people in the elevator or starting conversations at the gym.

On top of the desire to be social, my conversation will also flow so smoothly to the point that a person I meet for the first time would be convinced that I’m an extrovert.

However, if I fall off track with nutrition or sleep, or being hungover, for even just for one day, it’s not just that I no longer derive any interest or pleasure in pro-social behaviours, but the thoughts that run through my mind about myself and others become very negative.

The hypothetical guy I was enjoying speaking to at the gym just yesterday now becomes suspicious. I’ll even pretend not to see him today to avoid a conversation.

“That fucking loser, always in the gym everyday, like does he not have a job or something? He doesn’t even look like he lifts, the fucking prick”

My brain in this state will find it harder to carry conversations since what I need to say doesn’t automatically pop up into my mind like it does on positive days. I need to manually think of what to say, which makes the convos jerky and autistic.

I’m also very well aware of how bi-polar this fluctuation in behaviour comes across to the people I regularly interact with since it seems like I’m two different people simply based on how I feel that day.

In recent months, I’ve gotten better at mitigating these fluctuations since it’s not everyday that I will be able to maintain a perfect lifestyle to be fully NT.

So little things like making sure that I always greet the same regulars daily with the same level of friendliness regardless of what my mood is like that day, and also being aware that the thoughts that run through my head when I feel negative are solely based on my bad mood and not genuine thoughts.

What’s your experience been like? @RoyaleWithCheese

 

[RoyaleWithCheese]

Everyday I feel like this

I’ve noticed it’s 100% based on lifestyle factors

For example, let’s imagine my ideal day:

• Woke up on 8-10hrs of sleep (No cognitive impairments from sleep deficits)
• Small 500 calorie breakfast consisting mainly of complex carbs (Energy + No morning surge of cortisol due to hunger or lack of carbs)
• 20 Min+ of cardio (Optimised brain due to delivery of blood flow, oxygen and nutrients to brain cells)
• Social interaction (Sense of belonging. (Gay, I know))
• Clean balanced nutrition for the rest of the day (No spikes in blood sugars or inflammations from junk food + getting required nutrients from foods)
• Some form of relaxation like stretching or warm shower before bed (Improves sleep)
• Supplements: Omega 3, NAC, Vit D, Multi-vits (Brain optimisation)
• Another 8-10hrs of sleep for the next day (No cognitive impairments from sleep deficits)

If I do this positive routine from Monday to Wednesday, I can guarantee with very high certainty that I will be fully NT on Thursday.
I will find genuine pleasure in pro-social behaviours. Little things like greeting people in the elevator or starting conversations at the gym.

On top of the desire to be social, my conversation will also flow so smoothly to the point that a person I meet for the first time would be convinced that I’m an extrovert.

However, if I fall off track with nutrition or sleep, or being hungover, for even just for one day, it’s not just that I no longer derive any interest or pleasure in pro-social behaviours, but the thoughts that run through my mind about myself and others become very negative.

The hypothetical guy I was enjoying speaking to at the gym just yesterday now becomes suspicious. I’ll even pretend not to see him today to avoid a conversation.

“That fucking loser, always in the gym everyday, like does he not have a job or something? He doesn’t even look like he lifts, the fucking prick”

My brain in this state will find it harder to carry conversations since what I need to say doesn’t automatically pop up into my mind like it does on positive days. I need to manually think of what to say, which makes the convos jerky and autistic.

I’m also very well aware of how bi-polar this fluctuation in behaviour comes across to the people I regularly interact with since it seems like I’m two different people simply based on how I feel that day.

In recent months, I’ve gotten better at mitigating these fluctuations since it’s not everyday that I will be able to maintain a perfect lifestyle to be fully NT.

So little things like making sure that I always greet the same regulars daily with the same level of friendliness regardless of what my mood is like that day, and also being aware that the thoughts that run through my head when I feel negative are solely based on my bad mood and not genuine thoughts.

What’s your experience been like? @RoyaleWithCheese

High IQ analysis. Pretty similar to you, maybe a little bit less extreme. I think it likely has something to do with depression. Since following a naturally antidepressant lifestyle seems to make you NT.

 

[PROMETHEUS]

High IQ analysis. Pretty similar to you, maybe a little bit less extreme. I think it likely has something to do with depression. Since following a naturally antidepressant lifestyle seems to make you NT.

Yes, this behaviour definitely has strong depressive elements.

Although, I think it’s more likely to be bipolar since bipolar is an oscillation between depression and highly elevated moods (which I feel on days that I’m on top of the world)

I’ve always considered this possibility but never accepted it until a few hours ago when I wrote and read back the summary above, which now makes it glaringly obvious to me that it’s definitely bipolar.

Luckily, this means that I’ll see significant NT/mental health progress over the next few weeks since there are some lifestyle factors like caffeine, porn & alcohol that a NT person can handle that I definitely need to cut out for mood stabilisation.

 

[marek937]

yeah if i wouldnt take drugs i would be non nt asf

 

[BWC_virgin]

Yeah some days I’m normal and some days I don’t talk to anyone cuz I’m tired and don’t care, I just feel like I hav nothing to say so I’m just quiet, I don’t feel the need for social interaction tho I just chill. Other days I’m very social tho but sometimes I feel like I have to force it, usually oscillaties over weeks I guess, I don’t feel like talking to anyone rn but maybe it’s cuz I’m cutting and I have little energy.