ja37viggenlover
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I went into the mental hospital for psychosis "on the belief that" my ex humiliationship (where I was basically a cuck for 3 months) set me up for drug charges (her ass 100% did) and now I'm out and although I dodged a felony from running from the cops (his ass followed me 17 miles across 2 different counties before he tried pulling me over and I thought the motherfucker was an ICE agent) I'm just disillusioned to this world because I can't believe that somebody would actually go all that way to do all that bullshit, like why??? what's the point??? just because I didn't wanna get lovebombed??? this world wants to call me paranoid but fuck no, I know what I perceived and what I didn't and I know good and damn well that everything I perceive is true, either I'm misinformed about it or I believe one thing or the other about it. This life feels so pointless now, but even killing myself is pointless because I can't even remember what happened to me that fully caused my psychotic break, all I know is that now I notice everyone else in their own little world, but I hate the fact that I notice others because then I feel guilty about judging others when I too am just as shit a human being in the eyes of God, so why would I be hypocritical about other people? Maybe my problem is that I try to look at this shitty ass world through the eyes of God when I should be looking at it in a way that gives me an advantage, since it's very easy to point out other peoples flaws and exploit them, but I feel too much of a sense of guilt from doing so. I fucking hate myself and I feel overly pretentious over everything i do
no matter what I do and how I feel I know for a fact I'll never harm anybody seriously, and that's all I care about. I'll never rape nobody because I've heard so many stories about how deeply it affects other people, I'll probably never murder somebody
no matter what I do and how I feel I know for a fact I'll never harm anybody seriously, and that's all I care about. I'll never rape nobody because I've heard so many stories about how deeply it affects other people, I'll probably never murder somebody
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