Over

[itsoverb]

Wanted to come on here to express the being of my life because I know that no where else provides any actual satisfaction or well being to my problems, nor can it relate to them, I have decent improvement but still look like fucking shit. it’s never enough and you will truly never understand until you have went down that rabbit hole of improvement. I genuinely hate the way I feel and look, school doesn’t help either, just makes me more self concious about what others think. I can’t stand to be looked at or peeped at, my severe anxiety and overthinking ruined my fucking life, and it’s every day I walk into school where I feel everyone is glancing at me or girls mocking me without me knowing. The teachers are all full of themselves mostly, but they just don’t show it, and I can’t spend 3 minutes in class even properly feeling comfortable or satisfied. My parents are bipolar and they expect me to hang out with them and the family. I would love to do online school but don’t have the mental capacity or would I even be able to because of my parents. They think they know everything and what it is Iike to really feel this way in life. I can’t even walk around school without seeing someone taller than me, better looking, and jsut overall more charisma then I will ever have. Makes me feel unhuman to a point. I genuinely envy people, not for there looks or features, but for their ability to have self confidence and love themselves like a normal person. sometimes I wonder if they think life the same I do. At the end of the day I jsut feel like a walking bacteria, with acne all over my face, hair messed up, and looking high 24/7. I’ve been asked, and counting, 6 times been asked if I was high during school. genuinely can’t keep up with life or my well being, let alone at home. I’m extremely socially isolated and I don’t do shit at school and am always behind on everything. ADHD just makes it worse. Can’t even stand to look in a mirror without wanting to rip my entire face off, and putting on a new persona. maybe one day things will change, but for now nothing will, only improvement. I refuse to give up but refuse to live my life the way I do now. I hope you all relate to this the way I do and see that life is truly unbearable. giga over

 

[LiteralChud]

Wanted to come on here to express the being of my life because I know that no where else provides any actual satisfaction or well being to my problems, nor can it relate to them, I have decent improvement but still look like fucking shit. it’s never enough and you will truly never understand until you have went down that rabbit hole of improvement. I genuinely hate the way I feel and look, school doesn’t help either, just makes me more self concious about what others think. I can’t stand to be looked at or peeped at, my severe anxiety and overthinking ruined my fucking life, and it’s every day I walk into school where I feel everyone is glancing at me or girls mocking me without me knowing. The teachers are all full of themselves mostly, but they just don’t show it, and I can’t spend 3 minutes in class even properly feeling comfortable or satisfied. My parents are bipolar and they expect me to hang out with them and the family. I would love to do online school but don’t have the mental capacity or would I even be able to because of my parents. They think they know everything and what it is Iike to really feel this way in life. I can’t even walk around school without seeing someone taller than me, better looking, and jsut overall more charisma then I will ever have. Makes me feel unhuman to a point. I genuinely envy people, not for there looks or features, but for their ability to have self confidence and love themselves like a normal person. sometimes I wonder if they think life the same I do. At the end of the day I jsut feel like a walking bacteria, with acne all over my face, hair messed up, and looking high 24/7. I’ve been asked, and counting, 6 times been asked if I was high during school. genuinely can’t keep up with life or my well being, let alone at home. I’m extremely socially isolated and I don’t do shit at school and am always behind on everything. ADHD just makes it worse. Can’t even stand to look in a mirror without wanting to rip my entire face off, and putting on a new persona. maybe one day things will change, but for now nothing will, only improvement. I refuse to give up but refuse to live my life the way I do now. I hope you all relate to this the way I do and see that life is truly unbearable. giga over

DNR but not over.

 

[edelknowsball]

not over