roadtochang123
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My moms getting older each time i see her, shes 52 but looks 60+. Shes been doing all of the housewives work for the past 20 years and her physical is crumbling. Obviously i help her all of the time yet somehow, shes just very prone to old age illness.
Yet when she rants her pain to me i dont feel a single motivation to do anything? I only feel sad when i lock myself inside my room and reminiscent about it. When she said it directly, I was just scrolling on my phone mindlessly, finding a reason to continue this life. Overtime, i feel like i really wanna rope and im whining like a little bitch, but i dont wanna act like this anymore and idk wtf is wrong with me. I wanna repay her but im a fucking low IQ retard. I feel like a useless piece of shit that keeps ranting all of the time and not taking any actions to better my life, and i feel miserable for it. Its like im trapped in a flesh and my mind is somewhere else
Im gonna start buying antidepressants and hope this feeling stops. Im 17 and entering college soon, gonna opt for ME because idk what else to learn and its a very good career.
Has anyone felt the same as me before? My mental health is not okay at all and i dont know what to do with myself (yes im a low T retard)
Yet when she rants her pain to me i dont feel a single motivation to do anything? I only feel sad when i lock myself inside my room and reminiscent about it. When she said it directly, I was just scrolling on my phone mindlessly, finding a reason to continue this life. Overtime, i feel like i really wanna rope and im whining like a little bitch, but i dont wanna act like this anymore and idk wtf is wrong with me. I wanna repay her but im a fucking low IQ retard. I feel like a useless piece of shit that keeps ranting all of the time and not taking any actions to better my life, and i feel miserable for it. Its like im trapped in a flesh and my mind is somewhere else
Im gonna start buying antidepressants and hope this feeling stops. Im 17 and entering college soon, gonna opt for ME because idk what else to learn and its a very good career.
Has anyone felt the same as me before? My mental health is not okay at all and i dont know what to do with myself (yes im a low T retard)
