Part of the reason I became so fixated on looks and my own vanity

[6ft4]

Socializing is fluid and intangible
As an aspie there is never any feeling of security or certainty that you can hold your own when thrown into unfamiliar social environments

A lifetime of being made aware that normies can out outmaneuver you socially simply based on the contrast between your default behaviour and their default behaviour, leaves you feeling like your balance is being reset to zero with every new interaction, while normies are sitting on a mountain of metaphorical social wealth.

Feeling like you are constantly being reset to homeless status going into every social interaction, makes you seek security about your value in something that is fixed and tangible

Regardless of what I think of my own personality traits, I know they can be rendered meaningless in a room of 10 insentient normies
With my looks however, nobody can take that away from me which is why I have placed a large focus on my looks throughout my life
Even if I get mogged socially, in a room of 10 normies I will be the one who unquestionably mogs physically

No matter how much demotivation may be triggered by feeling like I can't relate to people socially, I simply can't look in the mirror and feel physically inadequate even if I feel socially inadequate during periods of feeling defeated

 

[STAMPEDE]

I don’t care about looks

 

[Prøphet]

Exactly

That’s why the autists gravitate here

It’s not like Looksmaxxing makes you ND, it’s that being ND forces you to looksmax if you want to even have a chance

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

 

[Jgns]

Exactly

That’s why the autists gravitate here

It’s not like Looksmaxxing makes you ND, it’s that being ND forces you to looksmax if you want to even have a chance

perfectly said

 

[infini]

It’s admirable how much you’ve persisted through the swamps of non-contributing to downright insufferable no sentience untermensch on this platform to sustain your message.

 

[White_Bwoi]

Resets to 0 with every new setting hits close to home, like our center of gravity is off balance.
Therapist would say it's low-self esteem, but it's more of a certain brain chemistry,
finding good people that like/admire you no matter what helps immensely, but even with that
when I encounter bullies/total normies in new work & stuff I feel like a fucking alien

/cant even imagine functioning if I didn't mogg them to death being a truecel or whatnot

 

[Centurion_Hunter]

Socializing is fluid and intangible
As an aspie there is never any feeling of security or certainty that you can hold your own when thrown into unfamiliar social environments

A lifetime of being made aware that normies can out outmaneuver you socially simply based on the contrast between your default behaviour and their default behaviour, leaves you feeling like your balance is being reset to zero with every new interaction, while normies are sitting on a mountain of metaphorical social wealth.

Feeling like you are constantly being reset to homeless status going into every social interaction, makes you seek security about your value in something that is fixed and tangible

Regardless of what I think of my own personality traits, I know they can be rendered meaningless in a room of 10 insentient normies
With my looks however, nobody can take that away from me which is why I have placed a large focus on my looks throughout my life
Even if I get mogged socially, in a room of 10 normies I will be the one who unquestionably mogs physically

No matter how much demotivation may be triggered by feeling like I can't relate to people socially, I simply can't look in the mirror and feel physically inadequate even if I feel socially inadequate during periods of feeling defeated

NiggER ur 6 4 and complaining

 

[ewri]

tldr : its over if ur nd

 

[6ft4]

It’s admirable how much you’ve persisted through the swamps of non-contributing to downright insufferable no sentience untermensch on this platform to sustain your message.

Everything in this world just gets dragged down to the lowest common denominator
For the hoards, abandoning any kind of standards is the easy option and it's what they do repeatedly when left to their own devices after ousting the sentient ones who found the fertile grounds in the first place, but I can never relate to the hoards so there is no point in trying to partake in their manner of interacting, I will forever be the lone flag bearer if there's no one else to bear the flag

I have 2 thoughts about how my PSL career ends, either I try the be the "beacon of light" in a realm of darkness until the final day when it goes permanently offline for whatever reason



or I just leave one day without telling anyone, no goodbye, no seeya later, just gone

 

[infini]

Everything in this world just gets dragged down to the lowest common denominator
For the hoards, abandoning any kind of standards is the easy option and it's what they do repeatedly when left to their own devices after ousting the sentient ones who found the fertile grounds in the first place, but I can never relate to the hoards so there is no point in trying to partake in their manner of interacting, I will forever be the lone flag bearer if there's no one else to bear the flag

I have 2 thoughts about how my PSL career ends, either I try the be the "beacon of light" in a realm of darkness until the final day when it goes permanently offline for whatever reason



or I just leave one day without telling anyone, no goodbye, no seeya later, just gone

The way you abbreviated yourself as having a PSL career kinda came off as sounding like you’ve been larping it this whole time. But that was a quick inclination thought.

 

[Eltrē]

It’s admirable how much you’ve persisted through the swamps of non-contributing to downright insufferable no sentience untermensch on this platform to sustain your message.

It's rather easy when OP ignores 90% of the replies in all of his threads

 

[FutureExoticChad]

Everything in this world just gets dragged down to the lowest common denominator
For the hoards, abandoning any kind of standards is the easy option and it's what they do repeatedly when left to their own devices after ousting the sentient ones who found the fertile grounds in the first place, but I can never relate to the hoards so there is no point in trying to partake in their manner of interacting, I will forever be the lone flag bearer if there's no one else to bear the flag

I have 2 thoughts about how my PSL career ends, either I try the be the "beacon of light" in a realm of darkness until the final day when it goes permanently offline for whatever reason



or I just leave one day without telling anyone, no goodbye, no seeya later, just gone

I think a 3rd and unexpected ending is possible