
TheLightOfMyLife
im so stupid
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just a brief ramble/thought dump
Sometimes when I'm working jobs for people with no future like at a warehouse or amazon, I hear so many of the managers talking about how "nobody did anything for me, so I look down on you if people help you" or something along those lines, and I realize how badly I have messed up to be surrounded by people like this. My mother is very family oriented, I could probably leech off of her the rest of my life if I wanted to(but I would not because I feel obligated to reciprocate when possible/try to pull my own weight). That's just her nature, and I would think it is my nature too. If I had kids I would probably feel obligated to take care of them no matter what. The thought of how competitive, cutthroat, and downright hateful some people can be towards their own kind freaks me out. Not just because of how harmful that is to a person/how much harder it makes life, but because it prevents a lot of the self actualization one might develop when they actually have people who love and care for them. I fear how things could have ended up for me if not for the people I have who care. I'm grateful I had a family who actually loved me, even if I fucked up a lot and even if things were not optimized/perfect at times.
Sometimes when I'm working jobs for people with no future like at a warehouse or amazon, I hear so many of the managers talking about how "nobody did anything for me, so I look down on you if people help you" or something along those lines, and I realize how badly I have messed up to be surrounded by people like this. My mother is very family oriented, I could probably leech off of her the rest of my life if I wanted to(but I would not because I feel obligated to reciprocate when possible/try to pull my own weight). That's just her nature, and I would think it is my nature too. If I had kids I would probably feel obligated to take care of them no matter what. The thought of how competitive, cutthroat, and downright hateful some people can be towards their own kind freaks me out. Not just because of how harmful that is to a person/how much harder it makes life, but because it prevents a lot of the self actualization one might develop when they actually have people who love and care for them. I fear how things could have ended up for me if not for the people I have who care. I'm grateful I had a family who actually loved me, even if I fucked up a lot and even if things were not optimized/perfect at times.