bp_1
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hello, i keep falling back into a loop of some improvement and a major descension afterwards. i keep losing motivation and i cant stay consistent. is there any help for me? should i post progress here daily or start to consistently journal?
i keep falling sick and have the worst health indicators (bad skin, undereye bags which are more prominent on one eye, jaw assymetry, and not to mention im recessed and short...)
i wouldnt say im neurodivergent since i used to be pretty social before like 3-4 years ago. but i look really ugly now really have difficulty even holding eye contact, it just truly hurts me when someone looks into my eyes i randomly move around to hide it, same with my side, my friend was sitting next to me and i would turn around so he couldnt see my side. my assymetry is truly abnormal in my 3/4ths and it really hurts that i cant make consistent improvements.
i want to stay consistent from now on even if it means major changes. i will stop posting and stop using the internet. i havent seen the sun in weeks too it makes me so depressed.
i keep falling sick and have the worst health indicators (bad skin, undereye bags which are more prominent on one eye, jaw assymetry, and not to mention im recessed and short...)
i wouldnt say im neurodivergent since i used to be pretty social before like 3-4 years ago. but i look really ugly now really have difficulty even holding eye contact, it just truly hurts me when someone looks into my eyes i randomly move around to hide it, same with my side, my friend was sitting next to me and i would turn around so he couldnt see my side. my assymetry is truly abnormal in my 3/4ths and it really hurts that i cant make consistent improvements.
i want to stay consistent from now on even if it means major changes. i will stop posting and stop using the internet. i havent seen the sun in weeks too it makes me so depressed.
