
alien
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I'm not sure when I started watching BBC porn. I know it was at least since summer 2007. When I was 22. Probably before then actually. When I would watch big dicked black guys (especially if they were muscular, ripped and masc) fuck attractive white women, my heart would be beating out of my chest, my cock would get hard and I would jack off. I know when I was 22, I fantasized about watching my future wife and future daughters having sex with black men. Then it got to the point where I fantasized about being the white woman in the video. And I started catfishing as a woman on dating sites and sexting with black guys while masturbating. And eventually I started looking at videos of Asian women and Indian women having sex with black men too. Probably because I see the black man as defiling the higher races and getting off on that.
But when I see a jacked black guy in my gym, I feel no sexual attraction to him. My gay friend took me to a male strip club. And I had no desire to go to the back with the black male strippers.
So it's almost like the entire eroticism of the black man is just driven by pornography. Outside of the context of pornography, when I look at black guys in real life, I don't have the desires for them that I do women. Like when I see a thicc Asian woman squatting or doing RDLs at the gym, I'm like hnnnnngggg, its hard for me to take my eyes off her. But I don't have this uncontrollable desire to look at black guys in my gym.
Maybe I'm just a cuck.
It's so weird how I have these fantasies when I'm watching porn or masturbating. But in real life at the gym, I only have desires for women. No desire for the black guys in my gym.
Porn is like fucking poison. But if you have trouble getting laid, like most guys on this forum, what else can you really do but jack off or seeing a hooker?
But when I see a jacked black guy in my gym, I feel no sexual attraction to him. My gay friend took me to a male strip club. And I had no desire to go to the back with the black male strippers.
So it's almost like the entire eroticism of the black man is just driven by pornography. Outside of the context of pornography, when I look at black guys in real life, I don't have the desires for them that I do women. Like when I see a thicc Asian woman squatting or doing RDLs at the gym, I'm like hnnnnngggg, its hard for me to take my eyes off her. But I don't have this uncontrollable desire to look at black guys in my gym.
Maybe I'm just a cuck.
It's so weird how I have these fantasies when I'm watching porn or masturbating. But in real life at the gym, I only have desires for women. No desire for the black guys in my gym.
Porn is like fucking poison. But if you have trouble getting laid, like most guys on this forum, what else can you really do but jack off or seeing a hooker?