Potential eating disorder

[catastropy]

Why do i feel like fucking shit after eating it makes me feel like im gonna gain fat after one meal and become a subhuman i cant help it even when people have told me its not real i was 5’11 and 65kg and i was a literal subhuman then cus of a disease i became 59kg and now im 55kg and i literally dont eat much anymore im so scared to be a fucking subhuman i like having the nice angularity ive gotten at the moment but im really weak now and lost muscle mind you im still developing how do i not feel like fucking shit after eating smth this causes me to stop eating also how i stay low body fat % and gain muscle and strength
Mind you im still developing

 

[ecstazy]

Why do i feel like fucking shit after eating it makes me feel like im gonna gain fat after one meal and become a subhuman i cant help it even when people have told me its not real i was 5’11 and 65kg and i was a literal subhuman then cus of a disease i became 59kg and now im 55kg and i literally dont eat much anymore im so scared to be a fucking subhuman i like having the nice angularity ive gotten at the moment but im really weak now and lost muscle mind you im still developing how do i not feel like fucking shit after eating smth this causes me to stop eating also how i stay low body fat % and gain muscle and strength
Mind you im still developing

I’m in the same situation please do not go down this path you will stunt your growth, if you want to maintain low body fat while still gaining muscle prioritise protein intake, lifting and doing cardio in moderation.