Pre Ascension Flashbacks

[RealNinja]

I saw a TikTok of some teenagers playing around in class, having fun and laughing, and out of nowhere, years of memories hit me. The familiar feeling of alienation came back in the pit of my stomach. Again I felt like the fat ugly fuck who was never part of the group, always on the outside looking in, since 1st grade or earlier.

Now I’m in college, and those same people from my hometown ask me for gym advice or say “Bro you look like the gigachad meme!1” when they meet me again. It’s hard not to feel bitter.

If you live this experience, you understand the blackpill fully, in a way that goes beyond sex or dating. Being undesirable and ostracized in your formative years can damage your psyche in a brvtal way. When you grow up and fix your looks you still often feel that same sense of alienation when people inevitably realize that you are not like them under the surface.

 

[Just_a_maxxer]

Bump

 

[julioo27_]

brutal, i get that feeling, from being that autistic teen in your friend group that gets literally no girls to surpassing most of your friends bc and make-out count in just two years, but for me, it aint enough, the 6s of today will be the 4s of tomorrow, there is still a very long road for me

 

[Azrail]

I saw a TikTok of some teenagers playing around in class, having fun and laughing, and out of nowhere, years of memories hit me. The familiar feeling of alienation came back in the pit of my stomach. Again I felt like the fat ugly fuck who was never part of the group, always on the outside looking in, since 1st grade or earlier.

Now I’m in college, and those same people from my hometown ask me for gym advice or say “Bro you look like the gigachad meme!1” when they meet me again. It’s hard not to feel bitter.

If you live this experience, you understand the blackpill fully, in a way that goes beyond sex or dating. Being undesirable and ostracized in your formative years can damage your psyche in a brvtal way. When you grow up and fix your looks you still often feel that same sense of alienation when people inevitably realize that you are not like them under the surface.

I really feel understood by ur post and can pretty much relate . I was getting bullied so badly that i sometimes received a bleeding nose or blue bruises from all the beating , that’s not all of it tho i also got heavily made fun of making jokes about me and sometimes straight up just getting threats . All of this happening simply because i was overweight and awkward .
I endured it for 2 years after finally switching schools , i genuinely would have killed myself if i had to deal with that for my entire school life . At least i got motivation cause of it and lost 13 kg as well as gaining muscle .

 

[HTNGrevious]

I really feel understood by ur post and can pretty much relate . I was getting bullied so badly that i sometimes received a bleeding nose or blue bruises from all the beating , that’s not all of it tho i also got heavily made fun of making jokes about me and sometimes straight up just getting threats . All of this happening simply because i was overweight and awkward .
I endured it for 2 years after finally switching schools , i genuinely would have killed myself if i had to deal with that for my entire school life . At least i got motivation cause of it and lost 13 kg as well as gaining muscle . View attachment 3867268View attachment 3867269

how can u let someone beat u bro

 

[Azrail]

how can u let someone beat u bro

I was always getting beat up in groups of people and never had a fair chance , i know this seems like a straight up lie but after a couple years of box training i did win a fight and never got beaten up ever again

( me besides people my age or older ) i had a major growth spurt in the years of not seeing my bully making me 6,2 at 16 and also pretty buff cause of the training , accepted and moved on from the past after the fight and i never felt better

 

[RealNinja]

I really feel understood by ur post and can pretty much relate . I was getting bullied so badly that i sometimes received a bleeding nose or blue bruises from all the beating , that’s not all of it tho i also got heavily made fun of making jokes about me and sometimes straight up just getting threats . All of this happening simply because i was overweight and awkward .
I endured it for 2 years after finally switching schools , i genuinely would have killed myself if i had to deal with that for my entire school life . At least i got motivation cause of it and lost 13 kg as well as gaining muscle . View attachment 3867268View attachment 3867269

Good job on the weight loss man. Your current physique reminds me of how my body looked after losing 100lbs, you’re in skinnyfat purgatory right now. Right now the best option for you is to eat very high protein, keep calories at maintenance or slightly above, and lift heavy with consistency. Do that for 6-12 months until you plateau, do a cut to get lean, and then do a real bulk. Trust me on this advice, you will ascend.

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

I really feel understood by ur post and can pretty much relate . I was getting bullied so badly that i sometimes received a bleeding nose or blue bruises from all the beating , that’s not all of it tho i also got heavily made fun of making jokes about me and sometimes straight up just getting threats . All of this happening simply because i was overweight and awkward .
I endured it for 2 years after finally switching schools , i genuinely would have killed myself if i had to deal with that for my entire school life . At least i got motivation cause of it and lost 13 kg as well as gaining muscle . View attachment 3867268View attachment 3867269

I've never witnessed this tier of bullying tbh

Always surprises me

 

[RealNinja]

I've never witnessed this tier of bullying tbh

Always surprises me

Yeah that’s wild if true, some high school movie shit lol. I got bullied for being fat and ugly but it was just people verbally mocking me for being fat and ugly.

 

[pope]

I saw a TikTok of some teenagers playing around in class, having fun and laughing, and out of nowhere, years of memories hit me. The familiar feeling of alienation came back in the pit of my stomach. Again I felt like the fat ugly fuck who was never part of the group, always on the outside looking in, since 1st grade or earlier.

Now I’m in college, and those same people from my hometown ask me for gym advice or say “Bro you look like the gigachad meme!1” when they meet me again. It’s hard not to feel bitter.

If you live this experience, you understand the blackpill fully, in a way that goes beyond sex or dating. Being undesirable and ostracized in your formative years can damage your psyche in a brvtal way. When you grow up and fix your looks you still often feel that same sense of alienation when people inevitably realize that you are not like them under the surface.

Yeah overall I see it as a gift tbh. I saw what people are truly like and honestly most deserve to be skinned and quartered

 

[Azrail]

I've never witnessed this tier of bullying tbh

Always surprises me

I was in all honesty a pretty akward kid and kept to myself so it’s a lil understandable.
Might be a culture or location thing but this level of bullying is pretty average i’ve seen worse cases