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for the last few years only hope has kept my life togetger and that everything will be better or at least I can do a fraction of what Ive always wanted - which is to share my life with somebody, whether with friends or my own family / child.
this hope has been leaving me for the last few months, because my possibilities are not great, and when I take over all the scenarios, at my age, background, mental disorder, my future is be forever alone.
The last chance to make friends was HS and then college (which I couldnt attend because I had to work) The same to get a girlfriend. I would must to have friends and a social circle to get a girlfriend, because with my looks its over. (muh muh chad, most teens holding hands girl are manlets with brown eyes and normal facelstructure - none 190cm mega zygos, hunter eyes chad)
virtually a vicious circle when snake eats its own tail.
the sad true that my childhood was quite ok, but my disorder and introversion began to assert itself strongly in my teens which which resulted in me not learning a lot of social skills.
paradoxical that I dont remember almost anything from the past while the past is the only thing people think of you.
this hope has been leaving me for the last few months, because my possibilities are not great, and when I take over all the scenarios, at my age, background, mental disorder, my future is be forever alone.
The last chance to make friends was HS and then college (which I couldnt attend because I had to work) The same to get a girlfriend. I would must to have friends and a social circle to get a girlfriend, because with my looks its over. (muh muh chad, most teens holding hands girl are manlets with brown eyes and normal facelstructure - none 190cm mega zygos, hunter eyes chad)
virtually a vicious circle when snake eats its own tail.
the sad true that my childhood was quite ok, but my disorder and introversion began to assert itself strongly in my teens which which resulted in me not learning a lot of social skills.
paradoxical that I dont remember almost anything from the past while the past is the only thing people think of you.
