edgemaxx
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Uhh okay. First things first n shid. this is a serious thread for once! From mee. yeah the @PROMETHEUS guy asked me to describe how it feels being in psychosis.
i was going to vacation in my village, waiting for train…, minding my business n shid. Some nigger came to me and just said something bad that made me very depressed(i was a pussy i coudlnt do shit man) first i got depressed without realising it. I started losing joy and Felt hopeless cuz i wasnt getting “bitches” n shit(i just was depressed) After that i started getting scared and seeing “smile man”(basically some smiley face in dark n shid)and i couldnt sleep in my room cuz i was scared as shit for no reason and had to wait till sunrise.
i finally left my village and came back to my town. Going out with friends and having actitivities DIDNT give me any joy(i didnt know why) turns out its called anhedonia and i wasnt feeling any joy or happiness. One day when i was ready to go with my friends n shid waiting for bus. I euddenly got so anxious for no reason i was shaking. I didnt know why, and started getting these thoughts i disnt have back then. Like “everyone is bad” “they want to kill me” “this car is probably hitting me” and started getting scared for no reason. I also became too paranoid. Didnt go to school for 4 months(this was year ago btw)only because i thought my classmates were enemies or sum shid, my thoughts were fucked up and i started seeing disorted walls, bugs on my skin, couldnt speak like a normal human, and was scared to go to school for no reason. I also went to neurologist and nigga consulted me a psychologist or sum. And then after like 6 months of this same shit i became slightly normal again. It was so shitty i wouldnt reccomend getting it tbh.
i was going to vacation in my village, waiting for train…, minding my business n shid. Some nigger came to me and just said something bad that made me very depressed(i was a pussy i coudlnt do shit man) first i got depressed without realising it. I started losing joy and Felt hopeless cuz i wasnt getting “bitches” n shit(i just was depressed) After that i started getting scared and seeing “smile man”(basically some smiley face in dark n shid)and i couldnt sleep in my room cuz i was scared as shit for no reason and had to wait till sunrise.
i finally left my village and came back to my town. Going out with friends and having actitivities DIDNT give me any joy(i didnt know why) turns out its called anhedonia and i wasnt feeling any joy or happiness. One day when i was ready to go with my friends n shid waiting for bus. I euddenly got so anxious for no reason i was shaking. I didnt know why, and started getting these thoughts i disnt have back then. Like “everyone is bad” “they want to kill me” “this car is probably hitting me” and started getting scared for no reason. I also became too paranoid. Didnt go to school for 4 months(this was year ago btw)only because i thought my classmates were enemies or sum shid, my thoughts were fucked up and i started seeing disorted walls, bugs on my skin, couldnt speak like a normal human, and was scared to go to school for no reason. I also went to neurologist and nigga consulted me a psychologist or sum. And then after like 6 months of this same shit i became slightly normal again. It was so shitty i wouldnt reccomend getting it tbh.
