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nd_manlet
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words alone could never truly describe what im going through, but i will try to explain it the best i can. that is if there even is a such thing. the only thing that can be known for sure is the existence of subjective experience. everything else might as well be fabricated. i dont know how im still here.. i think it started with nightmares. i would have these awful nightmares.the first type of nightmare: i would live entire lives that felt more real than anything, only to wake up and realize it was all a dream. i suppose this is due to time dilation in dreams or something else. the other type of nightmare i would experience was truly something that words cannot come close to describing. for that reason i wont event attempt to explain what these nightmares were like. now that i think about it i cant remember anything at all from my first 8 years of life. expect 1 thing. i recall being all alone in the middle of a forest. i was also naked. i believe at the time i was about 3 or 4. i just remeber standing there and feeling the most lonely feeling i have ever felt to this day. i screamed and shouted but no one came to save me. i dont recall what happened after that. honestly i dont even know where im going with this. i am the only one. there are no other beings. one subjective experience. all alone.
