Putting off my life until surgery

[Prøphet]

I’m basically locking away all of my life until I get surgery

I hate my life rn so much I don’t want to live it so i just waste all my time rotting and don’t do anything productive

I guess I see how my life could be if I wasn’t deformed and I get so discouraged looking at how things are and the experiences Ive had with lookism


I tell myself surgery will save my life surgery will make me happy etc

But it is a cope tbh because I’m still wasting all my time with the expectation hanging in front of me

Putting off things like getting a job, hanging out with people, enjoying my life etc

This is what the surgery will fix btw



What do you guys think

 

[DrRodger]

You won't get shit

 

[Prøphet]

You won't get shit

I’m already scheduled

 

[Prøphet]

Bump

 

[teaker]

I’m already scheduled

What exactly are you getting and where are you getting it

 

[Prøphet]

What exactly are you getting and where are you getting it

Is it not obvious just looking at my eyes? Genuinely curious a lot of people seem to not notice in pictures but irl everyone notices

 

[teaker]

Is it not obvious just looking at my eyes?

Some people have different ideas on what they need I was just wondering if it was multiple procedures or one

 

[Prøphet]

Some people have different ideas on what they need I was just wondering if it was multiple procedures or one

No like do you see what the huge issue is looking at one eye and then the other

 

[persiacell]

I’m basically locking away all of my life until I get surgery

I hate my life rn so much I don’t want to live it so i just waste all my time rotting and don’t do anything productive

I guess I see how my life could be if I wasn’t deformed and I get so discouraged looking at how things are and the experiences Ive had with lookism


I tell myself surgery will save my life surgery will make me happy etc

But it is a cope tbh because I’m still wasting all my time with the expectation hanging in front of me

Putting off things like getting a job, hanging out with people, enjoying my life etc

This is what the surgery will fix btw

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What do you guys think

genuinely same man, as soon as im hardmaxxed I will go out every single time my irl ´´friends´´ go out tho and just brag and piss them off with my looks to the point where they dont want me to go to the club with them or something because I get all the girls and they´re jealous asf

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

omg im actually so sorry bro

Im basically doin the same thing

Mines in 110 days how long you got

 

[NinjaRG9]

are those your eyes?

 

[teaker]

No like do you see what the huge issue is looking at one eye and then the other

Well yah the cross eye

 

[Prøphet]

are those your eyes?

Yes

Do you see the issue I feel like everyone here gaslights maybe out of pity

 

[Prøphet]

omg im actually so sorry bro

Im basically doin the same thing

Mines in 110 days how long you got

A couple weeks

Good luck man what are you getting

 

[teaker]

I’m basically locking away all of my life until I get surgery

I hate my life rn so much I don’t want to live it so i just waste all my time rotting and don’t do anything productive

I guess I see how my life could be if I wasn’t deformed and I get so discouraged looking at how things are and the experiences Ive had with lookism


I tell myself surgery will save my life surgery will make me happy etc

But it is a cope tbh because I’m still wasting all my time with the expectation hanging in front of me

Putting off things like getting a job, hanging out with people, enjoying my life etc

This is what the surgery will fix btw

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What do you guys think

Can I see your whole face?

 

[NinjaRG9]

Yes

Do you see the issue I feel like everyone here gaslights maybe out of pity

of course i see that objectively they are very flawed but that doesnt mean i personally cant like them whcih i do

 

[Prøphet]

of course i see that objectively they are very flawed but that doesnt mean i personally cant like them whcih i do

That’s kind of you bro

I just can’t wait for them to be looking straight, I’ll still be sub5 but at least won’t look so retarded

 

[Prøphet]

Can I see your whole face?

Nah I don’t wanna have it on here

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

A couple weeks

Good luck man what are you getting

from the way u was talking u made it sound like u were bunkering down for like 6 months

 

[teaker]

Nah I don’t wanna have it on here

Pm me

 

[Prøphet]

from the way u was talking u made it sound like u were bunkering down for like 6 months

I have been doing this for like a year, I started talking to the surgeon last year it just took forever

 

[Mob Boss]

One of my muay thai coaches had the same problem you face

He had the surgery and he looks WAY better then I thought he would

 

[Revan]

good luck bhai

 

[Prøphet]

genuinely same man, as soon as im hardmaxxed I will go out every single time my irl ´´friends´´ go out tho and just brag and piss them off with my looks to the point where they dont want me to go to the club with them or something because I get all the girls and they´re jealous asf

It’s a good feeling to fantasize but then I look and see all the time I’m wasting right now on a dream for the future

 

[Prøphet]

One of my muay thai coaches had the same problem you face

He had the surgery and he looks WAY better then I thought he would

Just curious did you see him differently as a person afterward? I feel like there’s a huge association between this and mental disability that people tend to make unconsciously.

 

[Prøphet]

good luck bhai

Thank you bhai

 

[Mob Boss]

Just curious did you see him differently as a person? I feel like there’s a huge association between this and mental disability that people tend to make unconsciously.

Actually yes

When he had the eye thing I always thought he had some sort of mental thing going on even though I knew he was completely fine

But now I see him as a very normal guy

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

I have been doing this for like a year, I started talking to the surgeon last year it just took forever

yeah the wait tuff ngl

Did you spend that year grinding so you could finance it

 

[D02]

I’m basically locking away all of my life until I get surgery

I hate my life rn so much I don’t want to live it so i just waste all my time rotting and don’t do anything productive

I guess I see how my life could be if I wasn’t deformed and I get so discouraged looking at how things are and the experiences Ive had with lookism


I tell myself surgery will save my life surgery will make me happy etc

But it is a cope tbh because I’m still wasting all my time with the expectation hanging in front of me

Putting off things like getting a job, hanging out with people, enjoying my life etc

This is what the surgery will fix btw

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What do you guys think

Very sorry man, but you need to get a job just in case anything bad happens.

Then pls grow out ur eyeslashes nigga u don't have any bottom eyelashes what have u been doing.

 

[Prøphet]

yeah the wait tuff ngl

Did you spend that year grinding so you could finance it

No man I wasted all my time just doing the bare minimum, school and coping in my room

I should’ve at least got a job to save up for other surgeries, but I see myself in the mirror I just don’t want to live I was extremely depressed and gave up on my life

 

[Prøphet]

Very sorry man, but you need to get a job just in case anything bad happens.

Then pls grow out ur eyeslashes nigga u don't have any bottom eyelashes what have u been doing.

Yeah I’m getting a job asap after the surgery

But it feels like an excuse at the same time

But I also know people will reallytreat me like shit in the real world until I fix this

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

No man I wasted all my time just doing the bare minimum, school and coping in my room

I should’ve at least got a job to save up for other surgeries, but I see myself in the mirror I just don’t want to live I was extremely depressed and gave up on my life

same nga

only reason I aint roped because I got the escape financed

I spent 4 years in the subhuman warehouse cause its the only place for chopped ngas to just keep their head down and grind without having to get mogged all day at work and talk to people u know dont want to see u

 

[Prøphet]

same nga

only reason I aint roped because I got the escape financed

I spent 4 years in the subhuman warehouse cause its the only place for chopped ngas to just keep their head down and grind without having to get mogged all day at work and talk to people u know dont want to see u

Sounds ideal for me, I hope getting my eyes straightened I’ll stop being so depressed about my life and actually feel a desire to at least try

Were you able to live at home while you did it? What surgeries are you getting btw?

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

Sounds ideal for me, I hope getting my eyes straightened I’ll stop being so depressed about my life and actually feel a desire to at least try

Were you able to live at home while you did it? What surgeries are you getting btw?

For half that time I had a 2 bedroom apartment that I rented by myself

Once I gave up trying to blow up on tiktok while chopped I just moved most my shit into a unit and rented a single room in a house with 5 people

Im getting 7mm browbone reduction to fix my awful facial convexity

nah bruh u should definitely feel better, how could you ever see the path forward when one of your eyes always lookin the wrong ahh way

 

[Prøphet]

For half that time I had a 2 bedroom apartment that I rented by myself

Once I gave up trying to blow up on tiktok while chopped I just moved most my shit into a unit and rented a single room in a house with 5 people

Im getting 7mm browbone reduction to fix my awful facial convexity

nah bruh u should definitely feel better, how could you ever see the path forward when one of your eyes always lookin the wrong ahh way

Damn 5 people is crazy lol

Yeah sometimes I think maybe aim overreacting and just being a mentalcel but then I remember in school all the bad times I had, I’m such an abused dog Inneed to at least have a chance

Seriously wish you the best of luck, your surgery will be here before you know it dw

 

[Pale God]

I’m basically locking away all of my life until I get surgery

I hate my life rn so much I don’t want to live it so i just waste all my time rotting and don’t do anything productive

I guess I see how my life could be if I wasn’t deformed and I get so discouraged looking at how things are and the experiences Ive had with lookism


I tell myself surgery will save my life surgery will make me happy etc

But it is a cope tbh because I’m still wasting all my time with the expectation hanging in front of me

Putting off things like getting a job, hanging out with people, enjoying my life etc

This is what the surgery will fix btw

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What do you guys think

 

[Acquiescence]

You will regret this

Not saying put yourself out there and try to live out a Chad delusion

But you gotta enjoy some copes, something, anything

Nothing is guaranteed, you could die tomorrow

The cucked boomer advice of balancing the present and future is true

 

[Prøphet]

You will regret this

Not saying put yourself out there and try to live out a Chad delusion

But you gotta enjoy some copes, something, anything

Nothing is guaranteed, you could die tomorrow

The cucked boomer advice of balancing the present and future is true

Idk if you saw the picture but this is it btw

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Yeah I do regret all the time I spent depressed just waiting doing nothing but at the same time I don’t know if I ever had a chance without this surgery, might’ve been even more depressing to go out and do shit while being crosseyed

But I definitely won’t make the same “mistake” when it comes to other hardmaxxes, this one just hurt me a lot, I can make peace with the other things I think

I just let avoidance completely take over my life like the abused dog I am

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

Damn 5 people is crazy lol

Yeah sometimes I think maybe aim overreacting and just being a mentalcel but then I remember in school all the bad times I had, I’m such an abused dog Inneed to at least have a chance

Seriously wish you the best of luck, your surgery will be here before you know it dw

Are u in the hardmax server u should post your updates over there

 

[Prøphet]

Are u in the hardmax server u should post your updates over there

Nah I’m gonna post update on here once I get it