Deleted member 6695
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I feel so worthless, I provide no value to anyone, my friends, school, parents. No human, not even my parents truly love me and never will. Love is fake, nobody cares for me. I will always remain a second choice and have others prioritized over me in everything in life. It will be like this until the day I die. How can I cope with this, Im destined to be lonely. People are so egoistic to me and yet i still care so much about them, whats wrong with me. I never learn from this repeating mistake.
Wanna hear a sad story?
When I was 11 or so, i went to my dads house alot. we had just 2 blankets in the house, so they had to be for my Dad and Sister. So I had to sleep without one, freezing because of the temperatures in that house, also flies would attack me probably because of my body being warm or something. It kept me awake for hours, it woke me up and ruined my sleep countless times. I felt so horrible. Worst thing is, that we could afford to buy me A DAMN BLANKET. IT WAS JUST THAT NOBODY CARED FOR ME. I would sometimes improvise and use a small shower towel i used after swimming if i brought it with me, it didnt make it that much better at all. I feel so damn bad for the poor children having sleep like that. It has probably ruined me mentally and also my development. This is happening again at the new house I am living in. laying on a in the cold without a blanket comtemplating. Do i deserve this guys. Do i really?
Worst part is i have so many more stories about simular occurances. I can go on.
Are all people like this or is it just so that happens to only be everyone i know irl? I hate this
Wanna hear a sad story?
When I was 11 or so, i went to my dads house alot. we had just 2 blankets in the house, so they had to be for my Dad and Sister. So I had to sleep without one, freezing because of the temperatures in that house, also flies would attack me probably because of my body being warm or something. It kept me awake for hours, it woke me up and ruined my sleep countless times. I felt so horrible. Worst thing is, that we could afford to buy me A DAMN BLANKET. IT WAS JUST THAT NOBODY CARED FOR ME. I would sometimes improvise and use a small shower towel i used after swimming if i brought it with me, it didnt make it that much better at all. I feel so damn bad for the poor children having sleep like that. It has probably ruined me mentally and also my development. This is happening again at the new house I am living in. laying on a in the cold without a blanket comtemplating. Do i deserve this guys. Do i really?
Worst part is i have so many more stories about simular occurances. I can go on.
Are all people like this or is it just so that happens to only be everyone i know irl? I hate this
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