gwam
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im just mad at myself and this world everyday I fight to live because of my looks, I genuinely cant get over it. ive cried for the first time in a while this night, last time was when my cat died this month. I looked in the mirror and I just couldn't stand myself, why am I like this. why cant I just be beautiful why cant I be like my friend? hes so fucking pretty and beautiful yet he chooses to be my best friend, someone to hangout with me and to be close to me. im a fucking monster dude, I was at my friends today because his father was celebrating being married for 25 years and he had his cousin over and 2 friends. the 2 friends kept talking about how tall I am and that im scary, I fucking get it dude im tall Im not a monster im not gonna kill you, and one that kept talking about it was genuinely handsome as fuck and all I felt was disgust towards myself, I just dont know. ive had police come over due to my suicidal activity online after someone reported me and I have to go to CPS often, I dont get it. everyone says im pretty and girls would drool over me. where the fuck are they, I have never held hands with a girl I have never kissed a girl I have never cuddled with one I just want to feel the warmth of the opposite gender and for them to love me without me feeling like they wont leave me, tomorrow im hanging out with my best friend and probably attempting suicide via slitting my wrists. knowing me im too much of a pussy but ill update you guys on this thread if I did it or backed out. im typing this as tears keep rolling down my face
