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[sorrow_]

im tired of my life and this is the only place i can talk about cuz guess what im a fucking loser its not even about looks anymore matter a facct in my country i could be considered as mtn but beside the looks i think im hte real problem in my life i ruin everything without rrealising it relationships or a friend ships i couldnt say that i got no friends i sure have friends but from my prespective i have no friends i have no one to talk about my feelings or whats going on in my life i coulds say 30 names of people who i call friends and none of them ever i ask me "hey how ur doing, everything going allright?" and i dont even know what i do i just want a friend who will truly be conserend about me and even if he will be i dont want to them to ask aabout my feelings from out of pitty i fr dont know what im doing wrong but all i feel is lonlines and sorrow every time i remeber good memorys and go numb from sadness realizing my life will never be the same and so happy im lost in a lonliness adn wish to be able to change that but ig life has another plans for me image not baing able to talk about ur feelings with friends and having to rant about it on some website