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[Gomez]

I geniuenly would read this but judging off your rep to post ratio i would fucking regret wasting my time​

 

[khazarianmafia73]

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[wii]

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[doruxx]

Okay this post is going as structured as possible even tho im French, no AI, no lies but only truth, I just need to talk to someone about my current situation.

I'm basically a phenotypically euro guy, 18 years old 5'10. Everything started when I was 3 months, my parents broke up, my mom is an Arab white passing mtb and my dad is a white chad. I had to live with my mother alone until she met my stepdad when I was 2. At first, apparently during the first 3 years he was kind with me, but that didn't last. He started beating me when I was 5 and it went on until I was 13. He was always up to do something only to have the pleasure to hurt me, kicks, punches so hard that I had to skip class for a week sometimes, pushing me in the stairs, spit at my food. Everything he did my mom was aware of it, he even raped here twice in front of me. And it only got worse, the cadence increased a lot especially when his dad got cancer and he was addicted to alcohol.

Growing up in that made me always anxious asf and malformed even tho my dad is 6'6 and chad as I said earlier. As my childhood and school years passed I was starting to become more ND every year, always tired at school so I couldn't be concentrated. The fucking pseudoscientist alias neuropsychiatrist diagnosed me ADHD, I always had terrible grades, never had a good thing in my entire fucking childhood except seeing my dad once every 6 months, his work was more important than his own son apparently. That was my life, just surviving day by day.

So yeah after 13 years of my shitty life one time my dad saw that a part of my right leg was blue so we went to the police and a judge agreed to let me live with him bcs of everything that happened at mom's house. For the first time things felt different. I started to know my dad, even tho I was a subhuman I looked the morphed recessed version of him I admired him, always had 20 years girls as a man in his 40s. At that time everything wasn't perfect, I still didnt touch or even talk with a girl at school or having someone at home to take care of me, but at least I could not have a fucking asshole beating me.

Things were doing as they were until my dad passed away at 14 of a genetic disease and guess what I CAN HAVE IT HAHAHA. I may shock u but when he passed away I didnt cry I didnt feel anything. Since then I should feel empty. And just like that, after he was dead they put me back to my mom's house. When I came back my stepdad was laughing about my dad's death and I didnt do anything except that I moved out to my uncle house. But I didnt stay there for too long either, he and my cousins stole my dad's stuff without my permission and months after he told me I had to go back to my mom's house, saying shit like I have somewhat some responsibilities for my dad's death wtf. I had nowhere to go.

So I went back there, I got into a fight with my stepdad and this time I was strong enough, I broke his browridge and he made me some damages too. Afterwards we both went to police custody and my dad's best friend just knew what happened and he let me live in his house basement converted in an appartement. That's how at 15 I found myself alone in a basement, and that's when I discovered this community lol.

From there I was doing so many research, even if I had to stop high school I had to continue school but at my apartment alone with YouTube to learn and just go to the exams, and even with a year of retard I caught up my delay and ended up a year ahead of all of the guys that I had school with before. I tried all the shit that I could, aromatase inhibitors, GH, I would said it ascended a bit but not so much.

So until a year now I dont do shit bcs I was waiting to be 18. And guess what I have enough money to get any surgery I want. I'm going to be chad, ill do surgeries that u didnt even hear. So im going to be chad millionnaire at about 19.

But do u think I can feel good, not feeling empty, experiencing teenage love and forget about all that shit? Thank you if u read me until now, im grateful for that.

Tldr

 

[dragons6422]

Yes you can feel good and not empty. You just have to optimize your day to day routine to correct your neurotransmitters since there was no structure in your early life. Bad mood is a strong indicator of bad lifestyle. If you want proof, you are capable of laughing at a funny video and taking showers. That’s evidence your brain is still working properly.

You will probably not experience teenage love because your experiences likely fucked up your your pair bonding and attachment habits. No you will not forget what happened to you, it will only get in the way of your worldview, not your everyday mood. If you want teenage love, you have to looksmax since you missed the window in school to play sports and get social statusmaxxed. Get lean and jacked, dress well and get perfectly maintained haircut and optimize skincare + hygiene is all it takes. No surgery necessary.

 

[dragons6422]

Aaaand banned

 

[Surrender]

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Whats there to read nigga