real: how i fell in love with a 29yr old girl from the internet

[zeno]

i met her in an online chat room, opened with "would u meet with an 18yr old for a weekend to fuck" she said if 'if i enjoy it" then we kept talking etc
i thought shed be ugly but i was just horny and shit , so she sent me a pic and she was a short cute lil girl 7psl for sure i was amazed
she added me on skype, she was very smart, she finished 3 majors btw and was studiyng on a masters and was working as ap sychologist btw , psycohology is cope but she made me see the job difrent, she wasnt smart cuz she finished 3 majors she was smart cuz of the way she responded and etc

at some point she askekd me if im scared that we will bond i said hehe no ofc i just wann a fuck et cetc

it was she who srtarted my downhill and completel self esteem destruction when she told me sth that wrecked my mind about her first boyfriend that i dont want to remember

while she was talking w me she told me she had a probable relationship going on but that wouldnt interfere e with our meeting, she was dtf i showed her chery pics
but i bonded and i liked her so much some days after i wrot a rant to her telling her why i dont want to meet cuz ofc i couldnt . she thought i was cool but omg i was such a freak she thought i had friends and had girls in the past and wasnt a virgin and taht i leave the house and go out

such a big gap between us but i will never forget her i still get mentasl sometimes having some bad thoughts about her egh...

* iwish there was a story option in the tags

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Where are these chat rooms? Sounds so hot tbh

 

[zeno]

Where are these chat rooms? Sounds so hot tbh

you can find them everywhere, the one i found her was native to my country
an example is 321chat, but i dont wanna talk about hot stuff now im a bit sad

 

[2peasinapod]

pathetic tbh

 

[Vidyacoper]

halo effect is real, bro she was going to fuck someone when she had a "probable relationship" going on SHES A WHORE SHUT UP

 

[zeno]

halo effect is real, bro she was going to fuck someone when she had a "probable relationship" going on SHES A WHORE SHUT UP

i know man, she told me that she does serious long term relationships and she doesnt cheat while on them, i kind of believed her cuz she dates chads from what she told me .. but i guess when she was off relationship she would fuck everyone and ugahhhh it feels so bad..

i liked her so much, and it was the exact type of girl i like ill never find one like her being loyal
her first bf btw was 2m and had 23cm dick ok i said it, i go rope now (and theres worse too she told me )

 

[turkproducer]

attachment issues like this is a clear sign of insecurity and high E personality bro

learn to detatch, i think it comes with time once you see bad treatment of males by women

 

[Vidyacoper]

i know man, she told me that she does serious long term relationships and she doesnt cheat while on them, i kind of believed her cuz she dates chads from what she told me .. but i guess when she was off relationship she would fuck everyone and ugahhhh it feels so bad..

i liked her so much, and it was the exact type of girl i like ill never find one like her being loyal
her first bf btw was 2m and had 23cm dick ok i said it, i go rope now (and theres worse too she told me )

bruhh wtf suifuel knowing ill never be like that guy

 

[zeno]

attachment issues like this is a clear sign of insecurity and high E personality bro

learn to detatch, i think it comes with time once you see bad treatment of males by women

how do i do it bro.. i literally bond with everygirl thats a bit differnt and cute... i cant stop

bruhh wtf suifuel knowing ill never be like that guy

ik man, i was hitting my head in the fking wallto stop these thoughts of him fucking her AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, one day i told her "im worried if my dick wont satisfy u" and instead of her saying some shit like "15cm is perfect" etc she said "its not all about the size, even if that happens you still got your fingers, brain, mouth" SUIFUEL

 

[Halotestin]

 

[ChaddeusPeuterschmit]

Turns out it was a 350 lb neck beard larping the whole time

 

[zeno]

Turns out it was a 350 lb neck beard larping the whole time

she talked to me on skype (i didnt talk, had 1000 excuses for that)
she had an angelic voice
and she was even like " dont worry, i dont want u to talk just hear me and cum for me"
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

 

[Mr_Norwood]

I remember the old Yahoo chat rooms when I was a youngster.

Took the train up to blackpool with my friend to meet two girls we were talking to..

We were 14 and they were 13.. we hung out at the theme park with them and kissed..

Good times. Would never happen these days.. they'd be on tinder frauding as 18yo's getting impregnated by Chad.

 

[zeno]

attachment issues like this is a clear sign of insecurity and high E personality bro

learn to detatch, i think it comes with time once you see bad treatment of males by women

btw, what are physical traits of high e, i dont think i got high e tbh
yes i have extreme insecurities and idk if i ever escape from it, i bond instantly with girls and remember them for the rest of my life
how can i fix this

 

[turkproducer]

btw, what are physical traits of high e, i dont think i got high e tbh
yes i have extreme insecurities and idk if i ever escape from it, i bond instantly with girls and remember them for the rest of my life
how can i fix this

i had this but nowhere near as severe

i don’t know but don’t count on being hairy or a decent frame to mean u have high E..


Just keep blackpilling yourself, women aren’t these angelic creatures you think they are..

 

[zeno]

i had this but nowhere near as severe

i don’t know but don’t count on being hairy or a decent frame to mean u have high E..


Just keep blackpilling yourself, women aren’t these angelic creatures you think they are..

im very very blackpilled about women but when i see one irl or a cute one gives me some attention (online, irl i got 13 interactions w fmales) i instantly forget everything and i feel like il ldie from the positive feelinsg and i start "loving" her

 

[auboutduprecipice]

im very very blackpilled about women but when i see one irl or a cute one gives me some attention (online, irl i got 13 interactions w fmales) i instantly forget everything and i feel like il ldie from the positive feelinsg and i start "loving" her

you have not yet been broken then

 

[zeno]

you have not yet been broken then

but i feel like if i ever had a gf and got broken as ud say i owuldnt start hating them.. id just suicide

one of my fears is that if i ever ascend, (maybe in my low 20s or mid, maybe never) and i start tallking to girls and maybe get a gf, it will be so extraordinayry for me and at such an old age (other kids had that experience at 13yr old) it will destroy me when its over

 

[auboutduprecipice]

but i feel like if i ever had a gf and got broken as ud say i owuldnt start hating them.. id just suicide

quite the contrary. you would be free from further pain and suffering then take the good moments as they come and enjoy them in the moment

 

[.👽.]

i met her in an online chat room, opened with "would u meet with an 18yr old for a weekend to fuck" she said if 'if i enjoy it" then we kept talking etc
i thought shed be ugly but i was just horny and shit , so she sent me a pic and she was a short cute lil girl 7psl for sure i was amazed
she added me on skype, she was very smart, she finished 3 majors btw and was studiyng on a masters and was working as ap sychologist btw , psycohology is cope but she made me see the job difrent, she wasnt smart cuz she finished 3 majors she was smart cuz of the way she responded and etc

at some point she askekd me if im scared that we will bond i said hehe no ofc i just wann a fuck et cetc

it was she who srtarted my downhill and completel self esteem destruction when she told me sth that wrecked my mind about her first boyfriend that i dont want to remember

while she was talking w me she told me she had a probable relationship going on but that wouldnt interfere e with our meeting, she was dtf i showed her chery pics
but i bonded and i liked her so much some days after i wrot a rant to her telling her why i dont want to meet cuz ofc i couldnt . she thought i was cool but omg i was such a freak she thought i had friends and had girls in the past and wasnt a virgin and taht i leave the house and go out

such a big gap between us but i will never forget her i still get mentasl sometimes having some bad thoughts about her egh...

* iwish there was a story option in the tags

Dafuq did i just read

 

[zeno]

quite the contrary. you would be free from further pain and suffering then take the good moments as they come and enjoy them in the moment

but how, in my mind now slaying doesnt give me any joy or motivation.. i feel like if this "love" feeling stops or i dont want it anymore my life will just be empty, i started looksmaxing for this and i know ill never have it but smh i still cope

i never had sex but plain sex doesnt motivate me to do anything

 

[auboutduprecipice]

but how, in my mind now slaying doesnt give me any joy or motivation.. i feel like if this "love" feeling stops or i dont want it anymore my life will just be empty, i started looksmaxing for this and i know ill never have it but smh i still cope

i never had sex but plain sex doesnt motivate me to do anything

if you want that love feeling, you should read some classic literature. tolstoy, balzac, and hugo would be great for you to vent. the love you have in your head isnt really how things work. for it to stop you need to become broken then focus on other things in life