nathaniel higgers
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Over the last 2 years i’ve been doing everything in my power to ascend and look as good as possible. Buccal fat removal surgery, rigid skincare routine, hair care, growing hair out, dressing better, getting lean, gaining muscle learning more about flirting / “game”, etc. I’ve been seeing improvement and getting compliments from friends including some women. Girls who like me and have sex with me tell me how hot I am and i’m getting more attention from women in general. The truth is the quality of women I can get hasn’t really improved all that much.
Average looking girls are more likely to end up in my bed now but I think it’s time to realize the hotter girls just want very little to do with me no matter how hard I try. It’s just as it’s always been. By this point i’ve put in so much money and effort on a daily basis into my looks and it just hasn’t gotten me the tier of women I really want and the ROI just isn’t there for me. I think i’ve reached the point where something about my genetics is keeping me from getting that high tier attractive girl and I cannot change it. Maybe it’s the fact i’m 5’7, or just the blueprint of the way I look. I tried to cope and say my height doesn’t matter because of all the slays i’ve had in spite of that, but there has to be a reason why I can’t pull the hotter women and it’s gotta be all in the things I can’t change. I hate being a pessimist and subscribing to the idea that i’m just fucked for life but here I am. I guess i’ll just have to give up and settle in life like some loser and it makes me sick. I know i’m just venting but it’s frustrating after all the work i’ve put in every single day just to continue being periodically treated like crap and disregarded when I try to approach women or just disregarded by people in my life in general because I don’t have the halo effect due to my genetic framework.
Every bad interaction I have or rumor I hear about myself, or hearing that people don’t like me all ties back and mentally affirms these fucked up thoughts swirling in my head are true and I can’t help but feel that if I was truly hot or HTN / chad status none of these negative things would happen and my life would be so much more easy instead of how fucking miserable it can be. I wouldn’t feel as hateful or frustrated as I do. I try to be a blissfully ignorant happy retard and that’s all I can do to cope but it sure is hell sometimes when i’m reminded nothing I do will ever get me treated the way I think I should be. BP experiences will just be a part of my life and I have to accept it. Just knowing about these ideas has opened that can of worms and i’ll never be able to see life through a lense without it
Average looking girls are more likely to end up in my bed now but I think it’s time to realize the hotter girls just want very little to do with me no matter how hard I try. It’s just as it’s always been. By this point i’ve put in so much money and effort on a daily basis into my looks and it just hasn’t gotten me the tier of women I really want and the ROI just isn’t there for me. I think i’ve reached the point where something about my genetics is keeping me from getting that high tier attractive girl and I cannot change it. Maybe it’s the fact i’m 5’7, or just the blueprint of the way I look. I tried to cope and say my height doesn’t matter because of all the slays i’ve had in spite of that, but there has to be a reason why I can’t pull the hotter women and it’s gotta be all in the things I can’t change. I hate being a pessimist and subscribing to the idea that i’m just fucked for life but here I am. I guess i’ll just have to give up and settle in life like some loser and it makes me sick. I know i’m just venting but it’s frustrating after all the work i’ve put in every single day just to continue being periodically treated like crap and disregarded when I try to approach women or just disregarded by people in my life in general because I don’t have the halo effect due to my genetic framework.
Every bad interaction I have or rumor I hear about myself, or hearing that people don’t like me all ties back and mentally affirms these fucked up thoughts swirling in my head are true and I can’t help but feel that if I was truly hot or HTN / chad status none of these negative things would happen and my life would be so much more easy instead of how fucking miserable it can be. I wouldn’t feel as hateful or frustrated as I do. I try to be a blissfully ignorant happy retard and that’s all I can do to cope but it sure is hell sometimes when i’m reminded nothing I do will ever get me treated the way I think I should be. BP experiences will just be a part of my life and I have to accept it. Just knowing about these ideas has opened that can of worms and i’ll never be able to see life through a lense without it
